YF camp 08 [from my point of view]

Bonjour! Je parle Français!!! Merci beaucoup SLOO!!!
Translation: Hello! I speak french!!! Thank you very much, SLOO!!!

Yes I'm back from Youth Camp. So as per-usual like everyone else, I would like to jot down what happen, lessons, people, or anything I see that is worth putting down on my blog.


THE ACTIVITIES
Caving in Gua Tempurong for the second time is not too bad. Although my shoes became sole-less and it feels like walking bare footed on the small sharp rocks with only a thin piece of cloth strapped around my feet. Well, at least those shoes were old and worn and thankfully not Nike or Addidas (another reason for not buying branded goods).

Workshops were great. I thank God for enabling me to participate in the French workshop. We get to discover how to say our names in french. Well, for me that part was pretty much simple. Sloo's a great and patient teacher. Well done!
(though it was a bit weird when suddenly the Sing with Yuen Yuen Workshop interupted us with a funny song they composed, Well done to you guys too!)

Games were not too bad too! The Sukaneka (that has nothing related to sports) was indeed quite fun. I am glad to see all my group whole heartedly doing through every single disgusting things like stuffing their face with shaving cream, or stuffing their face into flour to find coins. And the best thing is: WE DID IT WITH A SMILE!

(plus I ruin the Jenga when it was at its last block)

Mystery Night too was well, a mystery. HAHA Basically its like CSI finding who kill the victim, using what weapon, where did it took place, and why. The whole event actually took 2 hours but time flies when we're having fun. Jason Voon's sexy acting scared the hair off people. Well, we didn't get first place but it's all right. We were close.

Talent time is yet another awesome thing to watched. The group Zeal would definitely be dead without Kevin Loo. And David Ho really has a limited vocabulary. Muruku?

THE CAMPSITE

As some of you have noted in my fellow YF-ers blogs. Yes the campsite was nice and clean but full of flies. That's because we were practically in the middle of nowhere. A good place to make someone stranded for life. Yeah. So the campsite is extremely good... so long as you don't open your mouth too long. A fly might just fly in.

Tragically, we didn't get to use much of the facilities due to the tight schedule. But it was all right.

Toilets were clean. Food were good. Beds were comfortable. Nettings for insects were there. And air cons were working! So I guess this campsite goes way up to my list for great compare to some other campsites I went to.

THE SPEAKER

Joshua Liong

You've seen him, you've heard him, and now you shall add him on FACEBOOK !!! So yeah. He was our camp speaker for Passion for God. He was just simply amazing. He just gets to the point and the point drives through you like a sword through your heart. Something most speakers won't do. They just try to create impressive and decorative jargon and makes you think too much untill you're brain is back to square one: empty.

All the things he had said are well, to me not new things but still things that I haven't thought of in a long, long time. Things that always remained in the back of my head, untill now. It is just incredible to be reminded that God chose to let us be involved in his plans. And the purpose for us is just too incredible so that glory goes back to God.

Thanks to him, I get my spiritual high and passion renewed for God.
(Team Hoyt always brings tears to my eyes without fail.)


THE PEOPLE
The people there are just super great. Spontaneous, active, willing to listen, ready to laugh and most importantly, GREAT FRIENDS!!! They are the people you wish time would just stood still and never ends.

Their sharing are just great encouragement for people like me. It shows that they are growing and in the right path.

On the last night of camp, I and Han Jung stayed up till 2:30 am for bonding session. It was really nice. Haha too bad the rest slept so fast. You guys should have seen the dining hall when it is dark. Outside was dark, inside was dark and the place is full of windows. Just imagine if someone in white suddenly walk past one of them. Brrrr....

YOUTH CAMP IS AWESOME!!!

Note to self: I only wish I was more friendlier to people.

The real reason to be jolly falala-lalala

As little children we would dream of Christmas morn

Of all the gifts and toys we knew we’d find

But we never realized a baby born one blessed night

Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason that He gave His life

We were the reason that He suffered and died

To a world that was lost He gave all He could give

To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more about gifts

The giving of ourselves and what that means

On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain

because of love

I finally found the reason for living

It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him

And all that I do every word that I say

I’ll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

We are the reason that He gave His life

We are the reason that He suffered and died

To a world that was lost He gave all He could give

To show us the reason to live

HAVE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVE WITHOUT FORGETTING THE REAL REASON FOR CHRISTMAS!

Your wish is my command, cool-shoes-owner/ Zoe

Directions: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog/Facebook note with 16 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 16 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave them a comment or tag them in your note to read this.

1. I love to create weird expressions.
2. I chose to be left behind instead of going for the Christmas family gathering today.
3. I once ran up my hand phone bill to RM150+
4. I wish I can be wise one day.
5. I want to die by cancer or some terminal disease so that I know how much time I have left.
6. I learn how to solve a rubik's cube by observing Mark Huang doing his thing.
7. I wish I had a sexier voice.
8. I love God but shamefully don't show it much.
9. I will change that [reffering to no.8]
10. I want to be able to think logically and rationally.
11. I want to build relationships that last.
12. I have a variable ability to sleep yet to be aware of my surroundings. Sometimes it happens sometimes it don't.
13. I can control what I say and do under the influence of alcohol when I am awake.
14. I can be everyones friend.
15. I wish I had more patience. You can never have too much.
16. I suck at romance.

I tag
Keen King (if you're sober by now)
Jun Yu (if you're un-emo right now)
Kit Meng (if you're free)

And you you you you you you *infinity.

I would understa-a-a-and~ Monday is not so bad day after all...

Eventhough it was really really really short notice, the best school friends made it to mid valley to catch:

Yes, you get it. Really awesome movie. Thanks Matt for recommending it. :) Go watch it, Jim Carrey's expressions are priceless.

Then we went to Fish and Co. for late dinner. That was when Keen King's chest becoming super red from 20% diluted vodka. I find my Fishy Maria was quite spicy. Yummmyyyy. Then we went to Sri Hartamas for Chivas. Boon Yang went red after a sip of wine. We shall call him Boon Yang the red faced clown. So we finished half of our Chivas bottle in Sri Hartamas and headed back to Jun Yu's place.

That was where the fun started and ended with a vomiting end. Ok. The fun didn't ended there. It never does. =D

So I and Keen King were being funny and poured the remaining half of the bottle of Chivas into our two cups to downed it. Unfortunately when we finished pouring we realised we almost finished the whole bottle. So yeah. Jun Yu get the whats left in the bottle and Keen King poured some for Boon Yang from his share. So WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE we toast, we downed and Keen King got really really really tipsy. Sorry. =D But really it is incredibly awesome how out of control you can get. You should see the vids I took for Keen King. Haha it looks as if I am really nailing it down on Keen King. That's because he was too funny. Really funny. Period.

Me? At least I am conscious enough to realise 1+2+3+4+5+6=21 Black Jack! And also still conscious enough to hear what the rest was mumbling in their sleep or half sleep. And also conscious enough to help open the jammed door.

Unfortunately, when I grew tired, alcohol takes its toll on me. No, I don't spout out truthful or revealing things or cursed like a sailor. Just get dizzy and feeling sick. So I tried to stay up as much as possible. But I failed miserably. So yeah I suddenly woke and heard a gut-wrenching sound and realize it came from me. Well, part of the sound also came from Keen King who was already in the toilet vomitting his guts out for 3 hours? So yeah, the toilet bowl was my best friend for the moment, Keen King had the sink to himself.

I think I shall stop there with the insightful details but I tell you this, it was an unpleasant sight. Jun Yu kindly took a vid for me to see. How kind. So when I got back from the toilet 20 minutes later (Keen King was still hugging the sink), I look at Jun Yu and said, "Lets do it again!"

No I was not saying that because I have no idea what was I saying. It is because I seriously felt a sense of elation, euphoria like sense of pleasure. Okay maybe not during the vomiting process but still...fun? It's like I can look back and say, "Been there! Done that!"

Yeah, it is kinda stupid to want to do what I did but really to me, it is something. Bonus: We get to hear Keen King confess that he love us monkeys. I'm really touch. I love you too, Keen King.

So summary of last night's events: Drinking, Making a fool out of ourselves, Laughter, Vomiting, Laughter at looking back of what we did during that night. Okay, maybe the laughing came from only me in the morning. I guess most people are not morning people. I am always happy I guess.

Please forgive me if I offended any of you dear readers for my outrages actions but please note that I would probably do it again. Just for the fun of it.

Cheers!

Undang my udang....

Waking up from sleep wasn't exactly as expected. It's more like waking up from screen saver mode, like a waking dream, like aware of everything yet to tired to do anything. Reason: stayed up whole night watching downloaded movies although clearly the undang test is tomorrow. 21 and Get Smart are great shows. Narnia was not too bad if you lower your expectations.

Well, back to me story, got up with incoherent thoughts, had breakfast and arrive at the Undang testing place at 9 and it was pack with people. I mean it starts from 8.30 am- 4.00 am. And you think Malaysians would always be late. Sad.

Well at least that meant there would be ample time for me to study! Yipee! Only the "study time" lasted 6 hours! Ish.... I meant it is kinda pathetic. Study for 6 hours and sat in front of the computer for 15 minutes.... Wheres the logic in that? T_T

Anyhoo, it's not too bad. I passed although the technique I used is really stupid. I was mentally noting the unsure questions, assuming they were wrong and what do you know? I got till question no.46 and with only 4 unsure questions. Which meant I tembak the remaining four questions. Passing mark is 42/50. I got 44! Not bad! I got 2 tembak questions correct!

Thank God I passed!

All the best for Boon Yang and Keen King for their Undang Tests!

(Keen King, please try to pass this time so you won't waste so much money on keep resitting your tests.)

良い一日不戦している!! (Japanese)

Christmas letter 2008 [Unedited version]

Greetings fellow beloved in the name of God Most High.

We are all keeping well and healthy. And if you are reading this Christmas letter, you, dear reader, must be keeping well too.

It is once again the season of joy and feasting where we all celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ. But of course, acknowledging this season also means acknowledging the end of another year and a beginning for a new one.

This year had been yet another interesting year for us. Jonathan had faced his SPM without any difficulties, as he convinced himself. Ezra is still able to smile. Beng and family had flown off to Canada. Seth has started university life. And Beijing Olympics was over as soon as it begun. Time sure flies, doesn’t it?

In April, Michael broke his ankle and was hospitalized. And thank God for that. The reason that statement was made is because Michael had been continuing his routine of driving here and there doing his errands with one eye blind. So in short, him breaking his ankle is like a blessed enforced rest and time to think. He learnt his lesson the hard way, but in the end, he learnt it well. Now he is less active but still keeps fit.

We just want to thank especially the church members for their selfless help rendered to the family when Michael was hospitalized. The countless visits, prayers, get-well gifts and also food were all very much appreciated.

In August, Cheow Ean, Cheow Beng and Cheow Lay all came back to spent time with the family and also sort of a farewell for Cheow Beng and family who will be heading off to Canada. Unfortunately, Cheow Lay and David couldn’t make it to the farewell feasts because they were touring China and watching the solar eclipse from there. Miraculously, Cheow Lay and David met up with Cheow Beng and family just as they arrived from China and Cheow Beng and family were leaving for Singapore and then to Canada.

That’s all about us this year. There is still more but we are running out of space.
Well, hope you all have a great time this Christmas and don’t get sick from eating all that Christmas pudding.

Love & Christmas greetings to one & all
Michael, See Ai. Ezra & Jonathan Wee

I don't want to survive! I want to live!

Wall-E is an awesome movie. Period. Almost comparable with The Dark Knight. Hehe, now I'm downloading Wanted, Hancock, Eagle Eye. Yeah, I didn't really get to watch all the recent movies cuz of SPM and all. Tell me some good one's that I miss out, ya? I want to download them too. hehe Oops, download is the wrong word. After I get arrested. How bout if I rephrase it to "shared"?

So prom came and went and the poor me stayed at home that night. Well, the word poor is in literal sense. So guess you can't blame me. Haha. So those who went, tell me about it sometime ya?

Just some random thought: I think the older we get, the less open we become.
Less open as in less friendly, more racist, more stubborn, etc.
Hehe Figure that sentence out yourself.

Wished more people had come to volleyball last night. Heh! Matthew Huang miraculously invited a total stranger and he came while Matt didn't. Weird huh?

Oh Well.

Enjoy the holidays!

I will be the last one on your mind......

Hmm.. That should be a song title for the next top charts hits. Sometimes, my self-inflicting criticisms just astounds people... okay, maybe just me. That is why you normally hear me boasting aloud in front of you people how great I am but in reality I'm just trying to shelter myself from the voice of cold logic that's constantly playing in my mind. Guess my dark secret that has been blown wide open onto the surface for the world to see. Yeah, I am kinda pathetic.

Does it scares you? To find that I'm not the ever-Mr. Brightside?

No. I guess it shouldn't as the title clearly puts it into perspective.

Guess that I am human that craves for attention and instant gratification.

I'll be waiting for New Moon.

My head is paining...

Have you ever was infected by flu that causes headaches like none you have ever experience before?

I have.

Well, at least it started this morning when I woke up and tried to raise my head up. It's like every time you move your head or make a step that vibrates to your skull, a sharp dagger of agony punctures your brain and you have to stop for a moment with your eyes close.
During those frequent brief moments of pain you cannot think, cannot navigate, cannot articulates your words to express the pain but just focus on the blinding pain. Maybe I'm just whining and exaggerating but that's how I feel.

Pain (whether physical or emotional) is good, no, really. Pain proves that you are still alive and not dead yet. That you have still hope on living. If you don't feel pain, you are either inhumane or dead.

Pain also builds us. Makes us stronger. Like when you tear your muscles and then when the muscles regenerates itself it will grow stronger. Something like that.

I can't really think straight now, but what I have I just jotted down there above.

I wish...I had wrote this poem

I wish I could hold you
The way that I hold you
In my dreams at night

I wish I could share
All the feelings that tear
Me apart inside

I wish I could tell you
So you’d understand
The loneliness locked deep within

I wish you could know
The feelings that flow
Each time someone mentions your name

I wish there was somewhere
My love could run free
A place where loaners could dare

I wish and I pray
Though I’ve always known
I wish that I wasn’t alone

- M R Wood

Public Enemy No.1

This December will be quite pack indeed. For the first time. Mostly I spend my last few years of year end holidays sitting on my butt in front of the computer screen playing games or watching anime. Yes I am a lifeless loser. Though frequently I would go out to KL and walk around for fun when boredom has totally reach its peak.

Things to do [Rephrased] LOTS of things to do :

• Hunt for colleges that have March intake. (really thinking of going to HELP)
• Organize Christmas party.
• Re-memorise and re-act an old skit for Christmas Eve.
• Get driving license.
• Read Twilight. (Bue! I need the books!)
• Solve my first Rubik's cube (Ruby) without any form of formula.
• Attend Committee retreat.
• Attend Christmas Program at church.
• Go for a Christmas Carols at KL PAC,
• Attend Youth Camp.
• Catch up on movies. (I still haven't watch Wall-E)
• Get Brisingr. When it is cheap.

And the list will be continuously added sooner or later. That I can assure you.

Anyway a word from the wise foolish (where fools will listen):

Sometimes, you can't expect parents to understand a teenager.

Yes it sounds very insulting but most of the time, the truth hurts. Why I said this? Because most (I'm not saying all but most =D) parents have already forgotten what it means to be young and foolish. Or also because they want the teenagers to not make mistakes in life. But then again mistakes are the things that molds and builds character.

Most of the time, firsthand learning is better than secondhand learning and that we should all experience the mistakes/lesson ourself than never experience them at all.

It is not totally the parents fault at not understanding actually, it is because the parents cares for their child. As a child, parents made decisions about everything from the bread the child eats in the morning to the type of toothpaste they use before going to bed. And it's a good thing because children need this kind of protection and guidance, because they aren't mature enough to take care of themselves or make careful decisions on their own.

But eventually, the child grows up and become teenagers. And part of being a teenager is developing their own identity : one that is separate from the identities of their parents. Identity as in creating their own opinions, thoughts, and values about life. This is what prepares them for adulthood.

Unfortunately, parents grew too comfortable of being "in control" and this dull their senses to their teenager's preference or feelings. They would always want to be in charge of everything concerning their child. So when the child hits puberty, most parents will have a hard time adjusting to the fact of letting go of this control. As a result, fights normally breaks out because of the reluctance of letting the teenager being his/herself.

So if you're a parent and looking for a solution for resolving fights with their teenagers, here's a tip: Let them make their own choices (most of the time) and mistakes, just warned them beforehand. Adjust to the fact that you are not always in control for the outcome of the child. God is.

I'm not saying parents are the cause of all fights. Its just that there is a lack of mutual respect and understanding. Like parents don't care what the teenagers do as long as they do it their way, or teenagers don't care what their parents say because of , "Hey! What do they know? " attitude.

Don't mind me, I am making no sense for I've just gone over the edge of sanity.

Last note:

All the best to Jun Yu and the rest who would be sitting for Accounts paper tomorrow!

SPM only what?

Rules and Regulations:

• do not copy answers
• the tag questions must be 100% the same
• tag people after doing tag
• no tagging back.
  

I tag:
1. Larissa the Blur
2. Sara Loo the Noob :P
3. Kevin Loo the Noob's brother
4. Han Jung the person who writes for pleasure
5. Keen King the Crab
6. Jun Yu the Emo
7. Liesl the Cicak
8. Rachel Ho the vertically challenged one
9. Sarah Lee the... hot??

How you know 1?
She magically dropped from the sky and hit my friendly bone.

What would you do if you never meet 2?
One less noob in this world that I know. No laaaa. I probably would have hunt her down eventhough I clearly never met her.

What would u do if 3 & 4 dated u?
Interesting... means I would be a bisexual? No that means I would be GAY!!! Goose bumps brrrrr~

Would 5 & 6 make a good couple?
of course! The best gay couple in the world. =.=

Do you think 7 is attractive?
She can be if she wants to. But she prefer to be tomboyish. But I think that is hot too. :)

Do u know anything about 8’s family?
Hmmm.... Goes to BSF? All of them except Tammy.

Tell me something about 9.
She loves her water bottle very very very much.

What language does 2 speak?
English, French (my french teacher and I don't know what else.

Who is 3 going out with?
Kevin? His drumsticks. I don't know.

How old is 4?
19 and some spare change.

When was the last time you talked to 5?
5 minutes ago?

Who is 6 favourite singer?
Himself. The egoistic bastard. :)

Would you date 7 ?
If she ask nicely. XP

Is 8 single?
Single but unavailable as Richard says.

What is 9's last name?
Flee Dwee See Meee Nah. It's LEE!!

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1?
Wah such TUFF questions. Haha I'll consider lor.

Which school does 2 go to?
Illawarra Christian School, that's what she puts in facebook.

What do you like about 3?
He has sexy long hair. He is farny like a bunny. He draws AWESOMELY. He is an awesome musician. He has a band!!!! (and no the band name is not so vain like Kevin and the Backup band.)

Corridors of Nostalgia... Catchy title, ain't it?

Yeah, so I have finish all my important papers today. Woohoo? Definitely! Physics is funny... I can see all the dissapointment on my friends' face (All the study study type). Hehe... study so much yet didn't come out. Suckers? I shall reserve that insult for later when I get my A for Physics. And we all know how "hardworking" I am. Staying up all night "studying" by playing with my Rubik's cube. I took a leaf outta Tammy Ho's book, I called mine Ruby.

Now that my mind is free yet still active, I start to reminisce as I walk through the school corridors. Thinking back when I first came into the school. Although it has only been 2 years, it seems like a life time. But then again, time goes so fast. Like Whoa! SPM's over. What happen? Contradicting events. Weird huh?

I couldn't possibly list down all the things that I thought back but here's a few:

Thinking how I sat through Add Maths doing other homework and teasing Mario (the teacher). Thinking how we deal with Madam Zabedah's sudden tantrums.
Thinking how Madam Norhayati answers our questions with great sarcasm.
Thinking how much we enjoy the absence of Madam Gina during double Bio.
Thinking about times where we debate Physics principles with Madam Jamaliah that eventually drives her up the wall.
Thinking about the patience of Madam Premila that faithfully teaches us Sejarah even when we're not listening (And not vomitting blood, that's a bonus!).
Thinking about Madam Anelyza as she constantly gives us endless homework to do yet we still do it because we love her (Or she would make us stand up on chairs or do fashion show as punishment for not doing).
Thinking of how much Madam Stanley have favorites in her class.
Thinking all the times I try to win the favour of Madam Selva in Moral class yet failed miserably.
Thinking about the times we play online checkers in computer class.

Thinking of all the monkeys of friends I made.
Thinking of all the time I spent with those monkeys.
Thinking of all the hopes, dreams, crushes, anger, dissapointment, laughter we shared.
Thinking of all the excuses we would make for incomplete homework.

But then I soon realised that those things will never cross my path ever again. The high school experience. Priceless. How I would miss all the punishments, nagging, encouragement, disciplinary actions from teachers. How I would miss having all the time playing chess during Add Maths with Johann with Mario watching us. How I would miss the senseless talk that somehow makes the sun shine brighter.

The list never ends.

But then I'll try to keep them in memory as long as I can.

These emotional stuff never really sync with me. So yeah, forgive me if it sounds fake.

But enough of that. There is still tomorrow. I shall forget the sorrow.


On the lighter yet brainless note: I AM FREE FREE FREE FREE FREE!!!!
Ok laaa, SPM not over lor. Still got a VERY VERY IMPORTANT subject: English for Science and Technology. How to study ah? Maybe I should start memorizing plusses and minusses. Like 1+1=3 and 3-7=29

Today I went to watch Tropic Thunder. Lots of skill actors but it is not that great la.

So with that I greet you GOOD MORNING!

Program Khidmat Negara

As some of you might have heard, I was selected to attend National Service. Honestly speaking, I don't really mind going or not going.

Pros: I get to go and learn skills, get to be independent, get allowance, get experience, and get to be buff? :P

Cons: Small percentage I won't make it out there alive. Small but it's there. Let's look at statistics.

21 deaths out of 360,000 kids is 0.0583% of all participants dying since 2004. Sounds not too bad right? But then just be reminded that Malaysia National Service do not undergo actual ammunition-weapons training. After all, all the trainees will be firing blanks and probably only 2 times in 3 months. Where else, Singapores' National Service undergo actual combat training and still manages far fewer deaths than Malaysian's .

But hey, you know that I always look at the pros. :D Mr. Brightside, that's me.

So yeah. I don't mind.


But then there is Residential Bible School (RBS). I really want to go to RBS but it will be held during my period for National Service (I'm in first batch). Some of you might be thinking that I want to use this as an excuse because I'm afraid of going to NS. The truth is, I'm am afraid of not attending RBS.

Reasons why I want to go is : I feel as if school and modern day distraction really is a big gigantic barrier for advancing in my walk of faith. Yes, I know it should not be and all that, but I am weak so I need an extra hand to help me. RBS to me is like that extra hand. I feel that I need to set a point somewhere to really get to know God, the Bible and everything else.

I dunno. I guess my point of view will change after I attend RBS. For the better, definitely.

So it seems like I'm in a dilemma. For country or for God? I think there are enough people joining NS as it is already. I think I read somewhere there will be 140,000 trainees this year. Last time there were only 100,000?

I'm planning to postpone my NS but then I don't think I'll be able to attend it at all ( with all my tertiary education). So too bad lor. Hopefully I can manage to postpone though. Please pray for me if you are willing. Thanks to Anderson and the RBS administration for preparing the letter to defer from NS. Extremely grateful.

Last but never the least, May God's will be done.

When you lower your expectations, you'll never be dissapointed...

Back aches, that was for sleeping on the floor with Zoe's Chem reference book on my head.

You might have heard, I didn't really study for Chem. Well, if you call studying from 12 am to 2 am then sleep untill 4 30 am then study again untill 6 am, "studying". Ok lor, I did. But you know what, I created a theory by doing so.

BULLSHIT ALERT
(You have permission to ignore the next few lines if you want to.)

The Theory of How To Study Lazily yet Smartly for SPM only (since the standard is low).

Pros: Get to be lazy, sleep a lot, study once, and know it all.
Cons: EXTREMELY RISKY ( There's a danger you won't absorb anything, you might fall asleep studying, you might fall asleep during the exams, you might fail in the end.)

Here's how it works, sleep the whole day before exams, then you will feel like studying at night when you're natural sleeping hormones kicks in. In a way, you become tired yet fresh. Kinda makes no sense right?

Simpler words, you're mind's too tired untill you can't resist the facts and logic. Hence, you absorb and also understand the facts faster. Or Johann puts it, principle of Osmosis: The less you know, the more you'll absorb. But then you're body is fresh, so you can study effectively for a few solid hours. Then sleep for a few minutes but not too long. Then wake up (if you can) and start studying again. Somehow sleeps helps in memorising. Proven by science.

Please note that this is a theory is totally experimental (yeah, I'm my own guinea pig) and may not work for most of us (including me). I can only prove this theory works when I get my SPM results.

Yeah, I know most of you (if not all) are thinking I'm really the laziest person alive. But sometimes, hard work is not the only way to succeed. But yeah, it sure helps. A Lot!

***

Today was yet another fulfilling day of SPM (yay! 3 more days to go!). Chemistry paper 1 is surprisingly easy. Even Jun Yu would have no problem getting 40 out of 50. Paper 2 was ok only la. Not to hard yet not so easy (I got owned by putting ethanoic acid instead of urine for the question on how to heal sting ray sting).

Lunch was yet another hectic rush like on Tuesday. Only more chaotic.
Yeah, Jon Wee and bigger Co. ( Keen King, PenYU, Whye Shon, Yang Yang, Zhuo Wei(dunno how spell his name), Qi Xian and Wen Jun) went to Chinese restaurant to eat. Wonderful ain't we? Food was great untill it came to the bill. RM 112.40. Lol, some of us were waving empty wallets when we came out. But thats not the excitement.

The excitement started when the lady forgotten our order of fried chickens. When it finally arrived, the time shows 10 minutes before 2 p.m. Which means we have 10 minutes to eat and get back before the exam actually starts!

And eat we did. You could swear a vacuum cleaner was there, and surprisingly, we finish the whole 20 pieces of delicious and hot (temperature hot) fried chicken in 5 minutes WITHOUT the help of the FOOD INHALER SAW WHYE SHON (he claimed he was fulled. First time we witness the black hole is full). We are dang amazing.

Then we rushed to the 4WD Pajero (Qi Xian was driving), and all 8 of us crammed into the vehicle. Me, Jun Yu and Wen Jun was like squatting in the boot. No seats.

When we reached the school gates, all the students were already in the examination hall!
Yeah, so that meant more running and skipping (What the...? Skipping?!). So as Keen King claimed that skipping reduces the amount of energy output and quickens the pace.

Miraculously, we still manage to arrive in the hall in time before they lock us out. Champions of the day. Everyone around me was staring at me, well... at us. Thinking, where in the galaxy did we drop out from? Pluto?

Thank God for a sympathetic invigilator who kindly turn on a fan near me. :D

So yeah, after all that drama, we were rewarded with a dumb experiment to construct.

"Construct an experiment to investigate the reactivity of Lithium, Sodium and Potassium with water."

If you thought it could not possibly be any easier, they went ahead and gave the observation too. Well done, Lembaga peeps. You succeeded in bringing a whole new level to the word DUMB.

Oh well, I think Jun Yu can get his A for Chem now. Weeeeee, remember belanja your good friend here Chili's with your RM 1000.oo reward money for getting A in Chemistry. *winks*

एक अच्छा दिन है !! (Hindi)

Survival's my thing....

Today, I think I survived throughout the whole day despite the "unsexy" headache I was rewarded after 4 and a half hours of Additional Maths. Worse thing is, I had to memorized all my nilai-nilai moral during the one and half hour lunch break. And thanks to THE GENIOUS OF A WHYE SHON, I achieve only in memorising the nilai alone and not the keywords and definisi.

Yeah maybe I am blaming others for my incompetence(Yeah, I could actually started memorizing the nilais long time ago but you know me, unique and all that.) but look at this way and justify me.

Jon Wee and Co. (Whye Shon, PenYu, Keen King and Yang Yang) decided unanimously to go McDonalds in The Mall via LRT. We only had 1 and a half hour. Upon arriving at the platform of the LRT, the GENIOUS of the Whye Shon realised that he left his IC inside the Log Book in the SPM hall. Wonderful ain't it? I was like banging my head against the billboard advertisement. This means that the idea of McDonalds evaporated and RM10 wasted on the LRT ticket.

Aaaaand it also means we had to go all the way back to the exam hall and checked all the log books for his IC (the good friends we are). Which eventually means that we wasted 30 minutes and only left less than an hour left.

And you know what he said after that? Let's go McDonald now. =.=

Well, shortly afterwards, I and Yang Yang were forced to tagged along to mamak. Which means more walking and less memorizing. Weeeeeee~

Well, if you want to be optimistic then I guess the food helped abate some of my headache.

Moral was horrible. Came in late and sweaty from running back from the mamak with half of my nilai-nilai forgotten. Then headache and daydreams consumed most of the 2 and a half hour of Moral paper. When I looked up, I saw that I only had 15 minutes to finish 2 essays...

Many people wonders why do I left all my studying to last minute. Many people even wonders why I don't try hard for my school exams. The honest answer is that I'm lazy. The lie and proud one is that I want to prove I can score in SPM without the help of teachers and school. Yes, guess the wondering people are sticking pins and needles into my voodoo doll.

Ohh and I receive this sexist email, but some of it is quite true. (I think)

Men Are Just Happier People

NICKNAMES
If Laura, Kate and Sarah go out for lunch, they will call each other Laura, Kate and Sarah .
If Mike, Dave and John go out, they will affectionately refer to each other as Fat Boy, Godzilla and Four-eyes.

EATING OUT
When the bill arrives, Mike, Dave and John will each throw in $20, even though it's only for $32.50.None of them will have anything smaller and none will actually admit they want change back.
When the girls get their bill, out come the pocket calculators.

MONEY
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need but it's on sale.

BATHROOMS
A man has six items in his bathroom: toothbrush and toothpaste, shaving cream, razor, a bar of soap, and a towel from some hotel.
The average number of items in the typical woman's bathroom is 337.A man would not be able to identify more than 20 of these items.

ARGUMENTS
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

FUTURE
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

SUCCESS
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

MARRIAGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, but she does.

DRESSING UP
A woman will dress up to go shopping, water the plants, empty the bins, answer the phone, read a book, and get the mail.
A man will dress up for weddings and funerals.

NATURAL
Men wake up as good-looking as they went to bed.
Women somehow deteriorate during the night.

OFFSPRING
Ah, children. A woman knows all about her children.She knows about dentist appointments and romances, best friends, favourite foods, secret fears and hopes and dreams.
A man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house.

THOUGHT FOR THE DAY
A married man should forget his mistakes.There's no use in two people remembering the same thing.

Living to up to....

This time, I am choosing to write things that really is rather bothersome and supposedly not worth mentioning. But I am sort of trying to be sensitive to the littlest things that bother me and hence sub-consciously controls my actions and that also indirectly personifies me.

The thing is, there are these unwritten laws of expectation people expect out of you. People, most of the time, unintentionally make you feel like you need to live up to their expectations. People indirectly wants you to become something of the norm, a constant variable, a control experiment. Or actually it is just me that feels this way and somehow what people say just makes me feel obliged to do the expected.

Examples:

• When people wish you all the best in exams, the invisible contract of expectation of getting high marks is written. You would want to do well, so you won't let them down.
• People expect you to be strong, to be smart, to never break down.
• When you're young, people expect you to shut up and listen.
• When you're old, people expect you to be a role model.
• People expect you to never complain about life.
• When there are people around you, you are expected to never be yourself. Not to show true emotions. Keep smiling.
• You're expected to be responsible.
• People will expect you to stand up for the weak, the oppressed and those that are worse than you.
• People expect you to teach, guide, lead the least.
• When trials and insults come, you're expected to keep a cool head and not EXPLODE.
• When there is problem, you're expected to do something about it.
• When someone ask you for help, you're expected to say yes.
• Especially when you're supposedly a Christian, the expectation is higher, much higher.
• Heck! You're expected not even to say these things mentioned above.

So in reality, we or at least I am sub-consciously living to opinion. I think this is the reason for my split personalities. And yes, I am a hypocrite. Now I realise finally it. Now I experienced epiphany. Now I finally grasp the reality and truth. So now I will try my utmost best to do the expected things on MY OWN PREROGATIVE and not because people expect me to do so.

(Though probably it's too late for SPM)

So yeah, I guess this is also sort of another resolution.

I resolve to do the expected with my free will, volition, inclination, intention or whatever you call it.

Why do I want to do the expected? Well, actually because most of the expected things are good things. The rest I can simply just don't do . Such as being someone I'm not.

Took me a while to realise this. So, sorry.

I have recover from my headache, I shall go and try to memorise some nilai moral now.

Call me gay but I WANT to read Twilight series...

Maths was retardedly easy and I can guess the reason. For those rural, unurbanized people to get a credit for Maths. But I personally think that lowering the standard of maths is just hiding the fact that we are weak in it. I'm not sure about westerner's maths though.

Today the great me managed to convince, persuade, enticed, tempt my mom into watching Madagascar 2. Meh~ die farny i tell you. Went to MV straight after school in school uniform. I will miss being a student. Can't get RM7 student fare anymore when go see movie... T.T

Oh, then I went to MPH and (eventhough I resisted and restrained myself to the maximun) read Twilight. Too bad I only spend half an hour there. One thing I can honestly say is: I hate Isabella Swan. Really. Honestly. Despised her. The way she don't even try remembering people's name. The way she don't hold much respect for her father. The way she makes herself invisible so that she can feel lonely and be more depressed. The way she hold so little hope in the future. The way she goes all out to be anti-social. The way she secretly keep glancing at Edward Cullen, deciding whether she hates him or likes him. The way she always feels paranoid beyond reason. The way she remind myself of me. Well, that is just first 50 pages conclusion of her. Yeah she has problems, but so do the rest of the world.

But the style of writing seems quite familiar. Hmm... The description. The way the author uses italic words like him. A good author nevertheless as she sparks the emotions, imagination and depression in me. That is why I want to read. Can't wait till SPM is over.

So plan for tomorrow is Bible Knowledge, Bible Knowledge, Bible Knowledge, Bible Knowledge, Bible Knowledge, Bible Knowledge and more Bible Knowledge.

QUACK!!!!

3 down 8 more to go!

In the past three days, I've been awake for about 65 hours. Even the remaining 7 hours of "sleep" torments my brain with images of sejarah facts. Maybe I should be thankful. But unfortunately, the sejarah paper was filled with common sense questions (eg: Apakah pencapain Malaysia yang boleh menjadi kebanggaan generasi muda hari ini?). I said unfortunately because my brain was too lethargic to think about lies and vague facts of the "Achievements of Malaysia". I mean I knew 80% of my sejarah facts super accurately and can answer the factual questions but I just can't think about the common sense stuff. Yes I think I screwed it up pretty much.

Well, I guess I reaped what I show. I knew the risk of relying all my hope of acing Sejarah on the paper and my so called "Smart studying". Its like trying to slay a dragon with a branch rumored to be the dragon's weakness. Obviously we don't know the credibility of this rumour. Well, it was not completely futile, 2 out of the 4 questions were predicted correctly for Bahagian A and 2 and 3/4 of question of the esei part came out too. So maybe there is still hope of slaying my dragon, or at least escaping from it.

(BONUS: for those in form 4 this year! THE THREE KERAJAAN ISLAM QUESTIONS DIDN'T COME OUT! So next year SPM, 99.9999999999999999% will come out!)

I think the marker of my English essay will minus mark for choosing Bad for the question of Examination- Good or Bad? Maybe I'm just being paranoid. But there is a possibility because I rebuked the education system pretty bad.

Now I'm off to recover my previous state of mind and filtering out all my sejarah facts through sleep before doing some major cramming of Bible Knowledge and MORAL!!!!! RAWR!!!!!

God's will be done.

First day of SPM

Woke up feeling grouchy as I only had 3 hours of "sleep" the night before. My brain was too used to going fast untill it doesn't know when to stop and rest. Everything was out of order. Especially my brain which was in a state of chaos (I'll explain later...). Bathe in cold water, forget to bring my water bottle, forget to wear my belt and need to pay RM 10 for a new one that barely fits me. Not really the way you want to start of your exam.

But then, I kept on walking staggering forward to my class to put my bag and to memorise a few peribahasa to use for my Karangan as BM was my first paper.

Entering the exam hall made my brain hit overdrive. It's like my brain is going beyond the speed of human realms and my body is too tired to catch what it's trying to say. MASSIVE DISASTER. I did manage to catch a few random things chucked out from my brain. But they're mostly useless and unhelpful when the exam was about to start in 5 mins. Like, "WOW! I'm finally here!" or " Dang! I forgot my water bottle!" or even "It's the last leg of the race!" and of course "SHIT! I forgot the peribahasa I just memorised!"

I was a nervous wreck despite all the good luck wishes from my friends. I sat down, took out my exam slip and IC (Thank GOD I didn't forget those). And try to calm my brain down. But failed miserably. I look to my left and saw Rebbecca, she smiled and gestured for me to pray hard. (You know those random things people do before exam like gesturing people to tembak well or something). But pray I did, I went like,

"Dear God, I commit this paper into your hands.

But I know I should have committed it more and I'm sorry.

But for now, I'll do my best so please help me to calm down. Amen."

If you're expecting a miraculous response from God to me like suddenly my eyes were open and answers flow from the tip of my pen, no. Your expectation is too high.

I guess my actions have consequences and consequences are God's way of disciplining people. That was I believe.

So the paper started and I flipped over the front page and the first thing that came to my mind apart from the gazillion other stuff is : " WHOA! Its in coloured ink!" Then I was like inspecting the picture for 15 minutes coming out with nothing except found out that the pipe were covered in green grass and there was a tire in the river. The tajuk was :" Punca-punca Pencemaran Sungai. " Just FYI.

Eventually I calmed down or actually woke up after 15 minutes (YAY! Redemption from God!) and completed my paper in good time.

Then when it was break, had some food and was "studying" for my Sejarah paper 1. I put the inverted commas cuz my "fans" kept coming over to wish me good luck. Yes, it seems I have "fans". Nerve wrecking a bit actually.

Well, I got through Sejarah too! I actually knew half of the answers! Yipee! Jason Lim says I'm a type of person who gets 5 A's for SPM and will start praising God like nobody's business unlike Cassandra. Maybe he's right.

Then we had an hour and a half lunch break. And we so called "study" again by spending our time playing UNO (I won twice!), looking at girls playing captain ball and discussing who should Jun Yu take to prom. "P or T?" were his exacts repetitive words.

Well, I managed to get through the rest of the day and it's all due to the grace of God.

And THATS my first day of SPM.

PS: My mom install a new water shower head thingy was is awesome. It has this mode where the water spray out in the from of water vapour. It felt like wind!

PSS: Oh and thanks Jing Tao for doing the address book thing, when I first receive it, I thought it was for Add maths!

Me? Unprepared? Massive understatement.

SPM is in 4 days time! Time seems to quicken its pace. The sheer amount of facts from my syllables petrifies me. Chemistry, Biology, Physics, Moral, Sejarah, Bible Knowledge. These are the core subjects which is the source of the never ending pain in the ****. Sure its not that hard, but for people like me who hardly pays attention in class?

DOOM!

(oh and I have memories not even 1 nilai moral, that's how deep of the pit I'm in.)

That is what happen when your a master at procrastination. Grrr. Now all I have to rely on is memory and to study smartly. Study smartly as in study those things that haven't come out yet and neglect the rest that came out recently. Yeah. Its a extremely risky manoeuver, but what choice do I have when time is of the essence?

Time is not a luxury to me anymore. Aaaand yet, I'm on the computer. :D Wonderful, ain't I?

Oh, and I think smart people can be quite stupid too.
Allow me to demonstrate by telling you this joke:

****

A genius of a lawyer walks into a crowded room.

He then said to the people present, "I challenge anyone who thinks they are smart to a quiz showdown. When I ask a question and if you can't answer, you'll have to pay me 1 dollar. If I can't answer your question when it your turn, I'll pay you 50 dollars."

The room went silent. Suddenly an old man stood up and replied, " OK, I'll take you on."

The lawyer momentary stunned said, " Fine, I'll ask first. What is the exact distance from the earth to the Sun?"

The old man thought for awhile and said, "I don't know. You win. Here's 1 dollar. Now's my turn, what goes up with 3 legs and comes back with 1?"

The lawyer then retreated to the deepest sanctuary of his mind, investigating the question from every angle, calculated the exact number of words, dissecting the question word by word, thought of all the riddles he knew, thinking of any connections between legs and 1.

Finally, in great frustration, the lawyer admits, " I don't know. You win." and he handed over 50 dollars to the old man.

The old man pocketed the money and sat down. The lawyer then ask, " Hey, whats the answer to your question?"

Without a word, the old man stood up and handed the lawyer 1 dollar.

****

(Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against lawyers. =D)

και έχουν μια ωραία μέρα !!! (Greek)

PS: I would appreciate any advise and tips to study.

I resolve....

Been quite a while right since my last real post, right? Well, maybe its because there is probably nothing going through my mind as I try to sit down and study for my SPM in less than 7 days from now. So apologies to everyone for my lack of topics.

But somehow my mind tends to wander about my past. How rebellious I was when I was in my lower secondary school life. How ignorant I was for the past 17 years. How complete of a idiot I was and am. Really. When compare to God, I am but an irrelevent bacteria in the whole Universe. Really how insignificant I am.

Then I felt ashamed. Ashamed that I often glorify myself. Ashamed that I often claimed that I am something great and that the world revolves around me. Ashamed that I put my wants in front of the needs of others. Ashamed that I am really a despectible creature ever to walk this earth.

Often we tend to compare ourselves with others to make us feel better. To make us feel superior. Like I am not so bad as that guy over there who is dumber, poorer, who steal and murder. But in actual fact, I now believe that comparing with others is just running away from my own fault. Yeah, nobody is perfect and all that but we as human were created in the image of God. Like a reflection of a vast mountain on the surface of a lake. I can never be exactly like God but I should try to be more like Him which is perfect.

So now, even though New Year is not here untill in the next 2 months, I resolve to be more observant. Well, I can't be perfect overnight, so I'm just going to do that one tiny step at a time. It's not much being observant, but it is a start.

Why observant?

Cheow Lay once said I was sharp because I "noticed" things. But now I realise I "noticed" mostly the wrong things. Like people's mistakes. Money. People's secrets. Gossips.

I don't really care about other people's pain and suffering. I don't go out of my way to make people feel better other than the usual, "Are you OK?". No, actually I don't notice or don't bother to. I don't notice if people is not feeling well or coming down with something. I don't notice if someone is facing some trouble or feeling upset about something. I don't notice when someone is not there anymore. I don't notice if someone did something nice, or spent time doing good. Really, I just don't notice things.

So, I resolve to be observant.

Matt Huang might say I am yapping away like some emo kid. Maybe I am. But I do know what I say is honest. So I guess that's OK.

Anyway, to all the form 5 who will be facing the same disaster as I am next week,

GOOD LUCK!!!

Meow

To the person who say that I can't focus.

Starting time: 1703
Name: Jon Wee
Sisters: Eh... 1 half sister. Dunno how to spell her name. I think its Cheow Ann.
Brothers: Eh... 2 half brothers and a real brother. Cheow Beng, Cheow Lay and Ezra.
Shoe Size: 11?
Height: 170+cm
Where do you live: The borderline of PJ-KL... but address says PJ.
Favourite drinks: Alcoholic? Nah... sweet? I guess anything sweet.
Favourite breakfast: Something expensive.

Have you ever been on a plane?: Yeap! I remember spending 10+ hours on the plane to UK playing the tv-game thingy.
Swam in the ocean: Yeah.
Fallen asleep at school: Yeap! The first month of form 4.
Broken someone's heart: Hope not. If I did, Million apologies!
Fell off your chair: Yeah, thats when tsunami happen.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: No one ever calls me. T_T

What is your room like: Messy like kena hit by tornado. I call it brain storm.
What's right beside you: A fan.
What is the last thing you ate: Nasi Lemak with wedges and curry chicken and curry puffs.
Ever had chicken pox: Yeap. Quite awesome. I get to skip kindergarten for 2 weeks.
Sore throat: Well, if you haven't, you're probably a lab rat.
Stitches: Yeah. Apendix is gone. And one underneath my chin.
Broken nose: Not yet. There's still hope.
Do you believe in love at first sight: Nope.
Like picnics?: Occasionally.
Who was, were the last person you danced with: Keith from school. Today. Just for the heck of it.
Last made you smile: Me. I'm a walking joke.
You last yelled at: The stubbed toe.

Today did you:
Kiss anyone: Nope
Get sick: Nope
Miss someone: Heck a lot I guess. Today was the farewell of Form Fives.
Eat: Yes

Best feeling in the world: Dreaming the impossibles.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Not since I was 5.
What's under your bed: Another bed. Voila!
Who do you really hate: Sin but not sinners.
What time is it now?: 1722

5 things I was doing 10 years ago (When I was 7yrs old)
1. Moving into new condo.
2. Wishing I had what the rich kid on the 13th floor had.
3. Being stupid and naive.
4. Pulling girls' hair.
5. Making friends and enemies.

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. Revision, revision, revision. Hopefully.
2. Play DoTA?
3. Slap myself for wasting my time playing DoTA.
4. Ask my mom to slap me some more.
5. Eat dinner, watch tv, sleep and hopefully have some nightmare of the perils of doing badly in SPM.

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. Onion Rings
2. Cookies.
3. Potato Chips.
4. Kaseri (an Indian kuih thingy that I eat with muruku... Awesome)
5. Chinese pao?

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Tithing. Quoting from The Treasure Principle, " I shovel back to God what I get, but He shovel back more to me. But the difference is, God has a bigger shovel." [paraphrased]
2. Put in bank/invest in something. See, if interest is 3% per annum, then I get 30 million a year.
3. Use the money to cure corruption in Malaysia.
4. Help Ben Phua set up his Chicken Rice shop?
5. Well, basically help anyone in need. Ask and you shall be given. So I think if I do get this amount of money, I believe God is asking me to reach out to the needy.

5 of my bad habits:
1. Tears when I yawn.
2. Arrogant.
3. Blowing bubbles with my saliva when I'm bored.
4. Gluttony.
5. Judging people, I think I do, well maybe only inside my head.

5 places I have lived/stayed a night in:
1. Home.
2. Friends' house
3. Relatives' house all over the world.
4. Hotels.
5. SUFES camps, Youth camps, Church camps, School camps, Outward bound school.

5 things I will do after completing what im busy with:
1. Think.
2. Breathe.
3. Eat.
4. Bathe.
5. Pray.

5 People I tagged:
1. Keen King. If he's alive.
2. Kit Meng. When he's not busy with his tons of assignments.
3. Tammy HO. Now I tagged you back.
4. PenYU. But he won't do unless girl ask him to.
5. Anyone who has time to waste.

Sadness of Life...

Imagine you are single-handedly bringing up two young children. Your partner is a drinker. You need the money to get by. So you decided to sign up with maid service agency. Then you're off to a foreign country far away, to work for people you can't communicate well with. Your hopes and dreams for a better life for your children is weighing heavily on you and that gives you the courage and motivation to be willing work hard.

You came into your new employer's home. Life is hard and trying because of the language barrier, so learning to do things are difficult. But you're willing to work hard: whether it is the chores or learning the language because you need the money. You were taught the skills to take care of your employer's handicap child. You actually care for that handicap child. You slowly but surely formed a bond of love with that child. You start to think you're going to make it. Your hope is shining radiantly.

Suddenly, the bom drops. Your medical test fail. You can't work anymore and you were only there for a week. You are going to be sent back home with your hopes and dreams crushed to the ground. You will need to start anew assuming you can get over yourself.

This is what my new maid, Chan Tou is facing right now. Please pray for her to have the courage to continue living life. I couldn't possibly phantom the suffering she will be enduring when she returns home. All I can do now is pray. Well it is the best solution after all. I'm sure God has a better plan for her.

Speech! Speech! Speech!!!

Okay Jun Yu, as agreed, you represent the class to speak and I'll write out your speech. I apologize if it sounds hypocritical.

My name is Jay-Tay Jun Yu,

I've bee in this school for 5 years.

But now that I'm leaving all of you,

Kinda makes me want to shed much tears.

There are too many things to miss,
So I'll try to list down a few.
Pardon me for the incomplete list,
For there are just too many of you.

Teachers in this school are truly dear to me,
For they are the unsung heroes in my life.
They are ever ready to impart knowledge to me,
And are always willing for me to strive.

Next are my beloved friends,
Those that share memories and laughter.
I'll never forget you when time ends.
Hopefully we'll meet up sooner if not later.

The value of this school cannot be measured,
For it is weigh in love so deep.
All the time spend here are treasured,
Whether it is bitter or it is sweet.

So as I head in to the uncertain future,
I shall go with a fearless heart.
For Wesley Methodist School had me nurtured,
To be a man who knows where to start.

For those who don't know what this is about, its the speech for the farewell of Form Fives. Every class needs to send one representative to make a speech and our dear Jun Yu was vastly voted.

To YKK and Jin (if you ever come across this blog)

Dear Keen King and Loong Jin,

The other day you guys were sharing to us about your religious view as a free thinker. You came up with an outstanding excuse of not adopting any religion. The excuse is paraphrase like this :

"I don't want to believe in any religion. If I do, it means I am claiming that other religions are not true. Hence, indirectly insulting other religions. We live in Malaysia which is a multi-racial country, so all I'm doing by not accepting any religion is actually a good thing since I won't stir up any riot or something. "

I am not an expert in my religion, but I'll try to put it plain and simple logically.

At least we came to an understanding that the universe did not appear out of nothing. See if there was nothing before, there will be nothing today. Logically. The universe has a beginning and an end. So there is a God that created it.

Anyway, back to the topic, avoiding conflict with other religions. Well, fundamentally, the way I see it, you guys are trying to please everyone. Then again, it is still not possible to please everyone. There is only one person in the whole universe we must please : God.

Look at it this way, let's say you will die today, who will join you after death? Who will be there after death? Everyone dies alone. In the end, only the person who created you and the world would be there: God. So if you live your life without knowing who that God is, how can you be sure that God will... well... do whatever He will do to you after death. I, personally believe in heaven and hell. If you don't believe that, look at it this way, how sure are you there isn't?

Yeah, you can go on living your life at it is, doing lots of good deeds on the way. But sometimes, good intentions are not enough. You need to do it right.

Lets picture in this scenario, you need to bake a good apple pie. And you're doing it so that you can serve it to your family or friends or whoever you want to please. So the only way to bake that good apple pie is to do it right. You need to have the recipe, the right quantity, the specific instructions to bake it. You can't just say, "I really want to please that person, so I think with much love, I can do it allright." You get the point. To make a good apple pie, you need to do it right and not only with good intention.

So it really comes down to this, plain and simple. Since we (hopefully) came to an understanding there is a God, there is life after death, and good intentions are not enough, it is time to decide who do you really want to please. God or men?

In the end, it is up to you to find that true God if you chose to please God. No matter what religion. I sincerely hope and pray you will consider Christianity.

With much love and prayer,
Cheow Siang

Done this done that...yet still stuck in between...

I've finished Thief of Light by David Ramus. Quite thrilling reading that book with all the sex and drug contents in it. Jun Yu concluded that I'm reading the book because of the sex parts.... yeaaaaah riiiiight.... He even went further saying that I never experienced those things thats why I'm reading the book. Hmmm... does that mean he had? Ahhhh please confirm these doubts that have been sown onto my mind, Jun Yu. If you ever read my blog.

Aaaanyway, the book isn't only about sex. It's about art! No, really, REAL ART. Or paintings. The book depicts about an art dealer trying to find a solution about his problem with the yakuzas. Apparently, the art dealer's partner a forger of paintings, Paul McHenry was gruesomely butchered by some robbers. Quite gory the details the author used to described it. So why was the art dealer was in trouble? That's because he promised the yakuzas a forgery of the Monet which only Paul can do the job.

Interesting plot I must say. Hehe...

The plot of my life is even more interesting as you can see right now. SPM in less than 34 days and here I am, oblivious to the perils that are to come. Haha, why oblivious? Because I am still reading story books.

Yay... teachers have start giving back the trials papers... and as predicted, I did badly. :D
Stop it, Jon! Why are you still smiling?! Especially when the world around you may cease to exist as we know it?

I shall leave those question unanswered. Why bother answering when all I can do now is move on? What you expect me to do? Weep and mourn? Pffftt... suuuuureee and that works so well with all those students that committed suicide.

I've finally understood the prophecies of the end times in the book of Daniels. Pretty complicating. Those who wish to know about the seventy sevens and abomination of desolation are free to ask me. If you want to, that is.

Now, with that sinful book read, I shall start reading on a Christian Book called An Ordinary Man's Stories by Dr Ong Hwee Keng. No, I'm not reading it for redemption of reading Thief of Light. I'm reading it because I think it is really a great book so far. Even only after I read the 1st Chapter. What really makes this book so interesting is...well... it's honesty.
As Rev Peter Young puts it, "An Ordinary Man's Story is an extraodinary book!"

Имате Приятен ден! (Bulagarian)

She tags me, she tags me not, SHE TAGS ME!!

1. Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket?
I don't care where actually, so long I have great company. =D

2. What's your favorite thing to do?
Spreading a smile. Its really contagious. Some say its worse than SARS.

3. Do you think money can buy happiness?
I believe true happiness is satisfaction. And when it comes to money, you keep wanting more. So nope, it does not buy happiness but sure helps you live life more comfortably (minus the stress and havoc).

4. If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be?
A life partner? Knowledge and wisdom? Can't hurt to have enough cash, eh? Hmmm... guess I'll just take whatever I can get cos I'm just funny that way.

5. Thing/people that you can't live without?
Food, Oxygen, Trees, Love, Friendship, Toilet, Communication, My 5 senses, but most importantly, GOD.

6. What are you afraid to lose?
My faith in Jesus Christ. Oh yeah, not to forget people who care for me, even those who don't.

7. If you won 1 million dollars, what would you do?
Invest in property (1 million can only allow you to live comfortably for no more than 20 years) . Then use the money for a greater cause like start a shelter for homeless people, make all the inhabitants on this earth be aware that LIFE DOES NOT SUCKS! ITS THE WAY YOU LIVE THAT SUCKS!
Hmmm... getting a wee bit too ambitious.

8. What do you dream of doing in the future?
Be a charted accountant. Then pursue the path of acting.

9. List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey.
Short. (You get to run faster, and reaction is faster. Because your spinal cord is shorter hence information transfer via neurones take shorter time to travel to your brain.)
Spunk-a-y. (Not afraid to hurt yourself for the sake of fun.)
Smile. ( Lights up the world around you. Everyone can use a smile every so often.)
Thats Tammy for ya!

10. What makes you happy?
Serving God which means serving people. (most of the time) So long if I can put a smile on their face, it is not a bad cause afterall.

11. What type of person do you hate the most?
Hate, as bue says, is a word too strong. If you meant dislike, well, I guess people who have no regard of other people's feelings. But that can change. Optimistic, ain't I?

12. If you have a superpower, what would it be?
Fly!!!! Looks so cool. Hehe. Or maybe turn rubbish into gold. Then I can create my own flying suit like Iron Man. Plus, I get to save the environment.

13. Would you go for happiness or money?
I say both if I can. But I guess happiness rules out money la if the money I get is for self gain. But if the money is put to good use, then I think I wouldn't mind sacrificing my happiness for it.

14. Who do you think are the most important people in your life?
God. Family. True friends.

15. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, would you die for him/her?
If I truly believe she's the one. Then yeah, why not? I hope I could.

16. Who is the last person who hugged you?
Myself. Yes, I am a sad sad boy.

17. What is the one thing you want to do badly right now?
Get a girlfriend. Maybe just to prove no.15.

18. Who are you close to?
God, I sure hope. But other than Him, no one really. I want to change that someday.

19. Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him/her?
I sure hope so. I mean, they say a man must always make the first move, right?

20. If you could do one thing over again, what would it be?
I find this question kinda retarded. I mean, what done is done. If you can make amends, do so now before its too late. Don't let chances just fly by.

7 things that scares me
Feeling alone in a crowd.
Talking to people. (GARGH, those two fears are really pathetic because they contradict each other.)
Everyone loses their mind and starts doing crazy stuff like raping each other or tearing places apart.
Flirtacious girls.
Losing close friends (if I have any).
Revealing my innermost feelings or thoughts.
My laziness.

7 random facts about me.
When I eat with my fork and spoons, I normally hold them very close to their...er...heads.
I am a bibliomaniac.
I don't release the pressure in my bladder very often.
Its a 50-50 when it comes to doing/saying things without thinking. I normally, in the end, do the things without thinking then come out with a fantastic explanation later on.
I like to sing out songs aloud.
I don't have much self confidence.
I can't decide on my personalities. Guess you can call it split personalities.

7 things I plan to do before I die
Read the bible at least a few times through. Reap as much believers as I could.
Travelling around the world (ain't that everyone's dream nowadays?).
Drink every single alcoholic drink there are in the world.
Love someone of the opposite sex with my heart (I am human after all that succumbs to the attraction of the opposite) .
Save a life.
Doing something good on the global scale.

7 things I can't do
Have period.
Flying without wings.
One night stand.
Backstab with intention of backstabbing.
Blind, dumb, lame, handicap (currently)
Football (Its the only sport that I can't sync well.)
Say no when a person needs help.


7 people to do this questionnaire
Anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do.

Hypothesis

I have a theory about relationships, whether friendship or love or enmity (Okay, maybe not enmity). Well, basically the feeling of knowing someone. Like when you feel the closeness between the two parties. Like you don't feel awkward around that person. Or when suddenly the one closes to you feel like the one most alien to you. It really is mind blowing.

They say a true friend is when you can sit together in silence and not feel awkward at all.

But how deep is the relationship before you can consider that person a true friend?

I believe there are several level of relationship in the whole process of getting a true friend.

There is like a few crests and troughs if the whole process of relationship is plotted as a graph.
(Note: trough is the highest point and crest is the lowest point.)

Well, allow me to explain. During the 1st Encounter, we normally view the outer appearance of the person. So we quickly making assumptions and either view the person negatively or positively. So assuming we survive the 1st Encounter and get to know the person better like family background, likes/dislikes, hobbies/interests (yeah basically just get to know the person on the surface), the level of closeness moves up a notch and arrive at the first trough.

Then the relationship normally disintegrate and moves on to the crest or just die off all together. Why? Most common reasons are time, like going on for so long without meeting the person again. Or no common interest. Conversation just die, see? Or maybe even bad impression on the 1st Encounter.

Then if the relationship survive again, the closeness level increases to even a greater magnitude. This is due to when we continue to meet up with the person, and basically share common beliefs and interests. Then slowly, a bond of trust is formed. Then at the top of the 2nd crest, we have already established the fact that you and the person are normal friends. You don't really feel completely awkward or elusive around the person.

Then the level of closeness takes an enormous dip. This is when you discover something totally alien or maybe the person or even you backstabs each other.

What I meant when I say you discover something totally alien is when the relationship really gets personal. REALLY. You start to find out all the things about the person on the personal level. How do I say this? Like you find that the person hates it when you smack their back. Or the type of character that they have that you don't like or vice versa. Or like either of you have an inferiority perspective of each other (Like he/she is greater than you in studies, carreers or popularity). Or like you feel that friend has ditched you to hang out with cooler people.

Backstabbing, you know whats it like, so enought being said.

The possibility of bringing the relationship back is extremely low. The factors that helps bring the relationship back are mainly revolves around you. Will you actually find the guts to forgive them? Or will you have the valor to continuosly love the person unconditionally? This is what a true friend is.

The thing that makes the level of closeness ever escalating is when the relationship becomes mutual. Both share to each other the thoughts and give and take criticism. Both working together for any purpose. Both helping each other in time of need or even when there is no need. That is called being a nuisance but those who are being a nuisance normally cares a lot for you. (Or because they are jealous)

In the end, a relationship that survive all the toils and tribulation is a relationship that is definitely worth fighting for.

I am not a professor but just a 17 year old kid who based this theory on experience. But it is a theory nevertheless. A theory remains a theory in the end unless proven with sufficient evidence. Then it becomes a law.

I hope this doesn't bore you to death and wouldn't blame you if you discontinue reading halfway through. If you read it all the way to the end, then congratulation to you for understanding what goes on in my head a little better.