Fate is a joke, and the joke's is in your hand.

Went to KLpac today for some workshop of some sort. HAHA. At least its not a complete waste of time like now. =D

YF was great today. Haha. Guess Eugene did pull it off pretty well. Worship too was great but got a lot of unfamiliar songs... heh! At least the words are not completely without meaning.

Class was great too. Jason Lim somehow manage to pull it off too with Genesis 22 and 23. Heh. Don't get me wrong, I may not look interested, but I pay a lot of attention. Like Sarah was the only woman recorded in the Bible for her age when she died. Or salvation may be free, but it is not cheap. So let's not make it cheap by sinning again and again.

After class was the eat out thingy to celebrate the effort and success of YEM and Youth Sunday. Big Apple Donuts sure are heavenly. Jealous much?

Then had sort of meeting with Anderson and Sarah about the YF Group on facebook. Haha. Anderson is such a clown. He brought his laptop and wanted to connect to the WiFi at our church to get onto the YF Group website. So he was like searching for the hot spot. The dumbest thing is we set up our "base" in the middle of the car park where the rest of the youths were playing captain ball all around us. Haha. Sarah was like updating her status on facebook saying "Sarah is sitting in the middle of a car park now" or something like that. In the end, the great plan didn't materialise into reality cause facebook was down or something. (More like Anderson's laptop too old?)

So all in all, today was a great day. But then opposite feelings comes in sequence. So yeah. Guess I am emo and all. Sense of foreboding..

Geros dienos! (Lithuanian)

Its finally over, the end of the beginning.

Yeah~ so the trials came and went, and finally, it is over.

CONGRATS KEEN KING!!! FOR SCORING 87% FOR ADD MATHS!!!

I'll be lucky to get even half of that. Hehe. Don't get me wrong, I am good at the logical stuff. But I need to be push.... a lot to succeed in my studies. And thanks to my set 1 teacher,
Mr Siva, I wasn't. Yeah, so I've heard, I am downright lazy.

Oh well, haha, today, I, Jun Yu and Whye Shon went to cyber cafe after school. Played there for 3 hours! What a good way to waste time. Anyway, the funny thing is, we were all hungry by the time we finish playing. And at that time was buka puasa. So as you've guess, everywhere was pack. From KFC to mamak. That's when us geniuses decided to eat the ever-so-non-halal Bah Kut Teh. Haha.

Holidays started. Tomorrow is study leave so it is consider a holiday. Hehe. This time I am resolve to study... I hope. No, I must.

My mom had a minor accident today. Haih....

Lai jums laba diena! ( Latvian)

Frustration and the collision.

I sat in the exam hall,

With that blank look on my face.

All I can do is stall,

And just go through the phase.

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I really have no idea,

What the question is asking about.

I felt something like fear,

As my brain decided to checked out.

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So all I could do is blindly shoot,

And pray that I won't be wrong.

I really wanted to swear *tooot*,

Cause I felt like a big ding dong.

*

The only thing that relief me,

Was the people sleeping around.

It seems they too have wandered free,

From the questions that holds us aground.

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Hence, if I get any high marks,

You know I don't deserve it.

So please save your remarks,

I don't want to hear them, not one bit.

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All I can do is hope for SPM

And pray they'll not lose my papers.

For if they did, it will be the end

Of the great Jon the Dazer.

With great power comes great responsibility...

And with greater responsibility,

the more freedom you lose.

And that's a fact.

I dunno la, my parents keep nagging at me to wear better clothes to go to church. "Sunday Best" so to speak. My mom was like persistantly tried to dissuade me:

Mom: If you were to meet the Sultan, would you go to the palace dressing like that?
Me: No, but thats because that king care for the outward appearance. But my King cares
for whats on the inside.

Obviously knowing she lost, she kept on trying other methods. This time trying a different tact.

Mom: You know in Matthew 22, Jesus told a parable about the wedding feast and the king
who held the wedding feast cast this person out into outer darkness, where there shall
be weeping and gnashing of teeth for not wearing wedding garments. So what do you
think about that?
Me: Obviously, if you truly understand the parable, Jesus was implying on inward
righteousness as wedding garment not physical clothes. Think about this, the wedding
feast is The Kingdom of God, and the people are invited are anyone. So do you really
think is it justified for someone to be kick out of The Kingdom of God if all he did was
not wearing his "Sunday Best" ?

1 Samuel 16:7b

Man looks at the outward appearance,

but the Lord looks at the heart.

So yeah there you go, well then of course as parents normally do when they are being outsmarted by their child, they go and blame me for all the other wrong things like not studying for exams. Hehe. Thank God for today's sermon. Failure is the backdoor of success.

Yeah, I know, I know. Sooner or later I would get greater responsibility and hence I need to set the example by wearing my "Sunday Best". Heh! But I really think that what is in your heart that counts. What do you feel for God. Is it genuine? Is it humble? Is it not to please others by wearing expensive clothes, branded shoes, posh handbags?

So how then do we actually see in a person that he is a true follower of Christ? By his conduct. His attitude. His good works. Mengamalkan nilai amanah. So to speak. That's what really counts.

Like the Pharisees, teachers of the Law... What are they? Hypocrites. Look how they plot and scheme to kill Jesus just to save their face.

Oh, and on the way back from church today, my mom tried to continue persecuting interrogating me and started talking about being a person with responsibilities and its benefits. Telling me about the things you must do in order not to stumble younger believers and stuff like that. I told her that I have no responsibilties currently, I'm not a commitee member of YF, I'm not the regular role model, I'm no mentor, so why should I concern myself with my attire and other stuff. Well, I know a time will come when I have to do these things but the fact is, the time has not come. So I say enjoy the moment when you're still free and unburdened by the ever-so-oppressing thing called responsibility.

Hehe, don't get me wrong. I don't hate my mom for telling me all these stuff. In fact, I enjoy them cause it is an opportunity for me to prove to them that I can think for myself. May sound a bit selfish but hey, that's what I feel. See, arguments are good. After arguing, it sort of gives you a firm grasp of the obvious.

So yeah, argue to the max! It helps increase your brain activity but unfortunately can either break or stregthen relationship. It's a double edge sword so to speak.

Die dulci fruere! (Latin)

Dealing with emotions and other stuff.

Emotions sometimes short-circuit the cool, logical reasoning of the neocortex. Massive emotional overload.

In the past, emotions have been measured in humans by their physical expression, such as blushing, smiling or accelerating heart rate.

Emotions are generated by the limbic system: a collection of structures such as the hippocampus and the amygdala, which lie beneath the cerebral cortex. Emotions are associated with different types of neural impulses. So the only way its to measure nerve impulses of someone experiencing a normal set of daily emotions is by accessing it directly to the brain. But then again, how can you register happiness in someone whose cranium has been opened up?

So it is impossible to be scientifically certain we have emotions. Or the other advance and evolved emotions.

Opposite emotions often come in sequence.

Guilt, the uncomfortable, unsettling feeling you get when you're considering betraying someone's trust. Why has guilt evolved? From constant worrying.

Love, a most manipulative device.

Stress weakens the immune system; high frequency anger put major strain on the heart. In fact, an angry temperament is a better predictor of premature death than all the fashionable culprits like smoking or cholesterol.

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Games are models of rational interaction. They're full of suprises and paradoxes, certainly: bound to be with the circular reasoning they require. But the truth is not all games are meant for fun.

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A lie could enhance status even more than a truth, so long as it was sufficiently imaginative. This is extremely true.

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The trouble with acting is that you're so busy lying and faking and generally fooling everyone-including yourself- that when suddenly the a truth appears in that great mountain of deceit, it's pretty much impossible to see it.



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3 Golden Rules. state 15 weird things/ habits/ little known facts about yourself. The 10 people I tag are to then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts.. No tag backs.

1 I am shy and you'll think its a lie
2. As you can see from No.1, I started liking poetry.
3. I have autophobia, cyclophobia, athazagoraphobia, apeirophobia aaaand phobophobia.(Go figure)
4. Lazy. (Allow me go into details, I don't study for exams untill the night before.)
5. Enjoy doing nothing and observing the day passing by... Sounds like No. 4...
6. Loves acting.
7. Practically good at sports because of gifted hand-eye coordination.
8. The face that makes people laugh. So as my classmates have told me.
9. Prefer to make quality friends and not quantity.
10. Loves random facts and jokes. Well, basically just randomness.
11. Find joy in the joy of others.
12. Virgin lips. Yeap. My first is still with me.
13. Assimilate well in many cliques. (Nerd, Cool, Wacky, Serious *not so much*, Old, Young,
Cam-Whorers.) The only one type of clique I can't go with flow is Chinapeklalas.
14. A sentimental person at heart.
15. Hmmm... To discribe me guess would take more than 15 points. So ask me yourself la. ^^

Me tag :
Kit Meng
Keen King
Larissa
Well, actually I don't really wanna bother anyone. So this goes out to those who wants share bits and pieces of their life to us.

Sheyihiye lach yom na'im!! (For women)
Sheyihiye lecha yom na'im!! (For men) (Hebrew) See? Jews are so sexist.

Poetry & Trials....

Trials are here and one thing I can conclude so far as I am half way through it :

Those people marking for my SPM papers better not lose them!!!

Seriously, if they lose those papers they will take my Trial marks as real SPM ones. Screw it. And my school standards are so high. "Head and shoulder above the rest." As the beloved Principal of Wesley Methodist School puts it. Pfft! Yeah, yeah. Sure you say they will mark more leniently during trials. So not true. This is what they plan to do as the teachers have told me. They will sadistically, masochistically, inhumanely mark the Trials paper as they would in normal school exams and just raise a grade like from B4 to B3 later on. 1 grade?! Come on! Probably worth 5 grades if you ask me. Passing mark for Additional Maths in SPM is probably 7%.

Heh! Then again, I suppose its no one's fault but mine. And what I'm doing about it? I'm blogging. YIPEE! HOORAY! GENIUS! STUPENDOUS! ONE OF A KIND!

Guess all I can do now its pray that when the real SPM comes, nothing bad would happen to my papers.

But seriously, I think Trials quite hard lor. Especially for people like me who never touch his book untill the night before. I was like stoning in the exam hall looking at others who are the same as me. Hah~ Well, they sort of resort to sleeping for the first hour then simply tembak in the next. Me? Busy writing poetry and drawing my doom. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

Haha~ and who said poetry was dead?

I'm on the Highway to Hell

On the Highway to Hell

Highway to Hell

I'm on the Highway to Hell

-AC/DC-

In need of much prayer.

Buona giornata!!! (Italian)

The Reason To...Blog?

You might be wondering why I am blogging, especially when SPM is only 60 days away? Heh! At first I thought I would try it out for myself since other people are doing so. Then I realise that hey! This is not about getting influence from others but about me and my views and thoughts. Well, here's the list:

I blog because :

• to see what clearly goes on in my mind with my own eyes.
• to put down anything random on my mind.(I assure you, there is a lot of 'em)
• to share my views of the world.
• to put down what I experience daily.
• to share the lessons I've learnt.
• to give advice. (Whether you take it or leave it, it's up to you)
• to remember things I've experience before but have forgotten. (or will be forgotten)
• to vent my feelings on something and not on someone.
• to maybe share a bit of my faith to you.
• to make you, my dear readers, to stop and think.

I'm not asking for anything from you. I don't want praise or respect or having people calling me preacher. I don't care. Cause the most important thing of this blog is to make an impact not an image. This is not the perfect person you are looking for when you read. This is the person who believes in the perfect God.

So if you're unhappy or unsatisfy with anything I post, too bad. Live with it.

On the lighter note, allow me tell you a random joke. Well, not so random after all and you've probably heard of it. Aaaanyway:

A kindergarten teacher was teaching a bunch of 6 year olds about fishes. She said that it is impossible for a fish to swallow a human being.

One girl raise her hand and said, "That's not true. Jonah was swallowed by a big fish sent from God for 3 days."

The teacher then sneered and said, "If that was true, then how is it possible for Jonah to survive in the fish for 3 days?"

The little girl thought for a while and replied, "I don't know, when I go to heaven, I'll ask him about that."

The teacher then sarcastically asked, "What if he is not in heaven?"

Little girl then gave the teacher an inoccent smile and said, " Then YOU ask him."

Schönen Tag noch! (German)

Things a Christian must know!!!

You know I've been thinking as usual. And I think there are a lot of believers who have forgotten the total concept of becoming and staying a believer. They give stupid reasons not to go to church, not to sing aloud when worshipping our God, not to bow our heads and close our eyes and pray, not attending corporate prayer meetings held every month. It really saddens my soul every time I see these things happens.

I mean, let me put this straight. I still remember what Anderson thought me last time. About these "rituals" as you call it. Going to church, singing, doing Bible studies and blah blah blah. We (supposedly you are a Christian) do these things because we LOVE God. Not because our parents does it, our friends does it. Because, really, it comes from the heart. Remember, God does not have grandchildren.

He first LOVE you. He made the first move when you have turn away. He gave you salvation from eternal suffering. He took YOUR place on that cross. Don't YOU think He deserve to be loved back? Don't YOU think he is worthy to be placed top priority? Don't YOU think you should at least carry out these "rituals" to show your love for Him?

Remember, we're doing these "rituals" because we LOVE God. We LOVE Him, that's why we're doing it.

Imagine if the Yang di-Pertuan Agong invited you to the Palace for a cup of tea. Heh! You'll probably be bending head over heels just to greet him.

Imagine when you sin again. How do you think Jesus will feel if you were in His shoes? Like you gave your life for someone. And that someone just spit at you in the face afterwards. It's like nailing Jesus to the cross all over again.

See? We are all really despickable creatures. But I am making that change. How bout you? Will you attend church services and not sleep during the sermons? Will you sing wholeheartedly when it comes to worshipping our Lord? Will you help out in any work that requires physical strength and not care about whether others will do the same? Will you be humble when someone points out your mistakes? Will you attend corporate prayer meetings monthly?

The reason why I am pointing these things out is because when I attended corporate prayer meeting last Sunday, there were only around 50 people present? I mean, what happen? Yeah Sunday School. So what? Not all of us are involve with Sunday School. Especially the young people. Even the children attends corporate prayer meetings. I pray with every fibre in my body that your eyes would be open one day.

Corporate prayer IS IMPORTANT.
Click here if you need to know why. http://www.gotquestions.org/corporate-prayer.html
The late Mr. Boler himself emphasize on these meetings. I am indeed shameful that I didn't attend these meetings before the corporate prayer meetings were change to Sundays.

So yeah. Oh and for those free thinkers out there who think this post is worth crap, here's a little something for you.

I would rather live my life as if there is a

God and die to find out there isn't, than live

my life as if there isn't and die to find out

there is.

-Albert Camus-

आपका दिन अच्छा बीते! (Hindi)

Whirlwinds of thoughts... Carefull now, won't want you to be blown away....

"Will you tell me how he died?"

"No Your Honour, I will tell you how he'd lived."

I guess it does not matter how long we live, but how much life we live in our lifetime. It also depends what we live for. Most people say for ourselves laaa! But I totally agree with Albert Einstein when he says, "Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile."

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Change. People are afraid of it. They fear it. They loathe it. Most of them put it this way, "You ruin my life!!!!!" They are afraid because what they came to believe and accustomed to is going to change. They gotten so use to the fact that something will be always there for them. Like laws, relationships, environment, house, beliefs and loved ones. These things always seem like one certainty. The constant variable. The comfort zone.

Guess the only comfort we can get is : "If there's no changes, There'll be no butterflies." (You get the point...)

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Stars. Makes you wonder whether is there more to life, doesn't it? Then when you wonder about that, you'll find that you won't be afraid of death. But afraid of time left before you die. Because after death, there'll be no pain. Nothing to worry about. End of suffering. What you build here you leave it here. Whereas time left, you never know when you're about to leave this world. You wanna do the Things-To-Do-Before-You-Die list. People you have not forgiven. People you have not help. People you have not told them how much you love them.

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Beauty. Some people show it to the world so to have the world praise them.
But some hide their beauty because they want the world to see something else.

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I guess no matter how stubborn, tenaciously unwilling, obstinate a person is, they will change when they meet someone who has a genuine, pure, innocent, loving and forever caring attitude. Watch all those sentimental movies and it is proven. In real life too.

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I just finish reading Taming the Tiger....again and I think I should put down those intresting stories that Tony told the prisonners just to make his point clear. (Since most of you are too lazy to read)

This is the part where Tony is trying to put it clear how great the love of God is when he sent his son into the world to die for us and cancel the debt of sin for us.

"There were two boys who grew up together as best friends. As the years went by they went their separate ways. One had a good career and became a judge. The other fell on hard times, got mixed up with the wrong company and became a thief. One day the judge realised the man standing in the dock in front of him was none other than his old childhood friend who he had loved dearly. He had an awful dilemma. As a judge, he was bound to uphold the law. He knew that he had to serve the thief with a large fine. He also knew that his friend could not pay. If he didn't pay, he would be condemned to prison."

"Well, the judge passed sentence, as he was bound to. But then he stood down and took off his judge's wig and his gound. To the utter amazement of everyone else in the courtrooom he joined his old friend in the dock, took out his chequebook and paid the fine on behalf of the man he loved. His friend was free to go. No fine, no prison sentence, no debt at all."

Now, the judge represents God. So when he step down and took off his wig to pay the debt, he was Jesus. This is because as a judge, He was not only bound to the law, He was the law. And at that time, when Jesus came to pay off the debt is not with money but with his life. For you and for me.

Another interesting story that Tony told was when a Convict ask him how can bad things happen if there was a God.

"There was once a shipwreck, with just one survivor. He made it to a desert island, but when he got there he realised what a desperate situation he was in. He prayed feverishly to God, but nothing happened."

"So all he could do was build a hut to protect himself from the elements. One day he returned to the hut after scavenging for food, only to find that the hut was on fire. The midday sun had set it alight and he watched as his last hoe went up in smoke. He was angry. 'How can God allow such a thing?' he cried. That night he lay under a tree, scared and cold. In the morning he was woken up by rescuers. 'How did you find me?' he asked them in amazement. 'We saw your smoke signals,' they said."

So sometimes, God's love can feel like hatred. We don't always understand why he allows certain things to happen in our lives. So yeah, eventually, it is for the greater good. But what happen to most people is that they forgotten who help them out in the end.

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Finish what you started. Why you might asked. Because you can. Being happy does not make your life perfect. Going through it is really all we can ask for.

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I really think that sometimes, blind faith is what we really need. It takes much greater strength and commitment to believe in Jesus when we have not experienced him first hand. Like what Jesus said to Thomas and the rest of the disciples, "Blessed are those who did not see, and yet believed."

So kudos to you who have taken the step of commitment!

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"It is better for man to lose hope in humanity than to lose hope in happy endings."

Hafðu það gott!! (Icelandic)
Now I that I have finish spewing out these thoughts, I shall now go and curl myself up in a ball and wait for the hour to end. Then maybe when the madness is over, I can hit overdrive into study mode.