Things You Don't See

They say your social life begins when you have a car...

2009-09-13T22:20:00.004+08:00

Hah~ I still find myself lifeless. Aimless. Hypocritical. Two-faced. One even wanders why am I still doing these things, choir, 6 who died, etc. I guess it became a habit. Something that is deep in me, part of me, intertwined with the very core of my humanity.

Or... maybe, just maybe... I never really left. Or rather, I did but somehow unexpectantly and subconciously I start pushing myself back. Or maybe it is the other way around; someone pulling me back.

Who am I? Why am I here? Where am I going?

The questions, the messages, the songs...

Or maybe I'm speculating too much. Maybe I'm still trying to put myself at the center of the universe.

But I still hold on to that faint speck of hope; that He still cares for me.

I get it now, Life is short yet not so short...

2009-08-07T17:15:00.003+08:00

We fall, we cry, we bleed, we get up and for what? To go through the same process all over again.

Time flies and.... there is only 8+ days left.... Scary. Haha. There I said it. The eccentric blockhead I am is actually scared. Hmmm... Maybe I'm getting a bit too engrossed in my character, but it's not enough.

Wish me luck! (funny, I started believing in luck all over again)

Tired, Sleepy, Exhausted, Drained and the list goes on....

2009-07-18T13:50:00.002+08:00

The ironic thing is I seem to be more tired after my slumber than before sleep.

Rush-A-thon was a good waste of time and money, but let by gones be by gones. Studying seems rather appealing to me now, like as if I actually want to study. Soon, very soon.

Disjointed thoughts torments my waking hours.

Tata

When life gives you lemons, you suck on it and endure the sourness of life...

2009-07-16T00:21:00.002+08:00

There is always a thin line between optimistism and ignorance.

Finals are just next week. It seems time flies when it's nearing the end. So much to do and so little time. Preparation & rehearsal for 15 August, would be choir practices, assignments, presentations, last minute cramming. Maybe this is what I was waiting for. As the saying goes, "My time to shine."

Or I could just roll over and indulge in worries and anxieties and at the end of it all, nothing gets done.

Why am I babbling all these things now? Heh! Must be the impending nervousness for my lack of preparation for oral presentation.

Anyway, as the title goes, I chose not to be too optimistic to the point of ignorance and rather face the problems, hectic-ness and deadlines head on with a smile on my face and survive through them. Yes, these things I faced now will be considered childish and immature but I'm sure they will mature me and make me stronger to take on more difficult trials in the future.

Toodles and may you all suck on your lemons with that in mind.

A true story.. well... not exactly

2009-07-13T16:27:00.026+08:00

CAST: Lyon, Eng Hoe, Jon
DIRECTOR: Jon
CAMERA MAN: Kimberly

Part 1

There was once a gangster called L,

who goes around beating up people.

While he was about to victimized his 2152463421231th victim called E, J step in.

Just in time, J managed to stopped L from hurting E. E was shocked!

J then confronts L! L was shocked.

And J use the shockness to his advantage and evangelize to both of them.

E & L then kiss and make up.

J says his goodbye and went off to find more good deeds to do.

L then turns back to E and starts to whack him.

E was confused and hurt.

End of Part 1.

Moral of the story: Inward transformation is hard to come by.

Intermission:

Cast takes a break....

while director gets inspiration...

Part 2:

After the encounter with L from part 1, E was hurt. And there he was shuffling along the side walk, caressing his hurt arm.

J spotted E and wonders what had happen.

After hearing his account, J place his hands over E and pray.

E was healed! And they rejoice!

However, shortly after that, E spotted L in the distance.

E tried to attack L but J was there to intervene!

Unfortunately E seemed possessed by anger and tried to takes his revenge. But miraclously, J was able to grab E's arm just in time.

J calms E down and explained what will happen when he takes his revenge on L.

E forgives L.

End of Part 2.

Moral of the story: Forgiveness may not be fair but it sure can end the never ending cycle of revenge .

Blast from the past.

2009-06-11T11:27:00.000+08:00

It's been 4 weeks now...

2009-06-10T04:18:00.002+08:00

I've received my RBS letter from myself after 3 months. Still remained unopen. I guess I'm just too ashamed to faced myself.

It's been awhile...

2009-06-02T18:51:00.003+08:00

Hello World!

Long time no blog. Guess I did not have the mood to blog. But it's funny why I am blogging now, since I have an assignment and presentation due tomorrow, my mid-term exams are next week, I need to memorize my script by this Sunday and it's been 2 weeks since that day.

College has been hard on me and honestly speaking, eventhough I am constantly surrounded by a bunch of new friends, I still feel alone. It's OK, I'm getting numb to it.

At least last Sat I had a lovely break from reality. :D Canticle Singers were AWESOME. I'm so gonna get a pony tail! And I really sound weird on digital form, or maybe my brain just project my voice differently. Really, I sound like an Ah Beng. T___T I need a new voice box... wonder if I can get it from the Body Shop. HAHA lame joke really.

In the mean time, have a limited edition picture of moi

Ok, that's all for now.

Have a nice day.

The Proton Wira was finally a Wira for 4 seconds...

2009-04-21T13:47:00.002+08:00

O HAPPY DAY!!!!

2009-04-12T21:02:00.003+08:00

Remember indeed...

A smile in the midst of the storm

2009-04-10T19:45:00.003+08:00

Personality / Temperament for Jon Wee

Test taken on April 9th 2009

Personality: Melancholy Sanguine

Melancholy Strength:6 Weakness:8
35%
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Phlegmatic Strength:2 Weakness:5
18%
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Sanguine Strength:7 Weakness:4
28%
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Choleric Strength:5 Weakness:3
20%
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So ouch! I am a serious emo person deep deep down. So many negatives for Melancholic...
Kinda makes me wonder....

HAPPY MOURNING...

It is Good Friday after all.

The Love of God

2009-04-05T20:47:00.002+08:00

Could we with ink the ocean fill,
And were the skies of parchment made,
Were every stalk on earth a quill,
And every man a scribe by trade;

To write the love of God above
Would drain the ocean dry;
Nor could the scroll contain the whole,
Though stretched from sky to sky

This stanza that we sang so often was originally found scribbled on the wall of a patients room in a mental asylum. Frederick M. Lehman then added the first 2 stanzas to make the song whole. The love of God holds no boundary to anyone. This child of God who scribbled this verse has understood perfectly how uncomprehensively vast the love of God is.

So how bout you? It is Passion Week. Thought about God's love lately?

If haven't, better start now then. =)

God Bless!

Barfday? Burpday? Blupday? Birthday?

2009-03-26T21:14:00.020+08:00

This is a delayed birthday post to me. I originally was to lazy to post it, but a certain turtle or penyu won't let me off easy. Hmm... where should I start? Err... better start from the start of the eve of my birthday.

20th March

Guess I didn't expected much on that day except the RBS reunion because Li Ann was in town. Kinda fun spending the whole day in KLCC with a bunch of equally crazy youth to do just wander around and talk about anything under the sun. Literally just wander around and just talk. Hahaha! Shopping~~ XP But seriously it was fun to be reunited once again just after 4 days since the RBS reunion in Sunway Red Box. XP

Have a laugh, have a pic:

Camwhoring. Kim's speciality.

Emo-ing

Just wandering around... again.

Bring out the Bollywood-ness in me.

Bring out the model in me.

Bring out the kid in me.

Also bringing out the kid in me.

Again, the model in me. (I think I look better without Eng Hoe XP jkjk)

Teaching people how to skip like me. I need new recruits...

Us with all the happy smily faces.

Us again.

Ah... blissful time spending it with you guys. :)

Well, it didn't end there. About 4 o' clock I think, Keen King called me while I still was in KLCC to go out. So I was like okay. But the funny thing is they ask me to go and meet up at 6 30 pm. So I continue my lepaking with my RBS mates untill 6.00 pm.

I reached the Bangsar LRT station at 6. 30pm on the dot. I'm always early for some reason... even for the KLCC trip. And well... we only met up at 8 30 pm. I guess I learn the value of patience well. Enjoying the breeze of the evening air. Watching the sun decends slowly into the horizon among the polluted gasses.

I'll just fast forward now to fish & co since 2 hours of waiting is not so interesting.

Met up with Boon Yang, Wen Jun and Keen King and waited for Jun Yu and his girlfriend to come. Turns out the girlfriend was a childhood friend of mine. Interesting. But I didn't bother to tell her who I was. Too lazy I guess. HAHAHA! Well, at least they found out yesterday.

Interestingly I wasn't into fish that day, so I ordered sword-fish. XP Lame right? I know! haha down to 10 bucks in my wallet.

Note: If you think you are holy, then please stop reading from this point on... Thank you =)

Then we went to D'haven to celebrate my birthday. Hehe.... No shisha for me though. I still hold fast to my principles.

Long Island was nice. I prefer Blue Lagoon though. *hint *hint.

Here's some more pictures.

Keen King trying to be a pro shisha-er

Failed...

After about one hour (and after numerous times of "secretly" discussing about what to get for me), Keen King and Jun Yu went out to get my gift. Haha. Thanks for all your effort! And thanks for belanja-ing me AK-47 and the Long Islands and also the clown. The clown was pretty cute. =D Love it! AK-47 was fun to drink. I still love cherries. ^^

Me with me birthday gift.

Me savouring my birthday gift.

There was a video of me downing down my AK-47. Go to PenYU's blog to see. If you want to see that is.

Well, after the excitement and receiving numerous sms' wishing me Happy Birthday, we went back and crashed at Jun Yu's place.

Then went home the next day for my YF. And then went out to celebrate my birthday with GodMa. Dinner was not bad. Then next day, went for steamboat. My mom's friend belanja'd me again. Awesome steamboat at puchong, man!! STEAM AH!!!

Well, that's how I spent my pre, during, and post birthday days.

THANK YOU ALL!

GOD BLESS!!!

The REAL two weeks after RBS...

2009-03-21T22:33:00.004+08:00

It's utterly shameful to admit how far I can fall just after 2 weeks of RBS, and even without the start of college yet. How I seem to find it harder to pray continuosly throughout the day, how I missed out my devotion for 2 days in a row, how I totally left God out of my mind during my birthday celebration yesterday, how I just fail and fail and yet still fail to put my priorities in order and how the fire of passion for God seemed to extinguished so quickly.

And definitely, how I slowly conformed back to the life of hypocricy...

I feel dry and dead. I'm just so so weak and fragile. My will is so shallow. I am truly pathetic.

I have hit rock bottom.

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But I guess when all the water in the well has been used up, the only choice I'm left is this:

Dig deeper.

It's truly amazing. How the Holy Spirit makes me realize these things. How the God of "irony" uses the brokenness in me to draw me closer to Him. From the fall, there'll be the rise. From sin, there'll be redemption. From the sick, there'll be healing. From death, there'll be life. From the feeling of loneliness, there'll be the inclination to be with people more. From natural disaster, there'll be unity among the people to help the victims. From the depression and feelings of unworthiness, there'll be a strong urge to lean on the power of grace and to seek God.

In the end, it's not love for God nor even the want to love God that's important or real to me now. I don't feel that at all.

It's the want of wanting to love God that counts.

And how?

by digging deeper...

"My grace is sufficient for you, and my
power is made perfect in weakness.."

Thank you God, for making me reflect on my life once again. And I doubt it'll be the last. I do still have a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong way to go.

GOD Bless!

The Perfect Results

2009-03-12T18:39:00.004+08:00

God has answered my prayers! Praise God! I believe He had given me the perfect results to satisfy my soul.

I got 8 A's for SPM.

It's not straight so lest I can boast about myself and still not so low that I can be ashamed of.

Some of you might find me retarded but I don't care. God gave me this gift to prove that he cares for my needs. Not my wants but my needs.

God bless!

Back from outer space? More like inner space.

2009-03-07T13:13:00.004+08:00

So much lessons learn, friendship made, laughs shared, tears shed, thoughts expressed... and all for what?
Life, of course!

RBS was an AWESOME experience. It's time now to live out the experience.

I am not holier now, I am more sinful than ever.

[edited]

I realised that the above was not really a fitful description of RBS.
So after reviewing some of my friends' blogs I was peer pressured into this:

What RBS meant to me:

Or what I learn:

Notes: This is not all there is to RBS, these are just some. There are just too much...

I learnt what it takes to be a real man, a leader.... with emotions/compassion.

I learnt to speak no evil, smell no evil, see no evil, hear no evil and think no evil. Or at least try to do them.

I learnt that everyone is just ordinary untill we get to know them.

I learnt to be serious at times... I'm serious...

I learnt that I should put more trust in the circle of close friends I have.

I learnt that God is closer than I thought, all I had to do is lift a finger.

I learnt that every moment is a gift from God. It is His present for us.

I learnt that I can accomplish anything through Christ who gives me strength.
(Yes the flag is fake but it still carries its meaning)

I learnt that I have a great mission team called Glasgow!

Thank You RBS, for giving me the opportunity to learn...

PS: noticed there are less girls in the photos eventhough the girls outnumbered the boys? That proves it, guys are just better posers than girls. Just kidding!

GOD Bless!

I am not rotting!!! I am just degenerating slowly...

2009-01-20T20:02:00.002+08:00

Weeeeeeee It's the 3rd week of school reopen... Wait.... why do I care? HAHAHA no school!

Hehe... some of you might be wondering what I'm doing nowadays so that I won't go insane from boredom, so here's the list:

Driving lessons (kinda fun but I really wish the instructor would stop leaving me all alone to drive around while he go yam cha)
Gai Gai (basically just lepaking around with other free people, the Loos included)
Reading (self-explanatory)
Occasional gai gai by myself
Helping around in the house.
Internet

Yeah, maybe its not so much of a impressive list but it still achieved its purpose.

Residential Bible School is just next week! I'm really excited, yet still feel homesickness already. Amazing huh? Contradicting emotions usually happens consequently.

And I decided to stay back in PJ whereas my parents go to Kuala Terengganu on the the 23rd. I will catch them later on the 26th. Guess the reason for me wanting to stay back is... no idea? HAHAHA Maybe its because that weekend is the last weekend the Loos are here? Or maybe Zoe and Marie's farewell is this coming Saturday? Or maybe I want to spend as much time with the friends around me as much as possible before going to RBS? Or maybe there's not much relatives back in KT. After all, all my grandparents are gone.

So yeah, that means I'll be home alone for 3 days before CNY. Anybody wants to adopt me?

PS: I appreciate the advice from Ben Phua, "Go hunting in RBS, but please don't hunt preys you can't kill."

A new year, a new start

2009-01-06T00:26:00.002+08:00

Yes, I know it is weird and late for a new year post, but heck I'm writing anyway eventhough it will be a short one.

It really is weird. To not buy text books for school. To not wake up early for school. To not be dressing up for school. To not do any homework for school.

But enough on that, I shall not dwell on the past if not I'll never move forward. Someone once wrote that, " To start a new life, you have to die to the old." I couldn't agree more.

So for now, I just have to be a ronin and bear with it for awhile.

Any wishes for this year? I wish I would be a more people person.

Enjoy the year ahead!

YF camp 08 [from my point of view]

2008-12-31T11:04:00.010+08:00

Bonjour! Je parle Français!!! Merci beaucoup SLOO!!!
Translation: Hello! I speak french!!! Thank you very much, SLOO!!!

Yes I'm back from Youth Camp. So as per-usual like everyone else, I would like to jot down what happen, lessons, people, or anything I see that is worth putting down on my blog.

THE ACTIVITIES
Caving in Gua Tempurong for the second time is not too bad. Although my shoes became sole-less and it feels like walking bare footed on the small sharp rocks with only a thin piece of cloth strapped around my feet. Well, at least those shoes were old and worn and thankfully not Nike or Addidas (another reason for not buying branded goods).

Workshops were great. I thank God for enabling me to participate in the French workshop. We get to discover how to say our names in french. Well, for me that part was pretty much simple. Sloo's a great and patient teacher. Well done!
(though it was a bit weird when suddenly the Sing with Yuen Yuen Workshop interupted us with a funny song they composed, Well done to you guys too!)

Games were not too bad too! The Sukaneka (that has nothing related to sports) was indeed quite fun. I am glad to see all my group whole heartedly doing through every single disgusting things like stuffing their face with shaving cream, or stuffing their face into flour to find coins. And the best thing is: WE DID IT WITH A SMILE!

(plus I ruin the Jenga when it was at its last block)

Mystery Night too was well, a mystery. HAHA Basically its like CSI finding who kill the victim, using what weapon, where did it took place, and why. The whole event actually took 2 hours but time flies when we're having fun. Jason Voon's sexy acting scared the hair off people. Well, we didn't get first place but it's all right. We were close.

Talent time is yet another awesome thing to watched. The group Zeal would definitely be dead without Kevin Loo. And David Ho really has a limited vocabulary. Muruku?

THE CAMPSITE

As some of you have noted in my fellow YF-ers blogs. Yes the campsite was nice and clean but full of flies. That's because we were practically in the middle of nowhere. A good place to make someone stranded for life. Yeah. So the campsite is extremely good... so long as you don't open your mouth too long. A fly might just fly in.

Tragically, we didn't get to use much of the facilities due to the tight schedule. But it was all right.

Toilets were clean. Food were good. Beds were comfortable. Nettings for insects were there. And air cons were working! So I guess this campsite goes way up to my list for great compare to some other campsites I went to.

THE SPEAKER

Joshua Liong

You've seen him, you've heard him, and now you shall add him on FACEBOOK !!! So yeah. He was our camp speaker for Passion for God. He was just simply amazing. He just gets to the point and the point drives through you like a sword through your heart. Something most speakers won't do. They just try to create impressive and decorative jargon and makes you think too much untill you're brain is back to square one: empty.

All the things he had said are well, to me not new things but still things that I haven't thought of in a long, long time. Things that always remained in the back of my head, untill now. It is just incredible to be reminded that God chose to let us be involved in his plans. And the purpose for us is just too incredible so that glory goes back to God.

Thanks to him, I get my spiritual high and passion renewed for God.
(Team Hoyt always brings tears to my eyes without fail.)

THE PEOPLE
The people there are just super great. Spontaneous, active, willing to listen, ready to laugh and most importantly, GREAT FRIENDS!!! They are the people you wish time would just stood still and never ends.

Their sharing are just great encouragement for people like me. It shows that they are growing and in the right path.

On the last night of camp, I and Han Jung stayed up till 2:30 am for bonding session. It was really nice. Haha too bad the rest slept so fast. You guys should have seen the dining hall when it is dark. Outside was dark, inside was dark and the place is full of windows. Just imagine if someone in white suddenly walk past one of them. Brrrr....

YOUTH CAMP IS AWESOME!!!

Note to self: I only wish I was more friendlier to people.

The real reason to be jolly falala-lalala

2008-12-24T12:25:00.008+08:00

As little children we would dream of Christmas morn

Of all the gifts and toys we knew we’d find

But we never realized a baby born one blessed night

Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason that He gave His life

We were the reason that He suffered and died

To a world that was lost He gave all He could give

To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more about gifts

The giving of ourselves and what that means

On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain

because of love

I finally found the reason for living

It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him

And all that I do every word that I say

I’ll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

We are the reason that He gave His life

We are the reason that He suffered and died

To a world that was lost He gave all He could give

To show us the reason to live

HAVE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVE WITHOUT FORGETTING THE REAL REASON FOR CHRISTMAS!

Your wish is my command, cool-shoes-owner/ Zoe

2008-12-23T19:56:00.002+08:00

Directions: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog/Facebook note with 16 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 16 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave them a comment or tag them in your note to read this.

1. I love to create weird expressions.
2. I chose to be left behind instead of going for the Christmas family gathering today.
3. I once ran up my hand phone bill to RM150+
4. I wish I can be wise one day.
5. I want to die by cancer or some terminal disease so that I know how much time I have left.
6. I learn how to solve a rubik's cube by observing Mark Huang doing his thing.
7. I wish I had a sexier voice.
8. I love God but shamefully don't show it much.
9. I will change that [reffering to no.8]
10. I want to be able to think logically and rationally.
11. I want to build relationships that last.
12. I have a variable ability to sleep yet to be aware of my surroundings. Sometimes it happens sometimes it don't.
13. I can control what I say and do under the influence of alcohol when I am awake.
14. I can be everyones friend.
15. I wish I had more patience. You can never have too much.
16. I suck at romance.

I tag
Keen King (if you're sober by now)
Jun Yu (if you're un-emo right now)
Kit Meng (if you're free)

And you you you you you you *infinity.

I would understa-a-a-and~ Monday is not so bad day after all...

2008-12-23T17:08:00.010+08:00

Eventhough it was really really really short notice, the best school friends made it to mid valley to catch:

Yes, you get it. Really awesome movie. Thanks Matt for recommending it. :) Go watch it, Jim Carrey's expressions are priceless.

Then we went to Fish and Co. for late dinner. That was when Keen King's chest becoming super red from 20% diluted vodka. I find my Fishy Maria was quite spicy. Yummmyyyy. Then we went to Sri Hartamas for Chivas. Boon Yang went red after a sip of wine. We shall call him Boon Yang the red faced clown. So we finished half of our Chivas bottle in Sri Hartamas and headed back to Jun Yu's place.

That was where the fun started and ended with a vomiting end. Ok. The fun didn't ended there. It never does. =D

So I and Keen King were being funny and poured the remaining half of the bottle of Chivas into our two cups to downed it. Unfortunately when we finished pouring we realised we almost finished the whole bottle. So yeah. Jun Yu get the whats left in the bottle and Keen King poured some for Boon Yang from his share. So WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE we toast, we downed and Keen King got really really really tipsy. Sorry. =D But really it is incredibly awesome how out of control you can get. You should see the vids I took for Keen King. Haha it looks as if I am really nailing it down on Keen King. That's because he was too funny. Really funny. Period.

Me? At least I am conscious enough to realise 1+2+3+4+5+6=21 Black Jack! And also still conscious enough to hear what the rest was mumbling in their sleep or half sleep. And also conscious enough to help open the jammed door.

Unfortunately, when I grew tired, alcohol takes its toll on me. No, I don't spout out truthful or revealing things or cursed like a sailor. Just get dizzy and feeling sick. So I tried to stay up as much as possible. But I failed miserably. So yeah I suddenly woke and heard a gut-wrenching sound and realize it came from me. Well, part of the sound also came from Keen King who was already in the toilet vomitting his guts out for 3 hours? So yeah, the toilet bowl was my best friend for the moment, Keen King had the sink to himself.

I think I shall stop there with the insightful details but I tell you this, it was an unpleasant sight. Jun Yu kindly took a vid for me to see. How kind. So when I got back from the toilet 20 minutes later (Keen King was still hugging the sink), I look at Jun Yu and said, "Lets do it again!"

No I was not saying that because I have no idea what was I saying. It is because I seriously felt a sense of elation, euphoria like sense of pleasure. Okay maybe not during the vomiting process but still...fun? It's like I can look back and say, "Been there! Done that!"

Yeah, it is kinda stupid to want to do what I did but really to me, it is something. Bonus: We get to hear Keen King confess that he love us monkeys. I'm really touch. I love you too, Keen King.

So summary of last night's events: Drinking, Making a fool out of ourselves, Laughter, Vomiting, Laughter at looking back of what we did during that night. Okay, maybe the laughing came from only me in the morning. I guess most people are not morning people. I am always happy I guess.

Please forgive me if I offended any of you dear readers for my outrages actions but please note that I would probably do it again. Just for the fun of it.

Cheers!

Undang my udang....

2008-12-18T15:44:00.005+08:00

Waking up from sleep wasn't exactly as expected. It's more like waking up from screen saver mode, like a waking dream, like aware of everything yet to tired to do anything. Reason: stayed up whole night watching downloaded movies although clearly the undang test is tomorrow. 21 and Get Smart are great shows. Narnia was not too bad if you lower your expectations.

Well, back to me story, got up with incoherent thoughts, had breakfast and arrive at the Undang testing place at 9 and it was pack with people. I mean it starts from 8.30 am- 4.00 am. And you think Malaysians would always be late. Sad.

Well at least that meant there would be ample time for me to study! Yipee! Only the "study time" lasted 6 hours! Ish.... I meant it is kinda pathetic. Study for 6 hours and sat in front of the computer for 15 minutes.... Wheres the logic in that? T_T

Anyhoo, it's not too bad. I passed although the technique I used is really stupid. I was mentally noting the unsure questions, assuming they were wrong and what do you know? I got till question no.46 and with only 4 unsure questions. Which meant I tembak the remaining four questions. Passing mark is 42/50. I got 44! Not bad! I got 2 tembak questions correct!

Thank God I passed!

All the best for Boon Yang and Keen King for their Undang Tests!

(Keen King, please try to pass this time so you won't waste so much money on keep resitting your tests.)

良い一日不戦している!! (Japanese)

Christmas letter 2008 [Unedited version]

2008-12-17T00:52:00.002+08:00

Greetings fellow beloved in the name of God Most High.

We are all keeping well and healthy. And if you are reading this Christmas letter, you, dear reader, must be keeping well too.

It is once again the season of joy and feasting where we all celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ. But of course, acknowledging this season also means acknowledging the end of another year and a beginning for a new one.

This year had been yet another interesting year for us. Jonathan had faced his SPM without any difficulties, as he convinced himself. Ezra is still able to smile. Beng and family had flown off to Canada. Seth has started university life. And Beijing Olympics was over as soon as it begun. Time sure flies, doesn’t it?

In April, Michael broke his ankle and was hospitalized. And thank God for that. The reason that statement was made is because Michael had been continuing his routine of driving here and there doing his errands with one eye blind. So in short, him breaking his ankle is like a blessed enforced rest and time to think. He learnt his lesson the hard way, but in the end, he learnt it well. Now he is less active but still keeps fit.

We just want to thank especially the church members for their selfless help rendered to the family when Michael was hospitalized. The countless visits, prayers, get-well gifts and also food were all very much appreciated.

In August, Cheow Ean, Cheow Beng and Cheow Lay all came back to spent time with the family and also sort of a farewell for Cheow Beng and family who will be heading off to Canada. Unfortunately, Cheow Lay and David couldn’t make it to the farewell feasts because they were touring China and watching the solar eclipse from there. Miraculously, Cheow Lay and David met up with Cheow Beng and family just as they arrived from China and Cheow Beng and family were leaving for Singapore and then to Canada.

That’s all about us this year. There is still more but we are running out of space.
Well, hope you all have a great time this Christmas and don’t get sick from eating all that Christmas pudding.

Love & Christmas greetings to one & all
Michael, See Ai. Ezra & Jonathan Wee

I don't want to survive! I want to live!

2008-12-10T15:04:00.002+08:00

Wall-E is an awesome movie. Period. Almost comparable with The Dark Knight. Hehe, now I'm downloading Wanted, Hancock, Eagle Eye. Yeah, I didn't really get to watch all the recent movies cuz of SPM and all. Tell me some good one's that I miss out, ya? I want to download them too. hehe Oops, download is the wrong word. After I get arrested. How bout if I rephrase it to "shared"?

So prom came and went and the poor me stayed at home that night. Well, the word poor is in literal sense. So guess you can't blame me. Haha. So those who went, tell me about it sometime ya?

Just some random thought: I think the older we get, the less open we become.
Less open as in less friendly, more racist, more stubborn, etc.
Hehe Figure that sentence out yourself.

Wished more people had come to volleyball last night. Heh! Matthew Huang miraculously invited a total stranger and he came while Matt didn't. Weird huh?

Oh Well.

Enjoy the holidays!

I will be the last one on your mind......

2008-12-07T21:57:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. That should be a song title for the next top charts hits. Sometimes, my self-inflicting criticisms just astounds people... okay, maybe just me. That is why you normally hear me boasting aloud in front of you people how great I am but in reality I'm just trying to shelter myself from the voice of cold logic that's constantly playing in my mind. Guess my dark secret that has been blown wide open onto the surface for the world to see. Yeah, I am kinda pathetic.

Does it scares you? To find that I'm not the ever-Mr. Brightside?

No. I guess it shouldn't as the title clearly puts it into perspective.

Guess that I am human that craves for attention and instant gratification.

I'll be waiting for New Moon.

My head is paining...

2008-12-04T15:52:00.002+08:00

Have you ever was infected by flu that causes headaches like none you have ever experience before?

I have.

Well, at least it started this morning when I woke up and tried to raise my head up. It's like every time you move your head or make a step that vibrates to your skull, a sharp dagger of agony punctures your brain and you have to stop for a moment with your eyes close.
During those frequent brief moments of pain you cannot think, cannot navigate, cannot articulates your words to express the pain but just focus on the blinding pain. Maybe I'm just whining and exaggerating but that's how I feel.

Pain (whether physical or emotional) is good, no, really. Pain proves that you are still alive and not dead yet. That you have still hope on living. If you don't feel pain, you are either inhumane or dead.

Pain also builds us. Makes us stronger. Like when you tear your muscles and then when the muscles regenerates itself it will grow stronger. Something like that.

I can't really think straight now, but what I have I just jotted down there above.

I wish...I had wrote this poem

2008-12-02T23:33:00.003+08:00

I wish I could hold you
The way that I hold you
In my dreams at night

I wish I could share
All the feelings that tear
Me apart inside

I wish I could tell you
So you’d understand
The loneliness locked deep within

I wish you could know
The feelings that flow
Each time someone mentions your name

I wish there was somewhere
My love could run free
A place where loaners could dare

I wish and I pray
Though I’ve always known
I wish that I wasn’t alone

- M R Wood

Public Enemy No.1

2008-11-30T18:00:00.010+08:00

This December will be quite pack indeed. For the first time. Mostly I spend my last few years of year end holidays sitting on my butt in front of the computer screen playing games or watching anime. Yes I am a lifeless loser. Though frequently I would go out to KL and walk around for fun when boredom has totally reach its peak.

~~Things to do~~ [Rephrased] LOTS of things to do :

Hunt for colleges that have March intake. (really thinking of going to HELP)
Organize Christmas party.
Re-memorise and re-act an old skit for Christmas Eve.
Get driving license.
Read Twilight. (Bue! I need the books!)
Solve my first Rubik's cube (Ruby) without any form of formula.
Attend Committee retreat.
Attend Christmas Program at church.
Go for a Christmas Carols at KL PAC,
Attend Youth Camp.
Catch up on movies. (I still haven't watch Wall-E)
Get Brisingr. When it is cheap.

And the list will be continuously added sooner or later. That I can assure you.

Anyway a word from the ~~wise~~ foolish (where fools will listen):

Sometimes, you can't expect parents to understand a teenager.

Yes it sounds very insulting but most of the time, the truth hurts. Why I said this? Because most (I'm not saying all but most =D) parents have already forgotten what it means to be young and foolish. Or also because they want the teenagers to not make mistakes in life. But then again mistakes are the things that molds and builds character.

Most of the time, firsthand learning is better than secondhand learning and that we should all experience the mistakes/lesson ourself than never experience them at all.

It is not totally the parents fault at not understanding actually, it is because the parents cares for their child. As a child, parents made decisions about everything from the bread the child eats in the morning to the type of toothpaste they use before going to bed. And it's a good thing because children need this kind of protection and guidance, because they aren't mature enough to take care of themselves or make careful decisions on their own.

But eventually, the child grows up and become teenagers. And part of being a teenager is developing their own identity : one that is separate from the identities of their parents. Identity as in creating their own opinions, thoughts, and values about life. This is what prepares them for adulthood.

Unfortunately, parents grew too comfortable of being "in control" and this dull their senses to their teenager's preference or feelings. They would always want to be in charge of everything concerning their child. So when the child hits puberty, most parents will have a hard time adjusting to the fact of letting go of this control. As a result, fights normally breaks out because of the reluctance of letting the teenager being his/herself.

So if you're a parent and looking for a solution for resolving fights with their teenagers, here's a tip: Let them make their own choices (most of the time) and mistakes, just warned them beforehand. Adjust to the fact that you are not always in control for the outcome of the child. God is.

I'm not saying parents are the cause of all fights. Its just that there is a lack of mutual respect and understanding. Like parents don't care what the teenagers do as long as they do it their way, or teenagers don't care what their parents say because of , "Hey! What do they know? " attitude.

Don't mind me, I am making no sense for I've just gone over the edge of sanity.

Last note:

All the best to Jun Yu and the rest who would be sitting for Accounts paper tomorrow!

SPM only what?

2008-11-27T01:35:00.006+08:00

Rules and Regulations:

do not copy answers
the tag questions must be 100% the same
tag people after doing tag
no tagging back.

I tag:
1. Larissa the Blur
2. Sara Loo the Noob :P
3. Kevin Loo the Noob's brother
4. Han Jung the person who writes for pleasure
5. Keen King the Crab
6. Jun Yu the Emo
7. Liesl the Cicak
8. Rachel Ho the vertically challenged one
9. Sarah Lee the... hot??

How you know 1?
She magically dropped from the sky and hit my friendly bone.

What would you do if you never meet 2?
One less noob in this world that I know. No laaaa. I probably would have hunt her down eventhough I clearly never met her.

What would u do if 3 & 4 dated u?
Interesting... means I would be a bisexual? No that means I would be GAY!!! Goose bumps brrrrr~

Would 5 & 6 make a good couple?
of course! The best gay couple in the world. =.=

Do you think 7 is attractive?
She can be if she wants to. But she prefer to be tomboyish. But I think that is hot too. :)

Do u know anything about 8’s family?
Hmmm.... Goes to BSF? All of them except Tammy.

Tell me something about 9.
She loves her water bottle very very very much.

What language does 2 speak?
English, French (my french teacher and I don't know what else.

Who is 3 going out with?
Kevin? His drumsticks. I don't know.

How old is 4?
19 and some spare change.

When was the last time you talked to 5?
5 minutes ago?

Who is 6 favourite singer?
Himself. The egoistic bastard. :)

Would you date 7 ?
If she ask nicely. XP

Is 8 single?
Single but unavailable as Richard says.

What is 9's last name?
Flee Dwee See Meee Nah. It's LEE!!

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1?
Wah such TUFF questions. Haha I'll consider lor.

Which school does 2 go to?
Illawarra Christian School, that's what she puts in facebook.

What do you like about 3?
He has sexy long hair. He is farny like a bunny. He draws AWESOMELY. He is an awesome musician. He has a band!!!! (and no the band name is not so vain like Kevin and the Backup band.)

Corridors of Nostalgia... Catchy title, ain't it?

2008-11-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

Yeah, so I have finish all my important papers today. Woohoo? Definitely! Physics is funny... I can see all the dissapointment on my friends' face (All the study study type). Hehe... study so much yet didn't come out. Suckers? I shall reserve that insult for later when I get my A for Physics. And we all know how "hardworking" I am. Staying up all night "studying" by playing with my Rubik's cube. I took a leaf outta Tammy Ho's book, I called mine Ruby.

Now that my mind is free yet still active, I start to reminisce as I walk through the school corridors. Thinking back when I first came into the school. Although it has only been 2 years, it seems like a life time. But then again, time goes so fast. Like Whoa! SPM's over. What happen? Contradicting events. Weird huh?

I couldn't possibly list down all the things that I thought back but here's a few:

Thinking how I sat through Add Maths doing other homework and teasing Mario (the teacher). Thinking how we deal with Madam Zabedah's sudden tantrums.
Thinking how Madam Norhayati answers our questions with great sarcasm.
Thinking how much we enjoy the absence of Madam Gina during double Bio.
Thinking about times where we debate Physics principles with Madam Jamaliah that eventually drives her up the wall.
Thinking about the patience of Madam Premila that faithfully teaches us Sejarah even when we're not listening (And not vomitting blood, that's a bonus!).
Thinking about Madam Anelyza as she constantly gives us endless homework to do yet we still do it because we love her (Or she would make us stand up on chairs or do fashion show as punishment for not doing).
Thinking of how much Madam Stanley have favorites in her class.
Thinking all the times I try to win the favour of Madam Selva in Moral class yet failed miserably.
Thinking about the times we play online checkers in computer class.

Thinking of all the monkeys of friends I made.
Thinking of all the time I spent with those monkeys.
Thinking of all the hopes, dreams, crushes, anger, dissapointment, laughter we shared.
Thinking of all the excuses we would make for incomplete homework.

But then I soon realised that those things will never cross my path ever again. The high school experience. Priceless. How I would miss all the punishments, nagging, encouragement, disciplinary actions from teachers. How I would miss having all the time playing chess during Add Maths with Johann with Mario watching us. How I would miss the senseless talk that somehow makes the sun shine brighter.

The list never ends.

But then I'll try to keep them in memory as long as I can.

These emotional stuff never really sync with me. So yeah, forgive me if it sounds fake.

But enough of that. There is still tomorrow. I shall forget the sorrow.

On the lighter yet brainless note: I AM FREE FREE FREE FREE FREE!!!!
Ok laaa, SPM not over lor. Still got a VERY VERY IMPORTANT subject: English for Science and Technology. How to study ah? Maybe I should start memorizing plusses and minusses. Like 1+1=3 and 3-7=29

Today I went to watch Tropic Thunder. Lots of skill actors but it is not that great la.

So with that I greet you GOOD MORNING!

Program Khidmat Negara

2008-11-22T20:45:00.005+08:00

As some of you might have heard, I was selected to attend National Service. Honestly speaking, I don't really mind going or not going.

Pros: I get to go and learn skills, get to be independent, get allowance, get experience, and get to be buff? :P

Cons: Small percentage I won't make it out there alive. Small but it's there. Let's look at statistics.

21 deaths out of 360,000 kids is 0.0583% of all participants dying since 2004. Sounds not too bad right? But then just be reminded that Malaysia National Service do not undergo actual ammunition-weapons training. After all, all the trainees will be firing blanks and probably only 2 times in 3 months. Where else, Singapores' National Service undergo actual combat training and still manages far fewer deaths than Malaysian's .

But hey, you know that I always look at the pros. :D Mr. Brightside, that's me.

So yeah. I don't mind.

But then there is Residential Bible School (RBS). I really want to go to RBS but it will be held during my period for National Service (I'm in first batch). Some of you might be thinking that I want to use this as an excuse because I'm afraid of going to NS. The truth is, I'm am afraid of not attending RBS.

Reasons why I want to go is : I feel as if school and modern day distraction really is a big gigantic barrier for advancing in my walk of faith. Yes, I know it should not be and all that, but I am weak so I need an extra hand to help me. RBS to me is like that extra hand. I feel that I need to set a point somewhere to really get to know God, the Bible and everything else.

I dunno. I guess my point of view will change after I attend RBS. For the better, definitely.

So it seems like I'm in a dilemma. For country or for God? I think there are enough people joining NS as it is already. I think I read somewhere there will be 140,000 trainees this year. Last time there were only 100,000?

I'm planning to postpone my NS but then I don't think I'll be able to attend it at all ( with all my tertiary education). So too bad lor. Hopefully I can manage to postpone though. Please pray for me if you are willing. Thanks to Anderson and the RBS administration for preparing the letter to defer from NS. Extremely grateful.

Last but never the least, May God's will be done.

When you lower your expectations, you'll never be dissapointed...

2008-11-20T16:58:00.004+08:00

Back aches, that was for sleeping on the floor with Zoe's Chem reference book on my head.

You might have heard, I didn't really study for Chem. Well, if you call studying from 12 am to 2 am then sleep untill 4 30 am then study again untill 6 am, "studying". Ok lor, I did. But you know what, I created a theory by doing so.

BULLSHIT ALERT
(You have permission to ignore the next few lines if you want to.)

The Theory of How To Study Lazily yet Smartly for SPM only (since the standard is low).

Pros: Get to be lazy, sleep a lot, study once, and know it all.
Cons: EXTREMELY RISKY ( There's a danger you won't absorb anything, you might fall asleep studying, you might fall asleep during the exams, you might fail in the end.)

Here's how it works, sleep the whole day before exams, then you will feel like studying at night when you're natural sleeping hormones kicks in. In a way, you become tired yet fresh. Kinda makes no sense right?

Simpler words, you're mind's too tired untill you can't resist the facts and logic. Hence, you absorb and also understand the facts faster. Or Johann puts it, principle of Osmosis: The less you know, the more you'll absorb. But then you're body is fresh, so you can study effectively for a few solid hours. Then sleep for a few minutes but not too long. Then wake up (if you can) and start studying again. Somehow sleeps helps in memorising. Proven by science.

Please note that this is a theory is totally experimental (yeah, I'm my own guinea pig) and may not work for most of us (including me). I can only prove this theory works when I get my SPM results.

Yeah, I know most of you (if not all) are thinking I'm really the laziest person alive. But sometimes, hard work is not the only way to succeed. But yeah, it sure helps. A Lot!

***

Today was yet another fulfilling day of SPM (yay! 3 more days to go!). Chemistry paper 1 is surprisingly easy. Even Jun Yu would have no problem getting 40 out of 50. Paper 2 was ok only la. Not to hard yet not so easy (I got owned by putting ethanoic acid instead of urine for the question on how to heal sting ray sting).

Lunch was yet another hectic rush like on Tuesday. Only more chaotic.
Yeah, Jon Wee and bigger Co. ( Keen King, PenYU, Whye Shon, Yang Yang, Zhuo Wei(dunno how spell his name), Qi Xian and Wen Jun) went to Chinese restaurant to eat. Wonderful ain't we? Food was great untill it came to the bill. RM 112.40. Lol, some of us were waving empty wallets when we came out. But thats not the excitement.

The excitement started when the lady forgotten our order of fried chickens. When it finally arrived, the time shows 10 minutes before 2 p.m. Which means we have 10 minutes to eat and get back before the exam actually starts!

And eat we did. You could swear a vacuum cleaner was there, and surprisingly, we finish the whole 20 pieces of delicious and hot (temperature hot) fried chicken in 5 minutes WITHOUT the help of the FOOD INHALER SAW WHYE SHON (he claimed he was fulled. First time we witness the black hole is full). We are dang amazing.

Then we rushed to the 4WD Pajero (Qi Xian was driving), and all 8 of us crammed into the vehicle. Me, Jun Yu and Wen Jun was like squatting in the boot. No seats.

When we reached the school gates, all the students were already in the examination hall!
Yeah, so that meant more running and skipping (What the...? Skipping?!). So as Keen King claimed that skipping reduces the amount of energy output and quickens the pace.

Miraculously, we still manage to arrive in the hall in time before they lock us out. Champions of the day. Everyone around me was staring at me, well... at us. Thinking, where in the galaxy did we drop out from? Pluto?

Thank God for a sympathetic invigilator who kindly turn on a fan near me. :D

So yeah, after all that drama, we were rewarded with a dumb experiment to construct.

"Construct an experiment to investigate the reactivity of Lithium, Sodium and Potassium with water."

If you thought it could not possibly be any easier, they went ahead and gave the observation too. Well done, Lembaga peeps. You succeeded in bringing a whole new level to the word DUMB.

Oh well, I think Jun Yu can get his A for Chem now. Weeeeee, remember belanja your good friend here Chili's with your RM 1000.oo reward money for getting A in Chemistry. *winks*

एक अच्छा दिन है !! (Hindi)

Survival's my thing....

2008-11-18T20:57:00.006+08:00

Today, I think I survived throughout the whole day despite the "unsexy" headache I was rewarded after 4 and a half hours of Additional Maths. Worse thing is, I had to memorized all my nilai-nilai moral during the one and half hour lunch break. And thanks to THE GENIOUS OF A WHYE SHON, I achieve only in memorising the nilai alone and not the keywords and definisi.

Yeah maybe I am blaming others for my incompetence(Yeah, I could actually started memorizing the nilais long time ago but you know me, unique and all that.) but look at this way and justify me.

Jon Wee and Co. (Whye Shon, PenYu, Keen King and Yang Yang) decided unanimously to go McDonalds in The Mall via LRT. We only had 1 and a half hour. Upon arriving at the platform of the LRT, the GENIOUS of the Whye Shon realised that he left his IC inside the Log Book in the SPM hall. Wonderful ain't it? I was like banging my head against the billboard advertisement. This means that the idea of McDonalds evaporated and RM10 wasted on the LRT ticket.

Aaaaand it also means we had to go all the way back to the exam hall and checked all the log books for his IC (the good friends we are). Which eventually means that we wasted 30 minutes and only left less than an hour left.

And you know what he said after that? Let's go McDonald now. =.=

Well, shortly afterwards, I and Yang Yang were forced to tagged along to mamak. Which means more walking and less memorizing. Weeeeeee~

Well, if you want to be optimistic then I guess the food helped abate some of my headache.

Moral was horrible. Came in late and sweaty from running back from the mamak with half of my nilai-nilai forgotten. Then headache and daydreams consumed most of the 2 and a half hour of Moral paper. When I looked up, I saw that I only had 15 minutes to finish 2 essays...

Many people wonders why do I left all my studying to last minute. Many people even wonders why I don't try hard for my school exams. The honest answer is that I'm lazy. The lie and proud one is that I want to prove I can score in SPM without the help of teachers and school. Yes, guess the wondering people are sticking pins and needles into my voodoo doll.

Ohh and I receive this sexist email, but some of it is quite true. (I think)

Men Are Just Happier People

NICKNAMES
If Laura, Kate and Sarah go out for lunch, they will call each other Laura, Kate and Sarah .
If Mike, Dave and John go out, they will affectionately refer to each other as Fat Boy, Godzilla and Four-eyes.

EATING OUT
When the bill arrives, Mike, Dave and John will each throw in $20, even though it's only for $32.50.None of them will have anything smaller and none will actually admit they want change back.
When the girls get their bill, out come the pocket calculators.

MONEY
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need but it's on sale.

BATHROOMS
A man has six items in his bathroom: toothbrush and toothpaste, shaving cream, razor, a bar of soap, and a towel from some hotel.
The average number of items in the typical woman's bathroom is 337.A man would not be able to identify more than 20 of these items.

ARGUMENTS
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

FUTURE
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

SUCCESS
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

MARRIAGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, but she does.

DRESSING UP
A woman will dress up to go shopping, water the plants, empty the bins, answer the phone, read a book, and get the mail.
A man will dress up for weddings and funerals.

NATURAL
Men wake up as good-looking as they went to bed.
Women somehow deteriorate during the night.

OFFSPRING
Ah, children. A woman knows all about her children.She knows about dentist appointments and romances, best friends, favourite foods, secret fears and hopes and dreams.
A man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house.

THOUGHT FOR THE DAY
A married man should forget his mistakes.There's no use in two people remembering the same thing.

Living to up to....

2008-11-17T19:06:00.004+08:00

This time, I am choosing to write things that really is rather bothersome and supposedly not worth mentioning. But I am sort of trying to be sensitive to the littlest things that bother me and hence sub-consciously controls my actions and that also indirectly personifies me.

The thing is, there are these unwritten laws of expectation people expect out of you. People, most of the time, unintentionally make you feel like you need to live up to their expectations. People indirectly wants you to become something of the norm, a constant variable, a control experiment. Or actually it is just me that feels this way and somehow what people say just makes me feel obliged to do the expected.

Examples:

When people wish you all the best in exams, the invisible contract of expectation of getting high marks is written. You would want to do well, so you won't let them down.
People expect you to be strong, to be smart, to never break down.
When you're young, people expect you to shut up and listen.
When you're old, people expect you to be a role model.
People expect you to never complain about life.
When there are people around you, you are expected to never be yourself. Not to show true emotions. Keep smiling.
You're expected to be responsible.
People will expect you to stand up for the weak, the oppressed and those that are worse than you.
People expect you to teach, guide, lead the least.
When trials and insults come, you're expected to keep a cool head and not EXPLODE.
When there is problem, you're expected to do something about it.
When someone ask you for help, you're expected to say yes.
Especially when you're supposedly a Christian, the expectation is higher, much higher.
Heck! You're expected not even to say these things mentioned above.

So in reality, we or at least I am sub-consciously living to opinion. I think this is the reason for my split personalities. And yes, I am a hypocrite. Now I realise finally it. Now I experienced epiphany. Now I finally grasp the reality and truth. So now I will try my utmost best to do the expected things on MY OWN PREROGATIVE and not because people expect me to do so.

(Though probably it's too late for SPM)

So yeah, I guess this is also sort of another resolution.

I resolve to do the expected with my free will, volition, inclination, intention or whatever you call it.

Why do I want to do the expected? Well, actually because most of the expected things are good things. The rest I can simply just don't do . Such as being someone I'm not.

Took me a while to realise this. So, sorry.

I have recover from my headache, I shall go and try to memorise some nilai moral now.

Call me gay but I WANT to read Twilight series...

2008-11-13T19:16:00.003+08:00

Maths was retardedly easy and I can guess the reason. For those rural, unurbanized people to get a credit for Maths. But I personally think that lowering the standard of maths is just hiding the fact that we are weak in it. I'm not sure about westerner's maths though.

Today the great me managed to convince, persuade, enticed, tempt my mom into watching Madagascar 2. Meh~ die farny i tell you. Went to MV straight after school in school uniform. I will miss being a student. Can't get RM7 student fare anymore when go see movie... T.T

Oh, then I went to MPH and (eventhough I resisted and restrained myself to the maximun) read Twilight. Too bad I only spend half an hour there. One thing I can honestly say is: I hate Isabella Swan. Really. Honestly. Despised her. The way she don't even try remembering people's name. The way she don't hold much respect for her father. The way she makes herself invisible so that she can feel lonely and be more depressed. The way she hold so little hope in the future. The way she goes all out to be anti-social. The way she secretly keep glancing at Edward Cullen, deciding whether she hates him or likes him. The way she always feels paranoid beyond reason. The way she remind myself of me. Well, that is just first 50 pages conclusion of her. Yeah she has problems, but so do the rest of the world.

But the style of writing seems quite familiar. Hmm... The description. The way the author uses italic words like him. A good author nevertheless as she sparks the emotions, imagination and depression in me. That is why I want to read. Can't wait till SPM is over.

So plan for tomorrow is Bible Knowledge, Bible Knowledge, Bible Knowledge, Bible Knowledge, Bible Knowledge, Bible Knowledge and more Bible Knowledge.

QUACK!!!!

3 down 8 more to go!

2008-11-12T22:39:00.003+08:00

In the past three days, I've been awake for about 65 hours. Even the remaining 7 hours of "sleep" torments my brain with images of sejarah facts. Maybe I should be thankful. But unfortunately, the sejarah paper was filled with common sense questions (eg: Apakah pencapain Malaysia yang boleh menjadi kebanggaan generasi muda hari ini?). I said unfortunately because my brain was too lethargic to think about lies and vague facts of the "Achievements of Malaysia". I mean I knew 80% of my sejarah facts super accurately and can answer the factual questions but I just can't think about the common sense stuff. Yes I think I screwed it up pretty much.

Well, I guess I reaped what I show. I knew the risk of relying all my hope of acing Sejarah on the paper and my so called "Smart studying". Its like trying to slay a dragon with a branch rumored to be the dragon's weakness. Obviously we don't know the credibility of this rumour. Well, it was not completely futile, 2 out of the 4 questions were predicted correctly for Bahagian A and 2 and 3/4 of question of the esei part came out too. So maybe there is still hope of slaying my dragon, or at least escaping from it.

(BONUS: for those in form 4 this year! THE THREE KERAJAAN ISLAM QUESTIONS DIDN'T COME OUT! So next year SPM, 99.9999999999999999% will come out!)

I think the marker of my English essay will minus mark for choosing Bad for the question of Examination- Good or Bad? Maybe I'm just being paranoid. But there is a possibility because I rebuked the education system pretty bad.

Now I'm off to recover my previous state of mind and filtering out all my sejarah facts through sleep before doing some major cramming of Bible Knowledge and MORAL!!!!! RAWR!!!!!

God's will be done.

First day of SPM

2008-11-11T17:32:00.004+08:00

Woke up feeling grouchy as I only had 3 hours of "sleep" the night before. My brain was too used to going fast untill it doesn't know when to stop and rest. Everything was out of order. Especially my brain which was in a state of chaos (I'll explain later...). Bathe in cold water, forget to bring my water bottle, forget to wear my belt and need to pay RM 10 for a new one that barely fits me. Not really the way you want to start of your exam.

But then, I kept on ~~walking~~ staggering forward to my class to put my bag and to memorise a few peribahasa to use for my Karangan as BM was my first paper.

Entering the exam hall made my brain hit overdrive. It's like my brain is going beyond the speed of human realms and my body is too tired to catch what it's trying to say. MASSIVE DISASTER. I did manage to catch a few random things chucked out from my brain. But they're mostly useless and unhelpful when the exam was about to start in 5 mins. Like, "WOW! I'm finally here!" or " Dang! I forgot my water bottle!" or even "It's the last leg of the race!" and of course "SHIT! I forgot the peribahasa I just memorised!"

I was a nervous wreck despite all the good luck wishes from my friends. I sat down, took out my exam slip and IC (Thank GOD I didn't forget those). And try to calm my brain down. But failed miserably. I look to my left and saw Rebbecca, she smiled and gestured for me to pray hard. (You know those random things people do before exam like gesturing people to tembak well or something). But pray I did, I went like,

"Dear God, I commit this paper into your hands.

But I know I should have committed it more and I'm sorry.

But for now, I'll do my best so please help me to calm down. Amen."

If you're expecting a miraculous response from God to me like suddenly my eyes were open and answers flow from the tip of my pen, no. Your expectation is too high.

I guess my actions have consequences and consequences are God's way of disciplining people. That was I believe.

So the paper started and I flipped over the front page and the first thing that came to my mind apart from the gazillion other stuff is : " WHOA! Its in coloured ink!" Then I was like inspecting the picture for 15 minutes coming out with nothing except found out that the pipe were covered in green grass and there was a tire in the river. The tajuk was :" Punca-punca Pencemaran Sungai. " Just FYI.

Eventually I calmed down or actually woke up after 15 minutes (YAY! Redemption from God!) and completed my paper in good time.

Then when it was break, had some food and was "studying" for my Sejarah paper 1. I put the inverted commas cuz my "fans" kept coming over to wish me good luck. Yes, it seems I have "fans". Nerve wrecking a bit actually.

Well, I got through Sejarah too! I actually knew half of the answers! Yipee! Jason Lim says I'm a type of person who gets 5 A's for SPM and will start praising God like nobody's business unlike Cassandra. Maybe he's right.

Then we had an hour and a half lunch break. And we so called "study" again by spending our time playing UNO (I won twice!), looking at girls playing captain ball and discussing who should Jun Yu take to prom. "P or T?" were his exacts repetitive words.

Well, I managed to get through the rest of the day and it's all due to the grace of God.

And THATS my first day of SPM.

PS: My mom install a new water shower head thingy was is awesome. It has this mode where the water spray out in the from of water vapour. It felt like wind!

PSS: Oh and thanks Jing Tao for doing the address book thing, when I first receive it, I thought it was for Add maths!

Me? Unprepared? Massive understatement.

2008-11-07T08:30:00.007+08:00

SPM is in 4 days time! Time seems to quicken its pace. The sheer amount of facts from my syllables petrifies me. Chemistry, Biology, Physics, Moral, Sejarah, Bible Knowledge. These are the core subjects which is the source of the never ending pain in the ****. Sure its not that hard, but for people like me who hardly pays attention in class?

DOOM!

(oh and I have memories not even 1 nilai moral, that's how deep of the pit I'm in.)

That is what happen when your a master at procrastination. Grrr. Now all I have to rely on is memory and to study smartly. Study smartly as in study those things that haven't come out yet and neglect the rest that came out recently. Yeah. Its a extremely risky manoeuver, but what choice do I have when time is of the essence?

Time is not a luxury to me anymore. Aaaand yet, I'm on the computer. :D Wonderful, ain't I?

Oh, and I think smart people can be quite stupid too.
Allow me to demonstrate by telling you this joke:

****

A genius of a lawyer walks into a crowded room.

He then said to the people present, "I challenge anyone who thinks they are smart to a quiz showdown. When I ask a question and if you can't answer, you'll have to pay me 1 dollar. If I can't answer your question when it your turn, I'll pay you 50 dollars."

The room went silent. Suddenly an old man stood up and replied, " OK, I'll take you on."

The lawyer momentary stunned said, " Fine, I'll ask first. What is the exact distance from the earth to the Sun?"

The old man thought for awhile and said, "I don't know. You win. Here's 1 dollar. Now's my turn, what goes up with 3 legs and comes back with 1?"

The lawyer then retreated to the deepest sanctuary of his mind, investigating the question from every angle, calculated the exact number of words, dissecting the question word by word, thought of all the riddles he knew, thinking of any connections between legs and 1.

Finally, in great frustration, the lawyer admits, " I don't know. You win." and he handed over 50 dollars to the old man.

The old man pocketed the money and sat down. The lawyer then ask, " Hey, whats the answer to your question?"

Without a word, the old man stood up and handed the lawyer 1 dollar.

****

(Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against lawyers. =D)

και έχουν μια ωραία μέρα !!! (Greek)

PS: I would appreciate any advise and tips to study.

I resolve....

2008-11-04T10:08:00.009+08:00

Been quite a while right since my last real post, right? Well, maybe its because there is probably nothing going through my mind as I try to sit down and study for my SPM in less than 7 days from now. So apologies to everyone for my lack of topics.

But somehow my mind tends to wander about my past. How rebellious I was when I was in my lower secondary school life. How ignorant I was for the past 17 years. How complete of a idiot I was and am. Really. When compare to God, I am but an irrelevent bacteria in the whole Universe. Really how insignificant I am.

Then I felt ashamed. Ashamed that I often glorify myself. Ashamed that I often claimed that I am something great and that the world revolves around me. Ashamed that I put my wants in front of the needs of others. Ashamed that I am really a despectible creature ever to walk this earth.

Often we tend to compare ourselves with others to make us feel better. To make us feel superior. Like I am not so bad as that guy over there who is dumber, poorer, who steal and murder. But in actual fact, I now believe that comparing with others is just running away from my own fault. Yeah, nobody is perfect and all that but we as human were created in the image of God. Like a reflection of a vast mountain on the surface of a lake. I can never be exactly like God but I should try to be more like Him which is perfect.

So now, even though New Year is not here untill in the next 2 months, I resolve to be more observant. Well, I can't be perfect overnight, so I'm just going to do that one tiny step at a time. It's not much being observant, but it is a start.

Why observant?

Cheow Lay once said I was sharp because I "noticed" things. But now I realise I "noticed" mostly the wrong things. Like people's mistakes. Money. People's secrets. Gossips.

I don't really care about other people's pain and suffering. I don't go out of my way to make people feel better other than the usual, "Are you OK?". No, actually I don't notice or don't bother to. I don't notice if people is not feeling well or coming down with something. I don't notice if someone is facing some trouble or feeling upset about something. I don't notice when someone is not there anymore. I don't notice if someone did something nice, or spent time doing good. Really, I just don't notice things.

So, I resolve to be observant.

Matt Huang might say I am yapping away like some emo kid. Maybe I am. But I do know what I say is honest. So I guess that's OK.

Anyway, to all the form 5 who will be facing the same disaster as I am next week,

GOOD LUCK!!!

Meow

2008-10-31T17:02:00.002+08:00

To the person who say that I can't focus.

Starting time: 1703
Name: Jon Wee
Sisters: Eh... 1 half sister. Dunno how to spell her name. I think its Cheow Ann.
Brothers: Eh... 2 half brothers and a real brother. Cheow Beng, Cheow Lay and Ezra.
Shoe Size: 11?
Height: 170+cm
Where do you live: The borderline of PJ-KL... but address says PJ.
Favourite drinks: Alcoholic? Nah... sweet? I guess anything sweet.
Favourite breakfast: Something expensive.

Have you ever been on a plane?: Yeap! I remember spending 10+ hours on the plane to UK playing the tv-game thingy.
Swam in the ocean: Yeah.
Fallen asleep at school: Yeap! The first month of form 4.
Broken someone's heart: Hope not. If I did, Million apologies!
Fell off your chair: Yeah, thats when tsunami happen.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: No one ever calls me. T_T

What is your room like: Messy like kena hit by tornado. I call it brain storm.
What's right beside you: A fan.
What is the last thing you ate: Nasi Lemak with wedges and curry chicken and curry puffs.
Ever had chicken pox: Yeap. Quite awesome. I get to skip kindergarten for 2 weeks.
Sore throat: Well, if you haven't, you're probably a lab rat.
Stitches: Yeah. Apendix is gone. And one underneath my chin.
Broken nose: Not yet. There's still hope.
Do you believe in love at first sight: Nope.
Like picnics?: Occasionally.
Who was, were the last person you danced with: Keith from school. Today. Just for the heck of it.
Last made you smile: Me. I'm a walking joke.
You last yelled at: The stubbed toe.

Today did you:
Kiss anyone: Nope
Get sick: Nope
Miss someone: Heck a lot I guess. Today was the farewell of Form Fives.
Eat: Yes

Best feeling in the world: Dreaming the impossibles.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Not since I was 5.
What's under your bed: Another bed. Voila!
Who do you really hate: Sin but not sinners.
What time is it now?: 1722

5 things I was doing 10 years ago (When I was 7yrs old)
1. Moving into new condo.
2. Wishing I had what the rich kid on the 13th floor had.
3. Being stupid and naive.
4. Pulling girls' hair.
5. Making friends and enemies.

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. Revision, revision, revision. Hopefully.
2. Play DoTA?
3. Slap myself for wasting my time playing DoTA.
4. Ask my mom to slap me some more.
5. Eat dinner, watch tv, sleep and hopefully have some nightmare of the perils of doing badly in SPM.

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. Onion Rings
2. Cookies.
3. Potato Chips.
4. Kaseri (an Indian kuih thingy that I eat with muruku... Awesome)
5. Chinese pao?

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Tithing. Quoting from The Treasure Principle, " I shovel back to God what I get, but He shovel back more to me. But the difference is, God has a bigger shovel." [paraphrased]
2. Put in bank/invest in something. See, if interest is 3% per annum, then I get 30 million a year.
3. Use the money to cure corruption in Malaysia.
4. Help Ben Phua set up his Chicken Rice shop?
5. Well, basically help anyone in need. Ask and you shall be given. So I think if I do get this amount of money, I believe God is asking me to reach out to the needy.

5 of my bad habits:
1. Tears when I yawn.
2. Arrogant.
3. Blowing bubbles with my saliva when I'm bored.
4. Gluttony.
5. Judging people, I think I do, well maybe only inside my head.

5 places I have lived/stayed a night in:
1. Home.
2. Friends' house
3. Relatives' house all over the world.
4. Hotels.
5. SUFES camps, Youth camps, Church camps, School camps, Outward bound school.

5 things I will do after completing what im busy with:
1. Think.
2. Breathe.
3. Eat.
4. Bathe.
5. Pray.

5 People I tagged:
1. Keen King. If he's alive.
2. Kit Meng. When he's not busy with his tons of assignments.
3. Tammy HO. Now I tagged you back.
4. PenYU. But he won't do unless girl ask him to.
5. Anyone who has time to waste.

Sadness of Life...

2008-10-23T20:08:00.005+08:00

Imagine you are single-handedly bringing up two young children. Your partner is a drinker. You need the money to get by. So you decided to sign up with maid service agency. Then you're off to a foreign country far away, to work for people you can't communicate well with. Your hopes and dreams for a better life for your children is weighing heavily on you and that gives you the courage and motivation to be willing work hard.

You came into your new employer's home. Life is hard and trying because of the language barrier, so learning to do things are difficult. But you're willing to work hard: whether it is the chores or learning the language because you need the money. You were taught the skills to take care of your employer's handicap child. You actually care for that handicap child. You slowly but surely formed a bond of love with that child. You start to think you're going to make it. Your hope is shining radiantly.

Suddenly, the bom drops. Your medical test fail. You can't work anymore and you were only there for a week. You are going to be sent back home with your hopes and dreams crushed to the ground. You will need to start anew assuming you can get over yourself.

This is what my new maid, Chan Tou is facing right now. Please pray for her to have the courage to continue living life. I couldn't possibly phantom the suffering she will be enduring when she returns home. All I can do now is pray. Well it is the best solution after all. I'm sure God has a better plan for her.

Speech! Speech! Speech!!!

2008-10-14T13:42:00.002+08:00

Okay Jun Yu, as agreed, you represent the class to speak and I'll write out your speech. I apologize if it sounds hypocritical.

My name is Jay-Tay Jun Yu,

I've bee in this school for 5 years.

But now that I'm leaving all of you,

Kinda makes me want to shed much tears.

There are too many things to miss,
So I'll try to list down a few.
Pardon me for the incomplete list,
For there are just too many of you.

Teachers in this school are truly dear to me,
For they are the unsung heroes in my life.
They are ever ready to impart knowledge to me,
And are always willing for me to strive.

Next are my beloved friends,
Those that share memories and laughter.
I'll never forget you when time ends.
Hopefully we'll meet up sooner if not later.

The value of this school cannot be measured,
For it is weigh in love so deep.
All the time spend here are treasured,
Whether it is bitter or it is sweet.

So as I head in to the uncertain future,
I shall go with a fearless heart.
For Wesley Methodist School had me nurtured,
To be a man who knows where to start.

For those who don't know what this is about, its the speech for the farewell of Form Fives. Every class needs to send one representative to make a speech and our dear Jun Yu was vastly voted.

To YKK and Jin (if you ever come across this blog)

2008-10-11T19:52:00.006+08:00

Dear Keen King and Loong Jin,

The other day you guys were sharing to us about your religious view as a free thinker. You came up with an outstanding excuse of not adopting any religion. The excuse is paraphrase like this :

"I don't want to believe in any religion. If I do, it means I am claiming that other religions are not true. Hence, indirectly insulting other religions. We live in Malaysia which is a multi-racial country, so all I'm doing by not accepting any religion is actually a good thing since I won't stir up any riot or something. "

I am not an expert in my religion, but I'll try to put it plain and simple logically.

At least we came to an understanding that the universe did not appear out of nothing. See if there was nothing before, there will be nothing today. Logically. The universe has a beginning and an end. So there is a God that created it.

Anyway, back to the topic, avoiding conflict with other religions. Well, fundamentally, the way I see it, you guys are trying to please everyone. Then again, it is still not possible to please everyone. There is only one person in the whole universe we must please : God.

Look at it this way, let's say you will die today, who will join you after death? Who will be there after death? Everyone dies alone. In the end, only the person who created you and the world would be there: God. So if you live your life without knowing who that God is, how can you be sure that God will... well... do whatever He will do to you after death. I, personally believe in heaven and hell. If you don't believe that, look at it this way, how sure are you there isn't?

Yeah, you can go on living your life at it is, doing lots of good deeds on the way. But sometimes, good intentions are not enough. You need to do it right.

Lets picture in this scenario, you need to bake a good apple pie. And you're doing it so that you can serve it to your family or friends or whoever you want to please. So the only way to bake that good apple pie is to do it right. You need to have the recipe, the right quantity, the specific instructions to bake it. You can't just say, "I really want to please that person, so I think with much love, I can do it allright." You get the point. To make a good apple pie, you need to do it right and not only with good intention.

So it really comes down to this, plain and simple. Since we (hopefully) came to an understanding there is a God, there is life after death, and good intentions are not enough, it is time to decide who do you really want to please. God or men?

In the end, it is up to you to find that true God if you chose to please God. No matter what religion. I sincerely hope and pray you will consider Christianity.

With much love and prayer,
Cheow Siang

Done this done that...yet still stuck in between...

2008-10-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

I've finished Thief of Light by David Ramus. Quite thrilling reading that book with all the sex and drug contents in it. Jun Yu concluded that I'm reading the book because of the sex parts.... yeaaaaah riiiiight.... He even went further saying that I never experienced those things thats why I'm reading the book. Hmmm... does that mean he had? Ahhhh please confirm these doubts that have been sown onto my mind, Jun Yu. If you ever read my blog.

Aaaanyway, the book isn't only about sex. It's about art! No, really, REAL ART. Or paintings. The book depicts about an art dealer trying to find a solution about his problem with the yakuzas. Apparently, the art dealer's partner a forger of paintings, Paul McHenry was gruesomely butchered by some robbers. Quite gory the details the author used to described it. So why was the art dealer was in trouble? That's because he promised the yakuzas a forgery of the Monet which only Paul can do the job.

Interesting plot I must say. Hehe...

The plot of my life is even more interesting as you can see right now. SPM in less than 34 days and here I am, oblivious to the perils that are to come. Haha, why oblivious? Because I am still reading story books.

Yay... teachers have start giving back the trials papers... and as predicted, I did badly. :D
Stop it, Jon! Why are you still smiling?! Especially when the world around you may cease to exist as we know it?

I shall leave those question unanswered. Why bother answering when all I can do now is move on? What you expect me to do? Weep and mourn? Pffftt... suuuuureee and that works so well with all those students that committed suicide.

I've finally understood the prophecies of the end times in the book of Daniels. Pretty complicating. Those who wish to know about the seventy sevens and abomination of desolation are free to ask me. If you want to, that is.

Now, with that sinful book read, I shall start reading on a Christian Book called An Ordinary Man's Stories by Dr Ong Hwee Keng. No, I'm not reading it for redemption of reading Thief of Light. I'm reading it because I think it is really a great book so far. Even only after I read the 1st Chapter. What really makes this book so interesting is...well... it's honesty.
As Rev Peter Young puts it, "An Ordinary Man's Story is an extraodinary book!"

Имате Приятен ден! (Bulagarian)

She tags me, she tags me not, SHE TAGS ME!!

2008-10-05T00:21:00.003+08:00

1. Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket?
I don't care where actually, so long I have great company. =D

2. What's your favorite thing to do?
Spreading a smile. Its really contagious. Some say its worse than SARS.

3. Do you think money can buy happiness?
I believe true happiness is satisfaction. And when it comes to money, you keep wanting more. So nope, it does not buy happiness but sure helps you live life more comfortably (minus the stress and havoc).

4. If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be?
A life partner? Knowledge and wisdom? Can't hurt to have enough cash, eh? Hmmm... guess I'll just take whatever I can get cos I'm just funny that way.

5. Thing/people that you can't live without?
Food, Oxygen, Trees, Love, Friendship, Toilet, Communication, My 5 senses, but most importantly, GOD.

6. What are you afraid to lose?
My faith in Jesus Christ. Oh yeah, not to forget people who care for me, even those who don't.

7. If you won 1 million dollars, what would you do?
Invest in property (1 million can only allow you to live comfortably for no more than 20 years) . Then use the money for a greater cause like start a shelter for homeless people, make all the inhabitants on this earth be aware that LIFE DOES NOT SUCKS! ITS THE WAY YOU LIVE THAT SUCKS!
Hmmm... getting a wee bit too ambitious.

8. What do you dream of doing in the future?
Be a charted accountant. Then pursue the path of acting.

9. List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey.
Short. (You get to run faster, and reaction is faster. Because your spinal cord is shorter hence information transfer via neurones take shorter time to travel to your brain.)
Spunk-a-y. (Not afraid to hurt yourself for the sake of fun.)
Smile. ( Lights up the world around you. Everyone can use a smile every so often.)
Thats Tammy for ya!

10. What makes you happy?
Serving God which means serving people. (most of the time) So long if I can put a smile on their face, it is not a bad cause afterall.

11. What type of person do you hate the most?
Hate, as bue says, is a word too strong. If you meant dislike, well, I guess people who have no regard of other people's feelings. But that can change. Optimistic, ain't I?

12. If you have a superpower, what would it be?
Fly!!!! Looks so cool. Hehe. Or maybe turn rubbish into gold. Then I can create my own flying suit like Iron Man. Plus, I get to save the environment.

13. Would you go for happiness or money?
I say both if I can. But I guess happiness rules out money la if the money I get is for self gain. But if the money is put to good use, then I think I wouldn't mind sacrificing my happiness for it.

14. Who do you think are the most important people in your life?
God. Family. True friends.

15. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, would you die for him/her?
If I truly believe she's the one. Then yeah, why not? I hope I could.

16. Who is the last person who hugged you?
Myself. Yes, I am a sad sad boy.

17. What is the one thing you want to do badly right now?
Get a girlfriend. Maybe just to prove no.15.

18. Who are you close to?
God, I sure hope. But other than Him, no one really. I want to change that someday.

19. Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him/her?
I sure hope so. I mean, they say a man must always make the first move, right?

20. If you could do one thing over again, what would it be?
I find this question kinda retarded. I mean, what done is done. If you can make amends, do so now before its too late. Don't let chances just fly by.

7 things that scares me
Feeling alone in a crowd.
Talking to people. (GARGH, those two fears are really pathetic because they contradict each other.)
Everyone loses their mind and starts doing crazy stuff like raping each other or tearing places apart.
Flirtacious girls.
Losing close friends (if I have any).
Revealing my innermost feelings or thoughts.
My laziness.

7 random facts about me.
When I eat with my fork and spoons, I normally hold them very close to their...er...heads.
I am a bibliomaniac.
I don't release the pressure in my bladder very often.
Its a 50-50 when it comes to doing/saying things without thinking. I normally, in the end, do the things without thinking then come out with a fantastic explanation later on.
I like to sing out songs aloud.
I don't have much self confidence.
I can't decide on my personalities. Guess you can call it split personalities.

7 things I plan to do before I die
Read the bible at least a few times through. Reap as much believers as I could.
Travelling around the world (ain't that everyone's dream nowadays?).
Drink every single alcoholic drink there are in the world.
Love someone of the opposite sex with my heart (I am human after all that succumbs to the attraction of the opposite) .
Save a life.
Doing something good on the global scale.

7 things I can't do
Have period.
Flying without wings.
One night stand.
Backstab with intention of backstabbing.
Blind, dumb, lame, handicap (currently)
Football (Its the only sport that I can't sync well.)
Say no when a person needs help.

7 people to do this questionnaire
Anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do, anyone who has free time to do.

Hypothesis

2008-10-03T20:50:00.009+08:00

I have a theory about relationships, whether friendship or love or enmity (Okay, maybe not enmity). Well, basically the feeling of knowing someone. Like when you feel the closeness between the two parties. Like you don't feel awkward around that person. Or when suddenly the one closes to you feel like the one most alien to you. It really is mind blowing.

They say a true friend is when you can sit together in silence and not feel awkward at all.

But how deep is the relationship before you can consider that person a true friend?

I believe there are several level of relationship in the whole process of getting a true friend.

There is like a few crests and troughs if the whole process of relationship is plotted as a graph.
(Note: trough is the highest point and crest is the lowest point.)

Well, allow me to explain. During the 1st Encounter, we normally view the outer appearance of the person. So we quickly making assumptions and either view the person negatively or positively. So assuming we survive the 1st Encounter and get to know the person better like family background, likes/dislikes, hobbies/interests (yeah basically just get to know the person on the surface), the level of closeness moves up a notch and arrive at the first trough.

Then the relationship normally disintegrate and moves on to the crest or just die off all together. Why? Most common reasons are time, like going on for so long without meeting the person again. Or no common interest. Conversation just die, see? Or maybe even bad impression on the 1st Encounter.

Then if the relationship survive again, the closeness level increases to even a greater magnitude. This is due to when we continue to meet up with the person, and basically share common beliefs and interests. Then slowly, a bond of trust is formed. Then at the top of the 2nd crest, we have already established the fact that you and the person are normal friends. You don't really feel completely awkward or elusive around the person.

Then the level of closeness takes an enormous dip. This is when you discover something totally alien or maybe the person or even you backstabs each other.

What I meant when I say you discover something totally alien is when the relationship really gets personal. REALLY. You start to find out all the things about the person on the personal level. How do I say this? Like you find that the person hates it when you smack their back. Or the type of character that they have that you don't like or vice versa. Or like either of you have an inferiority perspective of each other (Like he/she is greater than you in studies, carreers or popularity). Or like you feel that friend has ditched you to hang out with cooler people.

Backstabbing, you know whats it like, so enought being said.

The possibility of bringing the relationship back is extremely low. The factors that helps bring the relationship back are mainly revolves around you. Will you actually find the guts to forgive them? Or will you have the valor to continuosly love the person unconditionally? This is what a true friend is.

The thing that makes the level of closeness ever escalating is when the relationship becomes mutual. Both share to each other the thoughts and give and take criticism. Both working together for any purpose. Both helping each other in time of need or even when there is no need. That is called being a nuisance but those who are being a nuisance normally cares a lot for you. (Or because they are jealous)

In the end, a relationship that survive all the toils and tribulation is a relationship that is definitely worth fighting for.

I am not a professor but just a 17 year old kid who based this theory on experience. But it is a theory nevertheless. A theory remains a theory in the end unless proven with sufficient evidence. Then it becomes a law.

I hope this doesn't bore you to death and wouldn't blame you if you discontinue reading halfway through. If you read it all the way to the end, then congratulation to you for understanding what goes on in my head a little better.

Dislike does not say it all...

2008-10-02T19:32:00.005+08:00

abhorrent

abominable

anathematic

defamatory

despicable

detestable

execrable

fastuous

flagitious

hateful

heinous

invidious

loathsome

nauseous

objectionable

obnoxious

odious

opprobrious

outrageous

repellent

repugnant

repulsive

vile

These words defines what I feel towards myself... characteristically.

Fate is a joke, and the joke's is in your hand.

2008-09-27T22:26:00.002+08:00

Went to KLpac today for some workshop of some sort. HAHA. At least its not a complete waste of time like now. =D

YF was great today. Haha. Guess Eugene did pull it off pretty well. Worship too was great but got a lot of unfamiliar songs... heh! At least the words are not completely without meaning.

Class was great too. Jason Lim somehow manage to pull it off too with Genesis 22 and 23. Heh. Don't get me wrong, I may not look interested, but I pay a lot of attention. Like Sarah was the only woman recorded in the Bible for her age when she died. Or salvation may be free, but it is not cheap. So let's not make it cheap by sinning again and again.

After class was the eat out thingy to celebrate the effort and success of YEM and Youth Sunday. Big Apple Donuts sure are heavenly. Jealous much?

Then had sort of meeting with Anderson and Sarah about the YF Group on facebook. Haha. Anderson is such a clown. He brought his laptop and wanted to connect to the WiFi at our church to get onto the YF Group website. So he was like searching for the hot spot. The dumbest thing is we set up our "base" in the middle of the car park where the rest of the youths were playing captain ball all around us. Haha. Sarah was like updating her status on facebook saying "Sarah is sitting in the middle of a car park now" or something like that. In the end, the great plan didn't materialise into reality cause facebook was down or something. (More like Anderson's laptop too old?)

So all in all, today was a great day. But then opposite feelings comes in sequence. So yeah. Guess I am emo and all. Sense of foreboding..

Geros dienos! (Lithuanian)

Its finally over, the end of the beginning.

2008-09-25T21:52:00.003+08:00

Yeah~ so the trials came and went, and finally, it is over.

CONGRATS KEEN KING!!! FOR SCORING 87% FOR ADD MATHS!!!

I'll be lucky to get even half of that. Hehe. Don't get me wrong, I am good at the logical stuff. But I need to be push.... a lot to succeed in my studies. And thanks to my set 1 teacher,
Mr Siva, I wasn't. Yeah, so I've heard, I am downright lazy.

Oh well, haha, today, I, Jun Yu and Whye Shon went to cyber cafe after school. Played there for 3 hours! What a good way to waste time. Anyway, the funny thing is, we were all hungry by the time we finish playing. And at that time was buka puasa. So as you've guess, everywhere was pack. From KFC to mamak. That's when us geniuses decided to eat the ever-so-non-halal Bah Kut Teh. Haha.

Holidays started. Tomorrow is study leave so it is consider a holiday. Hehe. This time I am resolve to study... I hope. No, I must.

My mom had a minor accident today. Haih....

Lai jums laba diena! ( Latvian)

Frustration and the collision.

2008-09-23T01:11:00.005+08:00

I sat in the exam hall,

With that blank look on my face.

All I can do is stall,

And just go through the phase.

I really have no idea,

What the question is asking about.

I felt something like fear,

As my brain decided to checked out.

So all I could do is blindly shoot,

And pray that I won't be wrong.

I really wanted to swear *tooot*,

Cause I felt like a big ding dong.

The only thing that relief me,

Was the people sleeping around.

It seems they too have wandered free,

From the questions that holds us aground.

Hence, if I get any high marks,

You know I don't deserve it.

So please save your remarks,

I don't want to hear them, not one bit.

All I can do is hope for SPM

And pray they'll not lose my papers.

For if they did, it will be the end

Of the great Jon the Dazer.

With great power comes great responsibility...

2008-09-21T13:03:00.002+08:00

And with greater responsibility,

the more freedom you lose.

And that's a fact.

I dunno la, my parents keep nagging at me to wear better clothes to go to church. "Sunday Best" so to speak. My mom was like persistantly tried to dissuade me:

Mom: If you were to meet the Sultan, would you go to the palace dressing like that?
Me: No, but thats because that king care for the outward appearance. But my King cares
for whats on the inside.

Obviously knowing she lost, she kept on trying other methods. This time trying a different tact.

Mom: You know in Matthew 22, Jesus told a parable about the wedding feast and the king
who held the wedding feast cast this person out into outer darkness, where there shall
be weeping and gnashing of teeth for not wearing wedding garments. So what do you
think about that?
Me: Obviously, if you truly understand the parable, Jesus was implying on inward
righteousness as wedding garment not physical clothes. Think about this, the wedding
feast is The Kingdom of God, and the people are invited are anyone. So do you really
think is it justified for someone to be kick out of The Kingdom of God if all he did was
not wearing his "Sunday Best" ?

1 Samuel 16:7b

Man looks at the outward appearance,

but the Lord looks at the heart.

So yeah there you go, well then of course as parents normally do when they are being outsmarted by their child, they go and blame me for all the other wrong things like not studying for exams. Hehe. Thank God for today's sermon. Failure is the backdoor of success.

Yeah, I know, I know. Sooner or later I would get greater responsibility and hence I need to set the example by wearing my "Sunday Best". Heh! But I really think that what is in your heart that counts. What do you feel for God. Is it genuine? Is it humble? Is it not to please others by wearing expensive clothes, branded shoes, posh handbags?

So how then do we actually see in a person that he is a true follower of Christ? By his conduct. His attitude. His good works. Mengamalkan nilai amanah. So to speak. That's what really counts.

Like the Pharisees, teachers of the Law... What are they? Hypocrites. Look how they plot and scheme to kill Jesus just to save their face.

Oh, and on the way back from church today, my mom tried to continue ~~persecuting~~ interrogating me and started talking about being a person with responsibilities and its benefits. Telling me about the things you must do in order not to stumble younger believers and stuff like that. I told her that I have no responsibilties currently, I'm not a commitee member of YF, I'm not the regular role model, I'm no mentor, so why should I concern myself with my attire and other stuff. Well, I know a time will come when I have to do these things but the fact is, the time has not come. So I say enjoy the moment when you're still free and unburdened by the ever-so-oppressing thing called responsibility.

Hehe, don't get me wrong. I don't hate my mom for telling me all these stuff. In fact, I enjoy them cause it is an opportunity for me to prove to them that I can think for myself. May sound a bit selfish but hey, that's what I feel. See, arguments are good. After arguing, it sort of gives you a firm grasp of the obvious.

So yeah, argue to the max! It helps increase your brain activity but unfortunately can either break or stregthen relationship. It's a double edge sword so to speak.

Die dulci fruere! (Latin)

Dealing with emotions and other stuff.

2008-09-20T00:46:00.010+08:00

Emotions sometimes short-circuit the cool, logical reasoning of the neocortex. Massive emotional overload.

In the past, emotions have been measured in humans by their physical expression, such as blushing, smiling or accelerating heart rate.

Emotions are generated by the limbic system: a collection of structures such as the hippocampus and the amygdala, which lie beneath the cerebral cortex. Emotions are associated with different types of neural impulses. So the only way its to measure nerve impulses of someone experiencing a normal set of daily emotions is by accessing it directly to the brain. But then again, how can you register happiness in someone whose cranium has been opened up?

So it is impossible to be scientifically certain we have emotions. Or the other advance and evolved emotions.

Opposite emotions often come in sequence.

Guilt, the uncomfortable, unsettling feeling you get when you're considering betraying someone's trust. Why has guilt evolved? From constant worrying.

Love, a most manipulative device.

Stress weakens the immune system; high frequency anger put major strain on the heart. In fact, an angry temperament is a better predictor of premature death than all the fashionable culprits like smoking or cholesterol.

***

Games are models of rational interaction. They're full of suprises and paradoxes, certainly: bound to be with the circular reasoning they require. But the truth is not all games are meant for fun.

***

A lie could enhance status even more than a truth, so long as it was sufficiently imaginative. This is extremely true.

***

The trouble with acting is that you're so busy lying and faking and generally fooling everyone-including yourself- that when suddenly the a truth appears in that great mountain of deceit, it's pretty much impossible to see it.

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3 Golden Rules. state 15 weird things/ habits/ little known facts about yourself. The 10 people I tag are to then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts.. No tag backs.

1 I am shy and you'll think its a lie
2. As you can see from No.1, I started liking poetry.
3. I have autophobia, cyclophobia, athazagoraphobia, apeirophobia aaaand phobophobia.(Go figure)
4. Lazy. (Allow me go into details, I don't study for exams untill the night before.)
5. Enjoy doing nothing and observing the day passing by... Sounds like No. 4...
6. Loves acting.
7. Practically good at sports because of gifted hand-eye coordination.
8. The face that makes people laugh. So as my classmates have told me.
9. Prefer to make quality friends and not quantity.
10. Loves random facts and jokes. Well, basically just randomness.
11. Find joy in the joy of others.
12. Virgin lips. Yeap. My first is still with me.
13. Assimilate well in many cliques. (Nerd, Cool, Wacky, Serious *not so much*, Old, Young,
Cam-Whorers.) The only one type of clique I can't go with flow is Chinapeklalas.
14. A sentimental person at heart.
15. Hmmm... To discribe me guess would take more than 15 points. So ask me yourself la. ^^

Me tag :
Kit Meng
Keen King
Larissa
Well, actually I don't really wanna bother anyone. So this goes out to those who wants share bits and pieces of their life to us.

Sheyihiye lach yom na'im!! (For women)
Sheyihiye lecha yom na'im!! (For men) (Hebrew) See? Jews are so sexist.

Poetry & Trials....

2008-09-18T20:53:00.003+08:00

Trials are here and one thing I can conclude so far as I am half way through it :

Those people marking for my SPM papers better not lose them!!!

Seriously, if they lose those papers they will take my Trial marks as real SPM ones. Screw it. And my school standards are so high. "Head and shoulder above the rest." As the beloved Principal of Wesley Methodist School puts it. Pfft! Yeah, yeah. Sure you say they will mark more leniently during trials. So not true. This is what they plan to do as the teachers have told me. They will sadistically, masochistically, inhumanely mark the Trials paper as they would in normal school exams and just raise a grade like from B4 to B3 later on. 1 grade?! Come on! Probably worth 5 grades if you ask me. Passing mark for Additional Maths in SPM is probably 7%.

Heh! Then again, I suppose its no one's fault but mine. And what I'm doing about it? I'm blogging. YIPEE! HOORAY! GENIUS! STUPENDOUS! ONE OF A KIND!

Guess all I can do now its pray that when the real SPM comes, nothing bad would happen to my papers.

But seriously, I think Trials quite hard lor. Especially for people like me who never touch his book untill the night before. I was like stoning in the exam hall looking at others who are the same as me. Hah~ Well, they sort of resort to sleeping for the first hour then simply tembak in the next. Me? Busy writing poetry and drawing my doom. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

Haha~ and who said poetry was dead?

I'm on the Highway to Hell

On the Highway to Hell

Highway to Hell

I'm on the Highway to Hell

-AC/DC-

In need of much prayer.

Buona giornata!!! (Italian)

The Reason To...Blog?

2008-09-12T20:27:00.003+08:00

You might be wondering why I am blogging, especially when SPM is only 60 days away? Heh! At first I thought I would try it out for myself since other people are doing so. Then I realise that hey! This is not about getting influence from others but about me and my views and thoughts. Well, here's the list:

I blog because :

to see what clearly goes on in my mind with my own eyes.
to put down anything random on my mind.(I assure you, there is a lot of 'em)
to share my views of the world.
to put down what I experience daily.
to share the lessons I've learnt.
to give advice. (Whether you take it or leave it, it's up to you)
to remember things I've experience before but have forgotten. (or will be forgotten)
to vent my feelings on something and not on someone.
to maybe share a bit of my faith to you.
to make you, my dear readers, to stop and think.

I'm not asking for anything from you. I don't want praise or respect or having people calling me preacher. I don't care. Cause the most important thing of this blog is to make an impact not an image. This is not the perfect person you are looking for when you read. This is the person who believes in the perfect God.

So if you're unhappy or unsatisfy with anything I post, too bad. Live with it.

On the lighter note, allow me tell you a random joke. Well, not so random after all and you've probably heard of it. Aaaanyway:

A kindergarten teacher was teaching a bunch of 6 year olds about fishes. She said that it is impossible for a fish to swallow a human being.

One girl raise her hand and said, "That's not true. Jonah was swallowed by a big fish sent from God for 3 days."

The teacher then sneered and said, "If that was true, then how is it possible for Jonah to survive in the fish for 3 days?"

The little girl thought for a while and replied, "I don't know, when I go to heaven, I'll ask him about that."

The teacher then sarcastically asked, "What if he is not in heaven?"

Little girl then gave the teacher an inoccent smile and said, " Then YOU ask him."

Schönen Tag noch! (German)

Things a Christian must know!!!

2008-09-11T00:18:00.006+08:00

You know I've been thinking as usual. And I think there are a lot of believers who have forgotten the total concept of becoming and staying a believer. They give stupid reasons not to go to church, not to sing aloud when worshipping our God, not to bow our heads and close our eyes and pray, not attending corporate prayer meetings held every month. It really saddens my soul every time I see these things happens.

I mean, let me put this straight. I still remember what Anderson thought me last time. About these "rituals" as you call it. Going to church, singing, doing Bible studies and blah blah blah. We (supposedly you are a Christian) do these things because we LOVE God. Not because our parents does it, our friends does it. Because, really, it comes from the heart. Remember, God does not have grandchildren.

He first LOVE you. He made the first move when you have turn away. He gave you salvation from eternal suffering. He took YOUR place on that cross. Don't YOU think He deserve to be loved back? Don't YOU think he is worthy to be placed top priority? Don't YOU think you should at least carry out these "rituals" to show your love for Him?

Remember, we're doing these "rituals" because we LOVE God. We LOVE Him, that's why we're doing it.

Imagine if the Yang di-Pertuan Agong invited you to the Palace for a cup of tea. Heh! You'll probably be bending head over heels just to greet him.

Imagine when you sin again. How do you think Jesus will feel if you were in His shoes? Like you gave your life for someone. And that someone just spit at you in the face afterwards. It's like nailing Jesus to the cross all over again.

See? We are all really despickable creatures. But I am making that change. How bout you? Will you attend church services and not sleep during the sermons? Will you sing wholeheartedly when it comes to worshipping our Lord? Will you help out in any work that requires physical strength and not care about whether others will do the same? Will you be humble when someone points out your mistakes? Will you attend corporate prayer meetings monthly?

The reason why I am pointing these things out is because when I attended corporate prayer meeting last Sunday, there were only around 50 people present? I mean, what happen? Yeah Sunday School. So what? Not all of us are involve with Sunday School. Especially the young people. Even the children attends corporate prayer meetings. I pray with every fibre in my body that your eyes would be open one day.

Corporate prayer IS IMPORTANT.
Click here if you need to know why. http://www.gotquestions.org/corporate-prayer.html
The late Mr. Boler himself emphasize on these meetings. I am indeed shameful that I didn't attend these meetings before the corporate prayer meetings were change to Sundays.

So yeah. Oh and for those free thinkers out there who think this post is worth crap, here's a little something for you.

I would rather live my life as if there is a

God and die to find out there isn't, than live

my life as if there isn't and die to find out

there is.

-Albert Camus-

आपका दिन अच्छा बीते! (Hindi)

Whirlwinds of thoughts... Carefull now, won't want you to be blown away....

2008-09-05T09:39:00.006+08:00

"Will you tell me how he died?"

"No Your Honour, I will tell you how he'd lived."

I guess it does not matter how long we live, but how much life we live in our lifetime. It also depends what we live for. Most people say for ourselves laaa! But I totally agree with Albert Einstein when he says, "Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile."

***

Change. People are afraid of it. They fear it. They loathe it. Most of them put it this way, "You ruin my life!!!!!" They are afraid because what they came to believe and accustomed to is going to change. They gotten so use to the fact that something will be always there for them. Like laws, relationships, environment, house, beliefs and loved ones. These things always seem like one certainty. The constant variable. The comfort zone.

Guess the only comfort we can get is : "If there's no changes, There'll be no butterflies." (You get the point...)

***

Stars. Makes you wonder whether is there more to life, doesn't it? Then when you wonder about that, you'll find that you won't be afraid of death. But afraid of time left before you die. Because after death, there'll be no pain. Nothing to worry about. End of suffering. What you build here you leave it here. Whereas time left, you never know when you're about to leave this world. You wanna do the Things-To-Do-Before-You-Die list. People you have not forgiven. People you have not help. People you have not told them how much you love them.

***

Beauty. Some people show it to the world so to have the world praise them.
But some hide their beauty because they want the world to see something else.

***

I guess no matter how stubborn, tenaciously unwilling, obstinate a person is, they will change when they meet someone who has a genuine, pure, innocent, loving and forever caring attitude. Watch all those sentimental movies and it is proven. In real life too.

***

I just finish reading Taming the Tiger....again and I think I should put down those intresting stories that Tony told the prisonners just to make his point clear. (Since most of you are too lazy to read)

This is the part where Tony is trying to put it clear how great the love of God is when he sent his son into the world to die for us and cancel the debt of sin for us.

"There were two boys who grew up together as best friends. As the years went by they went their separate ways. One had a good career and became a judge. The other fell on hard times, got mixed up with the wrong company and became a thief. One day the judge realised the man standing in the dock in front of him was none other than his old childhood friend who he had loved dearly. He had an awful dilemma. As a judge, he was bound to uphold the law. He knew that he had to serve the thief with a large fine. He also knew that his friend could not pay. If he didn't pay, he would be condemned to prison."

"Well, the judge passed sentence, as he was bound to. But then he stood down and took off his judge's wig and his gound. To the utter amazement of everyone else in the courtrooom he joined his old friend in the dock, took out his chequebook and paid the fine on behalf of the man he loved. His friend was free to go. No fine, no prison sentence, no debt at all."

Now, the judge represents God. So when he step down and took off his wig to pay the debt, he was Jesus. This is because as a judge, He was not only bound to the law, He was the law. And at that time, when Jesus came to pay off the debt is not with money but with his life. For you and for me.

Another interesting story that Tony told was when a Convict ask him how can bad things happen if there was a God.

"There was once a shipwreck, with just one survivor. He made it to a desert island, but when he got there he realised what a desperate situation he was in. He prayed feverishly to God, but nothing happened."

"So all he could do was build a hut to protect himself from the elements. One day he returned to the hut after scavenging for food, only to find that the hut was on fire. The midday sun had set it alight and he watched as his last hoe went up in smoke. He was angry. 'How can God allow such a thing?' he cried. That night he lay under a tree, scared and cold. In the morning he was woken up by rescuers. 'How did you find me?' he asked them in amazement. 'We saw your smoke signals,' they said."

So sometimes, God's love can feel like hatred. We don't always understand why he allows certain things to happen in our lives. So yeah, eventually, it is for the greater good. But what happen to most people is that they forgotten who help them out in the end.

***

Finish what you started. Why you might asked. Because you can. Being happy does not make your life perfect. Going through it is really all we can ask for.

***

I really think that sometimes, blind faith is what we really need. It takes much greater strength and commitment to believe in Jesus when we have not experienced him first hand. Like what Jesus said to Thomas and the rest of the disciples, "Blessed are those who did not see, and yet believed."

So kudos to you who have taken the step of commitment!

***

"It is better for man to lose hope in humanity than to lose hope in happy endings."

Hafðu það gott!! (Icelandic)
Now I that I have finish spewing out these thoughts, I shall now go and curl myself up in a ball and wait for the hour to end. Then maybe when the madness is over, I can hit overdrive into study mode.

Happy Birthday Malaysia, May You Not Get Anymore Racist Than You Have To Be!

2008-08-31T01:34:00.004+08:00

Today, well, I meant yesterday YF was a blast! Although the worship was a bit... awkward? Heh, it's allright Matthew, you're still the man!

Haha, the ice breaker game was a bit...monopolized? By right, PJGH should have won because there were more Subang people hence there will be more choices to target. So technically, you had more than 70% chances of winning. But noooooooo, you wanna be anti-social. Pfft! HAHA
Where was I then, you might asked? Well, I would gladly played that game if there were more question papers available. Heh, at least that means that we had a good turn out. No thanks to us though.

Then there was talent time! Heh! Basically we had to put up a skit in 10 minutes with special "bonuses" thrown in. Like only can converse in BM, speak out every line in a Chinese Opera way and blah blah blah. All good fun. Ben Phua solo too much.... bleh~
Shame on the group 6 which had like at least 5 people who are involved in acting frequently or attended the Drama Workshop.

Too bad I left early for dinner at Uncle Chee Leong's gi-normous house. Fwah~ overload with steamboat and plenty of other stuff. And yes, more political talk here and there and the rich people talk. Their Rottweiler is sooo cute but of course a disgrace to his kind as Aunty Happy puts it. Ooooh! Ooooh! I saw a 30k Ringgit tree! Apparently some rich retired lawyer bought the whole land just to plant that tree....

Oh well, have a nice Merdeka Celebration!

1953

Bulan 5 aku dilahirkan

Di sebuah negeri yang diberi nama

NEGERI SEMBILAN

Selepas itu aku dibesarkan

Di NEGERI KELANTAN

Aku belajar di sekolah orang putih

Dekat dengan Pasir Puteh

Saya Anak Malaysia

Saya Anak Malaysia
Saya Anak Malaysia
Saya Anak Malaysia

Lepas sekolah aku merayau

Negeri mat saleh aku merantau

Tempat orang indah sekali

Tapi MALAYSIA dekat di hati

Saya Anak Malaysia

Saya Anak Malaysia
Saya Anak Malaysia
Saya Anak Malaysia

Sampai masa aku pun balik

Tapi makweku nampak pelik

Dia kata nak jadi apa

Aku kata itu Tuhan punya kuasa

Saya Anak Malaysia
Saya Anak Malaysia
Saya Anak Malaysia
Saya Anak Malaysia
~

Lemah lembut sopan santun

Sudah menjadi darah dagingku

Walaupun aku nampaknya kutu

Aku hormat orang tuaku

Saya Anak Malaysia

Saya Anak Malaysia
Saya Anak Malaysia
Saya Anak Malaysia

Happy 51st Birthday, Malaysia!
Ooooh~ Subang girls were cute! Gosh! What am I doing?! "Thanks" Jun Yu!

Shhhh... If anyone asked, tell them I'm sick....

2008-08-29T15:41:00.001+08:00

Yes, you've probably heard. I've "ponteng" school today. Why you might asked? Because I think it is pointless going to school now that everything that needs to be taught has been taught. So there. Well, I do have a rise in temperature and a bit of cold.

I find it much more productive to study by myself than in a group. Unlesss... nevermind.

Anyway, I'll be off to KL PAC later to watch What It Means To Be....Malaysian?
Sadly, she can't come. Tell you all about it tomorrow.

In the meantime.... SHHHHHH!!!! MUMS the word.

"They say love is blind.
Well, I rather be blind than be
unloved."

имеют хороший день!!! (Russian)
*Oh by the way, I might be slowing down the daily posts cause I think it takes up too much time. If you miss me, then just type a word in the c-box and we can communicate.

Suck On This, Vin Cheong!!!

2008-08-28T17:43:00.015+08:00

Praying for "safe" journey.

The first casualty.

The second...

Nah, his buttocks is too smooth.

Ah~ the thrill!
I hope this serve as enough proof to you, you...you Unbeliever!

For those who don't know, this is the supercool waterfall I went to during PJGH Boys Outing.
We had to track to the waterfall area for around an hour? Well, it was all good fun. The leeches that suck us dry was a bonus. Then we went back to the church and threw the pigskin for over 2 hours.

Anyway, last night farewell dinner was lovely. The nasi lemak was oh-soooo gooood. With the wild boar rendang and chicken curry. Not to mention the juicy satays and the delicious chocolate cake. The food was just the bonus really.

The real deal was all the political talk and "other" stuff. I find it quite rewarding to keep your mouth shut once in a while and absorb information from other people. Mr. Bala is such an interesting person. Haha, I've learn how the muslims read the Al-Quran. The only thought they can have on their mind while reading it is of reverence and awe and nothing else! (otherwise all the blessings won't be given to them or something like that) Seems to be telling us something.... Hmmm... Other than that, there was talk here and there about May 13, 1969.

Today, Madam Premila (my Sejarah Teacher) asked us to write about our country. The aim supposedly is to plant us some feeling of patriotism.

Well, of course I love Malaysia. I love the people. I love the food. ( Did you know you can't find roti canai in India? Because roti canai originated from Malaysia. The same goes with Bah Kut Teh) I love the all the holidays. I love that we have no war and that we don't face any geographical hazards like tornadoes, earthquakes or snow storm.

So why are so many people migrating out? The main cause of this is because of the corruption of the government. So, we can't blame them for thinking so.

Or we can.

If you think of it this way: If all the intellectual people are migrating off, then who are left behind to bring up this country? The phrase " this country's going to the dogs". Well, so it IS the fault of those people who have resolved to migrate and leave it "to the dogs".

So why are we exporting all the highly skilled people off and importing all the unskilled labour (Bangladeshi) here? Look at Singapore Airlines, one of the world class airlines! Guess who's running it? A Malaysian! Look at Zang Toi? Jimmy Chiew? Yong Pung How (Chief Justice of S'pore though he ended the term already)? Robert Kuok?

Why oh why is it becoming like this?

Haih~ I'm depressing myself now. Ehehe. Maybe Anwar can bring a change. Sadly all the political parties exist just to bring down UMNO initially. After that? Obviously they have plans of their own. Look at the almost-cancellation of Avril Laveign concert.

Oh well, another two cents into the blog.

良い一日に!! (Japanese)

Aaa-Ha--Ha---CHOOOOO!!!! (stupid me, didn't bring the umbrella again!)

2008-08-27T19:14:00.005+08:00

I'm singing in the rain

Just singing in the rain

What a glorious feelin'

I'm happy again

I'm laughing at clouds

So dark up above

The sun's in my heart

And I'm ready for love

Let the stormy clouds chase

Everyone from the place

Come on with the rain

I've a smile on my face

I walk down the lane

With a happy refrain

Just singin',

Singin' in the rain

Yeah, I would've have been singing that aloud on the walk to the KTM from my school (IN THE RAIN) if I hadn't possessed a filled-to-the-brim-bladder. Anyway, I did sing cause somehow it helps keep the "contents" from overspilling. Well, the thing about my bladder is it is very... discreet? Prudense? Unobtrusive? Inconspicious to the extend of not letting me know untill in dire need. And I couldn't release this "stress" untill I reached home!

BLEH~ Why am I talking about bladders? "Thanks" Bue!

Aaaaanyway...

Hello and you're reading the whaaat? 13th post! In 12 days since the creation of this(magnificent, noble, exalted, superlative, eminent, outstanding of its kind) blog....

I seriously need to get a life cause there is about 90 days to SPM and less than 2 weeks to Trials.
Haha Don't resent me if I reminded you (form fives) of the perils you'll be facing.

Oh yeah, back to the main topic, rain! (It's still raining now FYI)

Did you know that rain drops are not exactly tear-drop shaped as we were brought up to believe. In fact, it is more spherical. The shape of raindrops was studied by Philipp Lenard in 1898. He found that small raindrops (less than about 2 mm diameter) are approximately spherical. As they get larger (to about 5 mm diameter) they become more doughnut shaped. Beyond about 5 mm they become unstable and fragment.

When I was young, I used to enjoy looking out when it rains. Can't help it. I thought of so many reasons why the rain fall. Like if the sky was falling? Or if God was crying? Or even wader if I had super powers that can control the rain. Wait. *concentrateconcentrateconcentrate*
Nope, the rain ain't stopping now either....

Oh come on, don't tell me you're that lame when you were young. Like as if you don't have any imagination.

Ooooh! Ooooh! I wanna watch ZOHANN!!! Yeah, I know it's stupid and a bit...horny? But still it is stupid enough to make you laugh your brain off!

Ah~ my muscles aches... Guess the endorphins wore off....

Ooooh, Anwar won

Oookay, I'm being random again.

Keen King told me a quote today which I partially agreed,

Humans are like water.
Easily changeable but hard to go back to its original state.
(The rest of what he said was bull-shiat so I shall not jot that down here.)

Puedi ha todo maolek!!! (Chamorro)
*I'm going off to church later for the farewell of Douglas Boler and family and David Liew and family (you know, the wife that can sing very well in church)
Apparently, they're migrating. Seems to be telling us something, dont'cha think?

Ooooh! Ooooh! pick me? pick me? pick me? pick me?

2008-08-26T18:51:00.021+08:00

Haha.... As you can see I'm still alive. So that's how fine I am.
Yes! I guess my charm of innocence still works! The teacher's (so-called) pet! Heh!

Tips for escaping a good scolding:

Keep smiling! (Of course this only works when you're in friendly terms with the teacher.)

Be honest! (Or at least looked honest)

Act dumb! (This is Keen Kings style. Caution: only works sometime)

Keep your mouth shut if you're getting scolded. Don't retaliate! (That'll be the last thing you

__wanna do)

Look sorry! (Teachers love it when you look defeated)

Don't make excuses unless it's a damn good one! (Or it's the truth..)

And the most IMPORTANT of them all is:

DO YOUR HOMEWORK!!!

(Which I am too stupid and lazy to do. Guess I'm just funny that way. )

What really ticked me off today was I lost my BM paper 2 answer paper! Man! It took me an hour of ~~copying~~ reffering! Well, I did DID do most of it on my own.
Anyways, went to the guy-m again today. Haha. Kinda feels happy? Especially when all your muscles are worked to the bone. You feel the pain! Well, I guess it is true that physical pain will release a huge amount of endorphins (happy hormones). Hope I'll not get addicted to that! Did you know a person can still walk around after breaking his leg. Apparently the muscle spasm will provide enough movement to...erm... move.

The thing about dreams, we all have them. In one lifespan, an average person dreams about 6 years of their life? That's about 2 hours each night. Well, some of you (including me) claims that we hardly get dreams. In actual fact, we just can't remember dreaming. It all depends on rapid eye movement (REM) sleep. Basically a REM sleep means that your brain activity is most like wakefulness type. Then the rest is up to your imagination (Don't worry, I'm sure you have it. Somewhere really deep deep deep down in your brain no matter how miniscule it is)

What a beautiful smile
Can I stay for awhile?
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful love

Hav ein góðan dag!!! (Faroese)

Madness Is Like Gravity. All It Takes Is A Little Push!

2008-08-25T05:23:00.003+08:00

Yeah school starts in like whaaaaat??? 2 hours? Haha and here I am blogging. Yay! I finish my chem homework. Still have BM and Bio aaaaand English? Heh! Laughing at the face of death.

You can't avoid it might as well embrace it? Just like saying if all the non-christians are all predestined to go to heaven or hell, whats the point of reaching out to them?

I beg to differ. (Haha this is the nerdy way of saying "what you've just said was BUUUUULLL SHIIIIIIAAAAAT!!!") This is sort of the wrong mentality that most people face. We are all predestined for either greatness or failure, just kick back and relax and let destiny takes us for a ride?

Pfft! Well, something is just wrong here somehow. Come on, ever occur to you that you could be predestined for greatness only if you predestinely work hard for it? Or like you were predestined to reach out for that predestined someone in need?

I guess God works in mysterious ways. Who are we to tell God what to do?

Isaiah 55:9

"As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Yeah, you can ask and sort of negotiate with God. Like Abraham and Hannah. But it comes down to this: He knows what's best for you. So why not trust in Him?

I think I'll probably drop dead at the school gates. Ooooo and here's my tie, my bag, a shoe and a pencil. Now I'm ready!

Hmm.... as you've probably guess. I have not slept since Saturday. Hehe.
Those thoughts just keeps rolling in like thunder clouds on high wind. Eh? What is high wind? Ugh...my cerebral cortex seems to be spinning. Bah!

Odontophobia is the fear of teeth.
According to suicide statistics, Monday is the favored day for self-destruction.
Women are 37% more likely to go to a psychiatrist than men are.
The human heart creates enough pressure to squirt blood 30 feet (9 m).
Lightning never strikes the same place twice? The Empire State Building is struck about 25 times a year. Actually lightning strikes the earth about 2000 times per second! Do the math!

I feel like singing.

I feel like talking to that special someone.

I feel like my eyes are ready to pop out.

I feel so random.

I feel like banging my head on the table now. Brrrrrrr......R...RRR...RRRROOOOOARRR!!!!
Yes, I better stop typing now as my shell of sanity is cracking.

Bonne journée !!! (French)

This is madness!!!! THIS IS JON WEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

2008-08-24T19:49:00.005+08:00

Someone once asked me,

"HAVE YOU LOST YOUR MIND?!!?!!"

I replied,

"If I had, how would I know?"

So yeah, I guess I am really that unique. Haha Syok sendiri.
Oh and thanks Geber Lim, your lined papers saved my life.

I guess I've been through a lot. But personally, I don't think it's enough. I mean, I probably prefer if I was borned in a low class family. Then I would truly know the meaning of hardship and the strive to survive. But God, I supposed had a better plan for me. He after all knew me before I was borned. Calculated all the right genes to be placed into me. Timed exactly when my mom should get married and be pregnant with me.

So yeah, guess I should be grateful that I am part of the Wee family. (Though personally, I don't really like my relatives that much, especially the ones that never learns. *Ahem*ahem)

Oh yeah! Today, PJGH has five new deacons and 1 new elder! (well, four if you exclude Uncle Lye Hock because last time he resigned as a deacon)

They are:

Mr Chew Phye Keat (Elder)

Mr Ho Chee Wah (Deacon)

Mr Steven Ho (Deacon)

Mr Gregory Lim (Deacon)

Mr Benny Kong (Deacon)

Mr Saw Lye Hock (Deacon)

Congratulation for making the decision to serve God with full commitment to the church!

Well personally, I think being a leader is a heavy responsibility and will be severely be tested by the Devil as he especially hates those who have greater responsibility in the church. The Devil will, and yes he really will throw out all his big guns to bring these people down to the ground. The only resolution towards these attacks is to just stay close and be obedient to God.

Many people has fallen because of this. King Soloman? Samson? Judas? Saul?
The only person who undergo great suffering and never did fall was Job.

Furthermore, all these church leaders will be judged much much more strictly by God. But I guess these people do know by now all these things before accepting the position. (If not, I hope I don't scare them away)

Lastly, I think the greatest quality of a leader is to serve. Yeah teaching and preaching the Word is not bad, but here I am talking about serving physically. Like going on mission trips, planting plants in the church compound, helping out in cleaning up?
Look at Jesus as a role model and Peter later on.

So yeah, those are my two cents.

I absolutely love all the lines Joker comes out with. It's like every word can become a quote.

"I believe... whatever doesn't kill you, simply makes you...stranger."

hezký den kluci !! (Czech)

(just less than 11 hours to complete the remaining half of my holiday homework....)

The Perfect Words Never Cross My Mind Cause There Was Nothing In There But You...

2008-08-23T12:48:00.005+08:00

Lots gone through my mind. Guess thats what happens when you face imminent, impending, unavoidable death for not completing your holiday homework.
Life flashes through my eyes? Soon.

CAN'T BELIEVE I DID NOTHING THIS WHOLE WEEK!!! FEEL LIKE WANNA GANTUNG DIRI WITHOUT THE TALI.

AAaaaaaaanyway,

Real cool stuff here if you're bored and wanna waste time. Haha. This what happens when a guy got too much time on his hands.
Hopefully I won't evolve into him.

Oh yeah, I think I never mention this before but I'm also a co-author in another blog.

http://www.labuenathan.blogspot.com/

Check it out when you're free! =D

Hyvää päivänjatkoa!! (Finnish)

Burning the Midnight Oil...again. Thank God for coffee!!!

2008-08-22T19:14:00.007+08:00

Sadly, my plan to obtain all my workbooks for holiday homework today failed, unsuccessfull, useless, futile, unresolved etc. Can't believe it!!!! I wandered around Petaling Street alone to one of the biggest Popular book store and poof!!! Gone, sold out, finished, depleted, emptied out etc. !
Wasted half of my day there. Thank goodness the KTM wasn't delayed for once... That's a nice change.

Haha, well the only book I'm missing is Biology Oxford Fajar. Well its allright, I guess. I mean it won't be the first time I attend Detention Class. (It'll be my second.)

Well, at least I get to wander around Petaling Street in the morning. Get to see how the people set up their stuff and do what they have to do to survive in this dog-eat-dog world. Kinda crazy to see the real uggliness in the back lane of Petaling Street. I mean they were like selling used stuff (probably stolen) and clothes for real cheap and people still are buying...(people here, I meant the poverty stricken ones...)

Heh.... yea.... So what did I do for the rest of the day??? I slept!!!! At around 3 I got up and tried to do a bit of Sejarah objective workbook and only manage to complete 1 modal.

At 4.30pm I then went down to the guy-m (Seth say it is the guy-m because it is "manly" and not gym cuz it sounds "girly" ... Yea another one of his lame jokes. Guess you know where he gets his genes from ;D ). Came back home and here I am.

I still left Chemistry, Physics, English, EST AND Bio... So yeah... Talk about completing 9 days of homework in less than 53 hours....

Might as well start now....or later....

BAH!!! just not in the mood.... I could use a little chatting time now.... *sigh....

Hopefully your day was way better than mine. I said hopefully because you never know how often when we face in a worst case scenario, there is always a worser case scenario. So yeah, some wisdom imparted here from Jon Wee.

Things can ALWAYS get worse..

Appreciate all the blessings you receive.

Cause you never know when they might be snatched away.

(But you being human only appreciate something or someone after they're gone)

Ignorant is bliss

Nog een prettige dag!!! (Dutch)

(as you probably figure it out by now I end every entry with Have a nice day in a foreign language. Just to prove how small the world really is.)

Had A Fun Time Wasting Time

2008-08-21T19:36:00.007+08:00

Hello again, as most of you know I as usual am wasting time. But today, today was the best time I ever wasted ever! Well not really considering that all humans waste time, like waste time breathing, sleeping etc. But that is wasting time productively. I...I on the other hand wasted time unproductively.
Well, today I got up at three a.m and couldn't really sleep and what did I do? I stayed in my bed not doing anything. Not thinking, not blinking, not sleeping, not talking (well, maybe talking but I forgotten what I talk to myself about).

Then at 8 I woke woke up. Something like waking from a waking dream sort of thing? Yeah, then I made pancakes and burnt half of it (You'll probably won't see me eating pancakes in a while).

Then I went to buy gum, went to the Lim's residence, played with their oh so kawaii dog, went out with Bue and Geber to Mid Valley at 9.50 am? We (as in Bue, Me, Geb, PenYU) watched Meet Dave. Seriously, go watch it! It really is good. The plot, the actors, the visual effects. Better than Hellboy II in my opinion (probably not the visual).

Then had lunch at KFC, met up with Kimberly Chew's brother, Calvin? (if it is spelled correctly) Talk about unproductively how I waste time with no tuition and stuff. Went to MPH tried to find my holiday homework books I supposedly should have and done half of it at least. (The worst thing is I couldn't find them!!! Apparently no stock...) Amazingly met Shing Lung there!!!! He work at MPH, so we went to chat with him for a while, hope he didn't get fired.

Bought the 2nd and the last book of the Twilight Saga. Bue and Geb got the first. Yeah...

Watch The Dark Knight for the 3rd time (and I still loved it!!!).

Gotten crammed in the KTM like a tin of sardins... TWICE!

And back!!!! at 7.30pm....

Yeah so that basically was my day. It was fun!!!! But then I can't help acknowledging the constantly closing net of despair as I, The GREAT Jon WEE haven't started on his homework!!!! And revision!!!!

Yes, there you have it folks, the GREATEST PROCRASTINATOR that never learns....

Fortsat god dag!!! (thats Danish for have a nice day!!!)

Note : The good thing is I gotten a free Life Chili sauce from KFC.

Double Note: Jun Yu owes me RM 27.00

Editing time.

2008-08-20T23:09:00.002+08:00

You know Jon's nephew Seth and his quest for cheap speakers when he first came to Malaysia a month ago? When they were at low yat plaza.
Seth:
"I wanna get real cheap speakers, real cheap! I don't care about it's quality, I just want it cheap. I just wanna hear its cheapness! With the plastic wrapping and all."
So we like went in to the first store we see and he ask how much.
RM 15.
Then Seth was like, " WOW! That is cheap!"
Then we were like laughing our ass off in the store. Then he said,
"Don't worry, I'll leave them here when I go back to England. *That was the main reason why I wanted them cheap* "
And thats when he stopped laughing.
*He didn't said this but it was written all over his face. That fiend!*

The conclusion of that "experiment", Seth took the speakers back with him to England.

Hey Jon, maybe he'll ship it back to your place. ;)

Inspired to.... Blog?

2008-08-20T11:32:00.004+08:00

Oh Yipeee! The blog's 6th day old!!!

I'm sorta looking forward to this Thursday, which is tomorrow. Haha I'll let you guys know what'll happen.

Today my sister and my nephews are leaving Malaysia.... WOOOOHOOOO I get my room back.... I can't believe it that they can make such a mess of it. Even more messier than the average me. A-M-A-Z-I-N-G in a sarcastic way that is.... I probably need to spray my room with disinfectant foam or something. Okay I'm getting a bit insulting...

Anyway, talking to Bue and Larissa just makes my day. Haha I guess I prefer talking to girls rather than to boys. Somehow boy talk seem...empty? Unless you're talking to a gay then it is different. Much different. No offense. So I think my best friend would be a girl rather than a guy.

Anyway, we talk about my nephew Seth and his quest for cheap speakers when he first came to Malaysia a month ago? We were at low yat plaza.

Seth:
"I wanna get real cheap speakers, real cheap! I don't care about it's quality, I just want it cheap. I just wanna hear its cheapness! With the plastic wrapping and all."
So we like went in to the first store we see and he ask how much.
RM 15.
Then Seth was like, " WOW! That is cheap!"
Then we were like laughing our ass off in the store. Then he said,
"Don't worry, I'll leave them here when I go back to England. *That was the main reason why I wanted them cheap* "
And thats when I stopped laughing.
*He didn't said this but it was written all over his face. That fiend!*

The good thing is I receive the 4th book of the Wolf Brother saga, OUTCAST from my sister. Well, it is good and the plot is good and the description is good so I'll probably give it a 4 out of 5?

Last night I slept out in the living room cuz my mom kick me out of her room. Haha It was just not one of her days. So like a good son, I did that and laugh as I get sucked dry alive by mosqitoes....

Here's the plan for getting the Twilight series: Bue get the first two and Jon get the last two. So simple. Oh yeah and Larissa gets to borrow it from us...

Thats all for now I guess.

Prijaten den!!! (thats Bulgarian for Have a nice day!)

I wanna wake up where you are....

2008-08-19T08:29:00.006+08:00

Dear Paul,
How was I to know that you were watching me sleep? I awoke to see you laying
there and just then, you smiled and said hi and that just melted me. I wish with
all of my heart that I could wake to your beautiful eyes for the rest of my
life.
Love always,
Amanda

Now isn't that sweet? Oh how I wish I will have someone like Amanda and that I can be like Paul. But reality is just too far fetched or is it not? I won't know.
Anyway, Good morning!!

I just wanna share my top of the list of great actors:

NO.1

Johnny Depp

Come on, you know him. Despite all the drugs, alcohol, arrests, divorce and also his family background, he is still a damn good actor. He amazingly can portray offbeat and eccentric characters such as Sweeney Todd and Jack Sparrow. Not to mention the psychotic Mort Rainey in Secret Window. And who can forget pitiful Edward Scissorhands? Willie Wonka? Yes, he really can get into character but to get out of it is another story. Now, he's even more famous than the person who introduced him to acting, Nicolas Cage. Who? Who cares?

NO. 2

Jack Black

Yes, another great actor so to speak. He is not your average Brad Pitt or George Clooney or Harisson Ford. His acting career is extensive, starring primarily as bumbling, cocky, but internally self-conscious outsiders in comedy films. But he was nominated for a Golden Globe award so he is not a actor without skills and talent. You just can't say that. You'll remember him in School of Rock and Tenacious D. How bout King Kong? The one where acted as a director of a film? And Nacho Libre? Man, you've gotta love how he can roll his eyebrows. That alone is SKILL.

NO.3

Heath Ledger

Whoever do not know this guy should seriously find a tree and a rope and stare at it. I'm not suggesting anything suicidal. Just stare at it. Now seriously Heath Ledger is one of the best of the best actors you can find. Just by watching Dark Knight alone you can tell that. If you could just compare his accent in the interview and listen carefully how he portray the Joker's voice, you'll find him uncomparable.

To prepare for the role as the Joker Ledger told Empire, "I sat around in a hotel room in London for about a month, locked myself away, formed a little diary and experimented with voices — it was important to try to find a somewhat iconic voice and laugh. I ended up landing more in the realm of a psychopath — someone with very little to no conscience towards his acts."

I mean who can beat his passion for acting. He really is a great person.

".....no amount of money changes
what I do between 'action' and
'cut'...Before I got into the
industy, I never imagined I'd have
anywhere near the money I have
now...I don't need any more. It's
not thatI would have been
really happy sitting on a beach or
every morning. ...
I never had money, and I was very happy
it. When I die, my money's
not gonna come with me. My
movies will live on – for people to
judge what I was as a person.
I just want to stay curious. "
—Heath Ledger (2007)

Need I go any further? He definitely will win an Oscar award. If he doesn't the people did not chose him are just sick sick bastardo.

Enough being said. Whatever written here is by me and only me (except the quotes and the love letter). So all the credit, the blame, the responsibility goes to me (so to speak). If you don't like it then too bad. So much for me being romantic. Pfft.

I shall go and have my breakfast now. And hopefully I can study somewhat.

اتمنى لك يوما طيبا !!! (That's Arabic for have a nice day!)

Genetic Variation & So Happy Together...

2008-08-18T11:25:00.011+08:00

Yay, the blog's 4 days old!!! yeah, I am getting a bit lame.
Sadly to say yesterday I was half asleep through the sermon... But I did understand something out of Daniel's vision. Anyway, after that we had a funny discussion about patriotism.

Yeah, I shan't mention all the trash we talk as I found this verse:

Proverbs 21:23
He who guards his mouth and his tongue
keeps himself from calamity.

Anyway, we also talk about Olympics.... Woe to those who don't have Astro.... including me. Then we had a chat with Mr Kong Yeng Pooi about BB school and the problems its facing like the government keep sending only the naughty students and kicking out the good teachers and replacing them with people who don't even know how to enter the class room on time (or not at all). Quite eye opening I guess. Basically we need man power. I strongly suggest that we change it to a private institude (although it is costly and the government 90% will not approve it) . I mean we should like run the school like we used to. So if I grow up and become rich and famous, I'll definately chip in and help with BB.

Lunch with the OA youths was really....honest? I mean there is not a shred of deceit in them unlike city people. Simplicity really is cool. I mean they like share whatever is on their mind sooo honestly. I remember 3 of them, they were Diana, Suria and Idah. Haahaha all girls... what does that tell you? Anyway they like talk about what they want to be when they grow up and stuff like zat.

Lee Chong Wei match really was a waste of time... come on, like he lost flatly with a captital F. More than 10 points different? I enjoyed the way Li Dan celebrated his victory. HAHA he threw his shoes at the crowd!

Today Bio was a blast... I think .... Singing in class with Jun Yu really makes time go by so fast. HAHAHA

Songs that I sang in class:

So Close
Bad Day
Rule the World
Boom de Ya DA
And the BEST song : So Happy Together

haha Somehow these songs are timeless... Like Mexican food, keep coming back at ya!

Haha Keen King's father sent me back home. So kind.... must be because of my charm.. >.<

joking joking....

Damn.... I need to do my holiday homework soon.... Even though I haven't even bought the exercise books needed to do the homework.... Genius are me....

(The Lims are back!!! YAY!!!)

Imagine me and you I do
I think about you day and night
It's only right
To think about the girl you love
And hold her tight
So happy together

If I should call you up invest a dime
And you say you belong to me
And ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be
So very fine
So happy together

I can see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me
Baby the skies will be blue
For all my life

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together

Lekker dag! (It's Afrikaan for Have a Nice Day)

The Higher You Fly, The Harder You Fall (so to speak..)

2008-08-17T00:13:00.012+08:00

Going out for dinner at Ming Tien with Cheow Lay and David was cool ( Eventhough it was CLEARLY expensive). Did any of you peeps reading this knew that gereja and sekolah were originally Portugeese words? Kinda makes perfect sense because the Portugeese are after all the first western invasion in Malaysia. Which is saying something.... Like Allah, the Islams here claims that only they can use it since it is "their" word. Basically the word Allah means God. But in actual fact, Allah was already used among the Jews before Islam was even born. So why oh why are the people who ban non-muslims to use the word so narrow minded?

http://www2.dw-world.de/southasia/SoutheastAsia/1.233666.1.html

Haha, I'm getting a bit racist now. At least I'm a logical racist.

Quite often now I get this feeling that I'm empty. No idea. Or maybe is this feeling that I may say something stupid and unthinkable like what Anderson once told me," This is my theory, I think you are undergoing this phase where you are afraid you will say something and embarass yourself."

Or maybe is love or being loved? I have no idea. I probably sound like a small child on a crush. Too bad, that's how i feel. I sometimes also feel that I want to be generous, but no one will let the chance for me to do so? Yeah. Sometimes I get the feeling that I don't really know my true self anymore.

Yeah this is getting a bit emo... On the brighter side of life, today YF was great eventhough it was quite empty. What the Bible class taught me today was more about immoral sex and incest. That is what Genesis 19 is all about. But behind that, there is a lesson. Ask me about it and I'll tell you (if I don't forget it). The OA youths were quite enthusiastic today and seem to be enjoying themselves.

Sadly my brother and David is going off tomorrow (or is it today?) early in the morning. But I felt extremely proud of myself and God for nurturing and bringing me up when David said that I'll definately grow up to be a fine young man. Haha I guess being logical and full of common sense and a touch of great personallity has its ups. Well, in actual fact I was just doing what any good Christian would do.

I also must often remind myself that God hates pride. Yes, I think by just admitting that I was arrogant is the first step towards humility.

Oh yeah, I finally found one of my favorite verse in the Bible that can be served as a great motto to those who interact with people daily:

Matthew 10:16 (New International Version)
I am sending you out like sheep among wolves. Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves.

Some say that religion are excuses people used to find refuge from reality, I don't believe that. To me, God is real and is around throughout eternity. So I agree with what someone told me somewhere before, "A free thinker is a no thinker." Those people don't believe in God because they don't understand him and can't accept the fact of not understanding something. They like to place boundaries around everything. Like you can do this, you can't do that. They just enjoy being in control over their lives. Like they will believe after The First World War there wouldn't be another World War or Titanic won't sink (and we all know what happen to that ship, don't we?) See, people feel comforted when there is a plan. They rather believe lies and fake promisses that there is no God.

So then when will we accept the fact we ARE not control over anything?

I have no idea why I have been thinking so much lately.... It's like Form 5 and things are not the same vague dream I deluded myself for the past 16+ years.

But in the end, it is really simple and the bottom line is that we all have choices to make. So why not take a chance at making the right choices today? After all the choices you make, makes you. Yeah it may be a pain in the arse and people might hate you for it, but the end results are rewarding. Yeah, so why not take a chance to fly? Even if you fall, you will have no regrets of flying.

Quote Batman Begins:

"Why do fall down? So we can pick oursleves up again."

Cheerio!

The life in a nutshell so far (Emphasize on the nut)

2008-08-16T10:46:00.005+08:00

I think the holidays will be a great chance to catch up on my studies, considering the fact that I hardly touch the book for the whole year when I CLEARLY should be since it IS SPM year. Oh yeah, I also unfortunately gotten chosen for NS, hopefully I'll be in the first batch and I'll be located to Sabah or Sarawak (not as in I want to get away from everything but I heard the training centres there are great). I heard that in all families, at least one child has to be chosen for NS. So heads up all the "only child" peeps.

Apart from that, I always thought acting would be a cool career. Haha. So maybe next year I could like join KLPAC or something. Of course I must also get some degree in case acting don't work out so well for me. Oh yeah, my sejarah teacher, Mdm Premila said I should be a cartoon character. Also an option. Last night, I had an intelligent conversation with David, my 2nd elderst brother...friend at a family dinner. Well at least he's the only sensible person there that night. He thought the same of me too. HAHAHA. Basically we talk about life and quotes such as, " Patriotisme is the last refuge for the scoundrels."

Then again may the will of God be done.

So back to the subject. Life. I always for some reason am always happy when people are smiling or satisfy with something. So I guess I am pretty selfless actually. Reminds me of yesterday when I, Stephanie and Kingo were doing a presentation on Konserto Terakhir "Identiti sebenar Hilmi terbongkar" What strikes out to me the most is that Pak Karim was willing to take care of Datuk Johari's long lost kampung son in secrecy to avoid spoilling the image and hapiness of Datuk Johari and his current family. Well most of you won't understand unless you're in form 5.

Also I think all humans should not take life for granted. If you think your life sucks and all the sh*t thats happening around you, think again cuz there is always someone out there who is more unfortunate than you. My advice is to always to enjoy the moment and cling on to God in everything. Going to God should be your first resource not your last resort.

I think I wanna read Twilight series soon. Then again I wanna read it after the movie and of course after the major exam.

I guess in life there are no certainties, only death, taxes and food. Anything could happen and smacked you right in the face. So basically what I'm trying to say is it is never too early to plan for the future.

Cheers!

Last Week...

2008-08-16T01:24:00.006+08:00

Last friday, we (as in Jun Yu, Keen King, Whye Shon, and Yang yang) went to celebrate their birthdays (all in august except me)

So right after shool we went to Mid Valley, went to watch Mummy. I was left all alone to buy tickets cuz Shon and Kingo were hungry and went to eat Carl's Jr.( Yang only came later cuz got tuition... the loser, and Jun Yu was at his house)

The movie was ok only laaaa, nothing spectacular. Sadly Jet Li and Michelle Yeoh were only side show and not main characters....

Anyway, went back to Jun Yu's house. (Getting a taxi at that time was impossible and it is only due to my charm that it was made possible) Reached there and bathe, and watch Olympics opening with the parents (They are such nice folks dunno how end up with a black sheep...litterally black) while Jun Yu was reading Breaking Dawn on the computer.... the addict.

At around 9, went to Bangsar and had Fish & CO. I personally will choose it over Chillis or Carl's Jr.Then Yang Yang came, i and Jun Yu wanted to see his sister but unfortunately it was too dark....

Then we went D'haven and did sinful things... HAHAHA no, no sex, just drinking, we met all sort of weird people there like Lucybob, and others (can't remember the other names even the name Lucybob was given by me). We drank quite a few weird stuff including 2 jugs of beer, long island, blue lagoon and AK-47. I drank like 3 mugs and 1/3 of Jun Yu's AK 47 (I didn't even get high though... so I acted drunk cuz dun wanna feel left out). The rest were sheesha-ing like no tomorrow.... ( I skipped that one out cuz i dun like the idea anymore pollutants invading my body). The bill, predicably, came up to 200 plus ringgit. The geniuses or genii?

After that the "genius" Shon wants to go CC and because of his "genius-ioty" Jun Yu lost his handphone, we spend more money cuz we took taxi from bangsar all the way to DJ... AND we lost the DoTA game....

We then came back round 3 a.m and crashed hard we did. I even took picture on my hp and it does look pretty ....weird?Then we had a monstrous breakfast at a mamak, (well it was monstrous for shon cuz he inhales his food...) then the "great" Shon wanted to go CC..... even when he had no money....

Then they all decided to go back home, and I went to Matt's house and slept a bit at their nice sofa.... till 1? then lunch then YF then family dinner and bla bla bla.So that was pretty much my weekend last week...

(note to self: Don't trust whye shon with planning to go CC)