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To the person who say that I can't focus.

Starting time: 1703
Name: Jon Wee
Sisters: Eh... 1 half sister. Dunno how to spell her name. I think its Cheow Ann.
Brothers: Eh... 2 half brothers and a real brother. Cheow Beng, Cheow Lay and Ezra.
Shoe Size: 11?
Height: 170+cm
Where do you live: The borderline of PJ-KL... but address says PJ.
Favourite drinks: Alcoholic? Nah... sweet? I guess anything sweet.
Favourite breakfast: Something expensive.

Have you ever been on a plane?: Yeap! I remember spending 10+ hours on the plane to UK playing the tv-game thingy.
Swam in the ocean: Yeah.
Fallen asleep at school: Yeap! The first month of form 4.
Broken someone's heart: Hope not. If I did, Million apologies!
Fell off your chair: Yeah, thats when tsunami happen.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: No one ever calls me. T_T

What is your room like: Messy like kena hit by tornado. I call it brain storm.
What's right beside you: A fan.
What is the last thing you ate: Nasi Lemak with wedges and curry chicken and curry puffs.
Ever had chicken pox: Yeap. Quite awesome. I get to skip kindergarten for 2 weeks.
Sore throat: Well, if you haven't, you're probably a lab rat.
Stitches: Yeah. Apendix is gone. And one underneath my chin.
Broken nose: Not yet. There's still hope.
Do you believe in love at first sight: Nope.
Like picnics?: Occasionally.
Who was, were the last person you danced with: Keith from school. Today. Just for the heck of it.
Last made you smile: Me. I'm a walking joke.
You last yelled at: The stubbed toe.

Today did you:
Kiss anyone: Nope
Get sick: Nope
Miss someone: Heck a lot I guess. Today was the farewell of Form Fives.
Eat: Yes

Best feeling in the world: Dreaming the impossibles.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Not since I was 5.
What's under your bed: Another bed. Voila!
Who do you really hate: Sin but not sinners.
What time is it now?: 1722

5 things I was doing 10 years ago (When I was 7yrs old)
1. Moving into new condo.
2. Wishing I had what the rich kid on the 13th floor had.
3. Being stupid and naive.
4. Pulling girls' hair.
5. Making friends and enemies.

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. Revision, revision, revision. Hopefully.
2. Play DoTA?
3. Slap myself for wasting my time playing DoTA.
4. Ask my mom to slap me some more.
5. Eat dinner, watch tv, sleep and hopefully have some nightmare of the perils of doing badly in SPM.

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. Onion Rings
2. Cookies.
3. Potato Chips.
4. Kaseri (an Indian kuih thingy that I eat with muruku... Awesome)
5. Chinese pao?

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Tithing. Quoting from The Treasure Principle, " I shovel back to God what I get, but He shovel back more to me. But the difference is, God has a bigger shovel." [paraphrased]
2. Put in bank/invest in something. See, if interest is 3% per annum, then I get 30 million a year.
3. Use the money to cure corruption in Malaysia.
4. Help Ben Phua set up his Chicken Rice shop?
5. Well, basically help anyone in need. Ask and you shall be given. So I think if I do get this amount of money, I believe God is asking me to reach out to the needy.

5 of my bad habits:
1. Tears when I yawn.
2. Arrogant.
3. Blowing bubbles with my saliva when I'm bored.
4. Gluttony.
5. Judging people, I think I do, well maybe only inside my head.

5 places I have lived/stayed a night in:
1. Home.
2. Friends' house
3. Relatives' house all over the world.
4. Hotels.
5. SUFES camps, Youth camps, Church camps, School camps, Outward bound school.

5 things I will do after completing what im busy with:
1. Think.
2. Breathe.
3. Eat.
4. Bathe.
5. Pray.

5 People I tagged:
1. Keen King. If he's alive.
2. Kit Meng. When he's not busy with his tons of assignments.
3. Tammy HO. Now I tagged you back.
4. PenYU. But he won't do unless girl ask him to.
5. Anyone who has time to waste.

Sadness of Life...

Imagine you are single-handedly bringing up two young children. Your partner is a drinker. You need the money to get by. So you decided to sign up with maid service agency. Then you're off to a foreign country far away, to work for people you can't communicate well with. Your hopes and dreams for a better life for your children is weighing heavily on you and that gives you the courage and motivation to be willing work hard.

You came into your new employer's home. Life is hard and trying because of the language barrier, so learning to do things are difficult. But you're willing to work hard: whether it is the chores or learning the language because you need the money. You were taught the skills to take care of your employer's handicap child. You actually care for that handicap child. You slowly but surely formed a bond of love with that child. You start to think you're going to make it. Your hope is shining radiantly.

Suddenly, the bom drops. Your medical test fail. You can't work anymore and you were only there for a week. You are going to be sent back home with your hopes and dreams crushed to the ground. You will need to start anew assuming you can get over yourself.

This is what my new maid, Chan Tou is facing right now. Please pray for her to have the courage to continue living life. I couldn't possibly phantom the suffering she will be enduring when she returns home. All I can do now is pray. Well it is the best solution after all. I'm sure God has a better plan for her.

Speech! Speech! Speech!!!

Okay Jun Yu, as agreed, you represent the class to speak and I'll write out your speech. I apologize if it sounds hypocritical.

My name is Jay-Tay Jun Yu,

I've bee in this school for 5 years.

But now that I'm leaving all of you,

Kinda makes me want to shed much tears.

There are too many things to miss,
So I'll try to list down a few.
Pardon me for the incomplete list,
For there are just too many of you.

Teachers in this school are truly dear to me,
For they are the unsung heroes in my life.
They are ever ready to impart knowledge to me,
And are always willing for me to strive.

Next are my beloved friends,
Those that share memories and laughter.
I'll never forget you when time ends.
Hopefully we'll meet up sooner if not later.

The value of this school cannot be measured,
For it is weigh in love so deep.
All the time spend here are treasured,
Whether it is bitter or it is sweet.

So as I head in to the uncertain future,
I shall go with a fearless heart.
For Wesley Methodist School had me nurtured,
To be a man who knows where to start.

For those who don't know what this is about, its the speech for the farewell of Form Fives. Every class needs to send one representative to make a speech and our dear Jun Yu was vastly voted.

To YKK and Jin (if you ever come across this blog)

Dear Keen King and Loong Jin,

The other day you guys were sharing to us about your religious view as a free thinker. You came up with an outstanding excuse of not adopting any religion. The excuse is paraphrase like this :

"I don't want to believe in any religion. If I do, it means I am claiming that other religions are not true. Hence, indirectly insulting other religions. We live in Malaysia which is a multi-racial country, so all I'm doing by not accepting any religion is actually a good thing since I won't stir up any riot or something. "

I am not an expert in my religion, but I'll try to put it plain and simple logically.

At least we came to an understanding that the universe did not appear out of nothing. See if there was nothing before, there will be nothing today. Logically. The universe has a beginning and an end. So there is a God that created it.

Anyway, back to the topic, avoiding conflict with other religions. Well, fundamentally, the way I see it, you guys are trying to please everyone. Then again, it is still not possible to please everyone. There is only one person in the whole universe we must please : God.

Look at it this way, let's say you will die today, who will join you after death? Who will be there after death? Everyone dies alone. In the end, only the person who created you and the world would be there: God. So if you live your life without knowing who that God is, how can you be sure that God will... well... do whatever He will do to you after death. I, personally believe in heaven and hell. If you don't believe that, look at it this way, how sure are you there isn't?

Yeah, you can go on living your life at it is, doing lots of good deeds on the way. But sometimes, good intentions are not enough. You need to do it right.

Lets picture in this scenario, you need to bake a good apple pie. And you're doing it so that you can serve it to your family or friends or whoever you want to please. So the only way to bake that good apple pie is to do it right. You need to have the recipe, the right quantity, the specific instructions to bake it. You can't just say, "I really want to please that person, so I think with much love, I can do it allright." You get the point. To make a good apple pie, you need to do it right and not only with good intention.

So it really comes down to this, plain and simple. Since we (hopefully) came to an understanding there is a God, there is life after death, and good intentions are not enough, it is time to decide who do you really want to please. God or men?

In the end, it is up to you to find that true God if you chose to please God. No matter what religion. I sincerely hope and pray you will consider Christianity.

With much love and prayer,
Cheow Siang

Done this done that...yet still stuck in between...

I've finished Thief of Light by David Ramus. Quite thrilling reading that book with all the sex and drug contents in it. Jun Yu concluded that I'm reading the book because of the sex parts.... yeaaaaah riiiiight.... He even went further saying that I never experienced those things thats why I'm reading the book. Hmmm... does that mean he had? Ahhhh please confirm these doubts that have been sown onto my mind, Jun Yu. If you ever read my blog.

Aaaanyway, the book isn't only about sex. It's about art! No, really, REAL ART. Or paintings. The book depicts about an art dealer trying to find a solution about his problem with the yakuzas. Apparently, the art dealer's partner a forger of paintings, Paul McHenry was gruesomely butchered by some robbers. Quite gory the details the author used to described it. So why was the art dealer was in trouble? That's because he promised the yakuzas a forgery of the Monet which only Paul can do the job.

Interesting plot I must say. Hehe...

The plot of my life is even more interesting as you can see right now. SPM in less than 34 days and here I am, oblivious to the perils that are to come. Haha, why oblivious? Because I am still reading story books.

Yay... teachers have start giving back the trials papers... and as predicted, I did badly. :D
Stop it, Jon! Why are you still smiling?! Especially when the world around you may cease to exist as we know it?

I shall leave those question unanswered. Why bother answering when all I can do now is move on? What you expect me to do? Weep and mourn? Pffftt... suuuuureee and that works so well with all those students that committed suicide.

I've finally understood the prophecies of the end times in the book of Daniels. Pretty complicating. Those who wish to know about the seventy sevens and abomination of desolation are free to ask me. If you want to, that is.

Now, with that sinful book read, I shall start reading on a Christian Book called An Ordinary Man's Stories by Dr Ong Hwee Keng. No, I'm not reading it for redemption of reading Thief of Light. I'm reading it because I think it is really a great book so far. Even only after I read the 1st Chapter. What really makes this book so interesting is...well... it's honesty.
As Rev Peter Young puts it, "An Ordinary Man's Story is an extraodinary book!"

Имате Приятен ден! (Bulagarian)

She tags me, she tags me not, SHE TAGS ME!!

1. Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket?
I don't care where actually, so long I have great company. =D

2. What's your favorite thing to do?
Spreading a smile. Its really contagious. Some say its worse than SARS.

3. Do you think money can buy happiness?
I believe true happiness is satisfaction. And when it comes to money, you keep wanting more. So nope, it does not buy happiness but sure helps you live life more comfortably (minus the stress and havoc).

4. If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be?
A life partner? Knowledge and wisdom? Can't hurt to have enough cash, eh? Hmmm... guess I'll just take whatever I can get cos I'm just funny that way.

5. Thing/people that you can't live without?
Food, Oxygen, Trees, Love, Friendship, Toilet, Communication, My 5 senses, but most importantly, GOD.

6. What are you afraid to lose?
My faith in Jesus Christ. Oh yeah, not to forget people who care for me, even those who don't.

7. If you won 1 million dollars, what would you do?
Invest in property (1 million can only allow you to live comfortably for no more than 20 years) . Then use the money for a greater cause like start a shelter for homeless people, make all the inhabitants on this earth be aware that LIFE DOES NOT SUCKS! ITS THE WAY YOU LIVE THAT SUCKS!
Hmmm... getting a wee bit too ambitious.

8. What do you dream of doing in the future?
Be a charted accountant. Then pursue the path of acting.

9. List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey.
Short. (You get to run faster, and reaction is faster. Because your spinal cord is shorter hence information transfer via neurones take shorter time to travel to your brain.)
Spunk-a-y. (Not afraid to hurt yourself for the sake of fun.)
Smile. ( Lights up the world around you. Everyone can use a smile every so often.)
Thats Tammy for ya!

10. What makes you happy?
Serving God which means serving people. (most of the time) So long if I can put a smile on their face, it is not a bad cause afterall.

11. What type of person do you hate the most?
Hate, as bue says, is a word too strong. If you meant dislike, well, I guess people who have no regard of other people's feelings. But that can change. Optimistic, ain't I?

12. If you have a superpower, what would it be?
Fly!!!! Looks so cool. Hehe. Or maybe turn rubbish into gold. Then I can create my own flying suit like Iron Man. Plus, I get to save the environment.

13. Would you go for happiness or money?
I say both if I can. But I guess happiness rules out money la if the money I get is for self gain. But if the money is put to good use, then I think I wouldn't mind sacrificing my happiness for it.

14. Who do you think are the most important people in your life?
God. Family. True friends.

15. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, would you die for him/her?
If I truly believe she's the one. Then yeah, why not? I hope I could.

16. Who is the last person who hugged you?
Myself. Yes, I am a sad sad boy.

17. What is the one thing you want to do badly right now?
Get a girlfriend. Maybe just to prove no.15.

18. Who are you close to?
God, I sure hope. But other than Him, no one really. I want to change that someday.

19. Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him/her?
I sure hope so. I mean, they say a man must always make the first move, right?

20. If you could do one thing over again, what would it be?
I find this question kinda retarded. I mean, what done is done. If you can make amends, do so now before its too late. Don't let chances just fly by.

7 things that scares me
Feeling alone in a crowd.
Talking to people. (GARGH, those two fears are really pathetic because they contradict each other.)
Everyone loses their mind and starts doing crazy stuff like raping each other or tearing places apart.
Flirtacious girls.
Losing close friends (if I have any).
Revealing my innermost feelings or thoughts.
My laziness.

7 random facts about me.
When I eat with my fork and spoons, I normally hold them very close to their...er...heads.
I am a bibliomaniac.
I don't release the pressure in my bladder very often.
Its a 50-50 when it comes to doing/saying things without thinking. I normally, in the end, do the things without thinking then come out with a fantastic explanation later on.
I like to sing out songs aloud.
I don't have much self confidence.
I can't decide on my personalities. Guess you can call it split personalities.

7 things I plan to do before I die
Read the bible at least a few times through. Reap as much believers as I could.
Travelling around the world (ain't that everyone's dream nowadays?).
Drink every single alcoholic drink there are in the world.
Love someone of the opposite sex with my heart (I am human after all that succumbs to the attraction of the opposite) .
Save a life.
Doing something good on the global scale.

7 things I can't do
Have period.
Flying without wings.
One night stand.
Backstab with intention of backstabbing.
Blind, dumb, lame, handicap (currently)
Football (Its the only sport that I can't sync well.)
Say no when a person needs help.


7 people to do this questionnaire
Anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do.

Hypothesis

I have a theory about relationships, whether friendship or love or enmity (Okay, maybe not enmity). Well, basically the feeling of knowing someone. Like when you feel the closeness between the two parties. Like you don't feel awkward around that person. Or when suddenly the one closes to you feel like the one most alien to you. It really is mind blowing.

They say a true friend is when you can sit together in silence and not feel awkward at all.

But how deep is the relationship before you can consider that person a true friend?

I believe there are several level of relationship in the whole process of getting a true friend.

There is like a few crests and troughs if the whole process of relationship is plotted as a graph.
(Note: trough is the highest point and crest is the lowest point.)

Well, allow me to explain. During the 1st Encounter, we normally view the outer appearance of the person. So we quickly making assumptions and either view the person negatively or positively. So assuming we survive the 1st Encounter and get to know the person better like family background, likes/dislikes, hobbies/interests (yeah basically just get to know the person on the surface), the level of closeness moves up a notch and arrive at the first trough.

Then the relationship normally disintegrate and moves on to the crest or just die off all together. Why? Most common reasons are time, like going on for so long without meeting the person again. Or no common interest. Conversation just die, see? Or maybe even bad impression on the 1st Encounter.

Then if the relationship survive again, the closeness level increases to even a greater magnitude. This is due to when we continue to meet up with the person, and basically share common beliefs and interests. Then slowly, a bond of trust is formed. Then at the top of the 2nd crest, we have already established the fact that you and the person are normal friends. You don't really feel completely awkward or elusive around the person.

Then the level of closeness takes an enormous dip. This is when you discover something totally alien or maybe the person or even you backstabs each other.

What I meant when I say you discover something totally alien is when the relationship really gets personal. REALLY. You start to find out all the things about the person on the personal level. How do I say this? Like you find that the person hates it when you smack their back. Or the type of character that they have that you don't like or vice versa. Or like either of you have an inferiority perspective of each other (Like he/she is greater than you in studies, carreers or popularity). Or like you feel that friend has ditched you to hang out with cooler people.

Backstabbing, you know whats it like, so enought being said.

The possibility of bringing the relationship back is extremely low. The factors that helps bring the relationship back are mainly revolves around you. Will you actually find the guts to forgive them? Or will you have the valor to continuosly love the person unconditionally? This is what a true friend is.

The thing that makes the level of closeness ever escalating is when the relationship becomes mutual. Both share to each other the thoughts and give and take criticism. Both working together for any purpose. Both helping each other in time of need or even when there is no need. That is called being a nuisance but those who are being a nuisance normally cares a lot for you. (Or because they are jealous)

In the end, a relationship that survive all the toils and tribulation is a relationship that is definitely worth fighting for.

I am not a professor but just a 17 year old kid who based this theory on experience. But it is a theory nevertheless. A theory remains a theory in the end unless proven with sufficient evidence. Then it becomes a law.

I hope this doesn't bore you to death and wouldn't blame you if you discontinue reading halfway through. If you read it all the way to the end, then congratulation to you for understanding what goes on in my head a little better.

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